I basically took the day off and did literally nothing--but that is exactly what I felt like I needed to do for my mental health.

Physically, I'm pretty much worse than before but that's to be expected when in spite of my best efforts I didn't sleep long enough. I have no trouble sleeping! I get quite restful sleep, most nights. (There's the occasional outlier or two where I don't, but that's perfectly normal and happens to everyone.) But the problem is, I can't sleep for as long as I need to.

I am instinctively waking up when it's still the morning--even on days that I need to be waking up in the afternoon to get some sleep.

​Speaking of sleep, now that I've blogged I need as much as I can, due to work tomorrow morning, so. Bed!

Today at work was tough--it didn't help that there was a situation or two unavoidable (but which I can't detail in a public location), but even had those not happened, I'd have been struggling today, due to my illness. I've been getting bad enough where I felt like passing out, almost.

​So, not a pleasant day, but girlfriend time makes it more bearable.

And it is...not midnight, I can tell you that much.

​I am, provably, a moron.

It was bed at 2!

It's 2:15 as I write this!

​I am, provably, a moron.

It was bed before 2.
...It is currently a little after 2!

Worth. It.

Butyeah, no entry tonight.
​Sleepz.

When I have a need for a particular type of thing, specific nutrients, sugars, vitamins, whathaveyou, my body will tell me exactly what I'm lacking in the form of a craving for a food item that has a plenty. This is a fairly reliable tool for me to determine what I need. When I have a craving for peanut butter, I need peanut butter (apparently for the oils, I'm told?).

When I crave meat, I need protein/fat rather than carbohydrates (which is probably a good 80-90% of what I normally consume to be honest; my diet is incredibly bread-rich). And today, I got a craving for fruit (specifically, an apple), which could be for any number of things, I looked it up but can't list them all off the top of my head. Still, when I looked at them, my thought was, "yep, that seems accurate".

It also tends to be a good tiredness indicator, albeit one I consistently ignore. When it says I need to sleep, I should be sleeping, so I'm going to go honor its request.

But I am an addict, and therefore, idiot, so I'm well past my scheduled bedtime.
​WHOOPS.

Doesn't matter that I slept for 9.5 hours and then the entirety of my day was preparing for and then going to my staff meeting, I'm exhausted from said meeting especially given I am still noticeably sick in spite of the sleep.

​Soyeah, got an hour before bed, but will be going to bed.

So no entry today.

Or rather I got my girlfriend to help me fix the computer as much as was possible, which ultimately involved a restart.

A consequence of this is the new Chrome version got installed; I kinda hate it but oh well. I'll live.

​Health-wise, I've been not so great, but I'm still alive, so there's that.