I've got oh so many things I should update people on but blogging isn't a priority in my life.

Still, tonight I decided to kinda just...express a few ideas and I figured, hey, these ideas might be stupid, but I still wanted to share them with my audience.

So, without further adieu; 

Stupid political ideas I personally would love to see tried, despite the flaws:
-Cap rent at 30* the minimum wage per month for Studio apartments, 40* the minimum wage per month for one-bedroom apartments, 60* the minimum wage per month for two-bedroom apartments, and 90* the minimum wage per month for anything larger.

My idea here is that if you assume someone is working 30 hours at minimum wage, they should pay no more than 1/3rd of their monthly wage for a one-bedroom apartment. So, if they're working 30 hours a week then that's 120 a month. 120* the minimum wage would be their entire monthly paycheck, so 1/3rd of that would be 40* the minimum wage.

If the minimum wage is $10/hour, then that would mean monthly rent is capped at $300/month for a Studio, $400/month for 1-bedroom, $600 for 2-bedroom, $900/month for larger.

The law could be worked to offer incentives for landlords to make rent cheaper than these amounts, too.

-Make it illegal for phantom job offerings to be posted. If businesses advertise they are hiring, they must fill the position listed after they have candidates apply within 30 days of the posting. They may not take the posting down and then re-post it. Require every business listing a job to actually hire for the job they are listing.

-Make it illegal for businesses to throw away products that are still good. Require they go through a process of offering them at a discount and if they still can't sell the product of giving it away. Potentially provide incentives to businesses to donate these products.

One particular area to target for this would be food products and similar living products that come with expiration dates. Make it so that half-way through their shelf life they're discounted and offer incentives for them to be given away before the end of the shelf life, so that places like food banks are receiving food that isn't already past its expiration date. (I admit I don't know how to handle the particulars of this or the logistics involved, but the idea is to increase the amount donated and decrease the amount wasted and to make sure the donated products are still usable.)

-Make it illegal for businesses to hire externally before offering internal promotions. We were raised on the false pretense that anyone could work their way up the capitalism chain to the very top, but these days instead of promoting employees to higher positions companies vastly prefer hiring externally to fill vacant higher positions. Force them to work the way we were promised they would, and make it so they can't hire externally until internal options have all been expended.

This would pair really well with the phantom job offering being illegal, too.

-Make it encoded in law minimum wage increases by the expected amount inflation will. This wouldn't work perfectly, but would prevent minimum wage from remaining stagnant for decades/generations while inflation and the cost of living continue to increase.

-Make it illegal for anything to be resold unchanged for higher than 200% (double) the price it was originally bought for. This one would likely need fine-tuning to account for items that are of extreme historical significance, things deliberately designed to be limited in number, etc. But for every-day goods, make it illegal to price gouge past a certain point. Vendors need to turn a profit but they shouldn't be able to make that profit 500-1000% the amount they spent to get the product.

-Make it illegal for anything to be sold for higher than 500% or so the combined price of its components. This would similarly need fine-tuning to not stifle hand-crafted artisans' products, it would need to be targeted towards big businesses and corporations and industrial mass-produced items, with the aim being the same, to prevent them from large markups in a way bypassing the above.

(I do have more ideas for tackling inflation, shrinkflation, etc., but I don't have the words for them tonight.)

-To handle internet safety, instead of requiring IDs (coughcoughUK) in a way which is universally despised and leads to authoritarianism, make the law instead require companies/websites/games/etc. to recognize devices/internet connections/etc. which are in "family mode"/kid mode/have parental guidance controls turned on. We have the technology to do this already, they already collect that data, this would just require them to regulate off of it rather than allowing them to collect data on everyone. (I might not be wording this well but I hope you get what I'm going for.)

This would also pair well with education reform in making it mandatory for kids to learn internet history in an age-appropriate manner similarly to how sex ed is done in age-appropriate stages. Stick to really basics at younger age, scale it up to more details for tweenagers, as kids become young teens give them more info, etc. (Again, not worded well but I think you can catch the drift.)

Make it mandatory for places to also give this information and make it available to the adults/parents. Meetings, as public service announcements, etc.

Are these ideas pragmatic? Probably not! Good? Who knows? Unrealistic? Very likely! Incredibly naive and overly simplistic? Undoubtedly! I called them "stupid ideas" for a good reason! I'm not a lawmaker!

But I'd still love to see things like this tried, because I personally like the ideas.

Now granted. These don't touch on a lot of other areas which probably should be.

How to help local communities, particularly farmers. (I have ideas for that, too!)

How to help disabled folks who can't work a minimum wage job for 30 hours / week.

How to make sure media is preserved.

I've got a lot more stupid ideas for those and many more, too.

But I figure, hey, what harm is there in expressing these ideas? They've been sitting in my head for years now, I figured I might as well voice them as things I would love to see tried. Despite how stupid they probably are.

Hi, I am writing this across every platform I can, in order to best reach out to everyone and give them the rundown of things.

If you don’t know me, my name is Bree, aka, the Range of Bree System, aka Ranger, aka mastina2, and in most places I go by rBree2.

My elevator pitch for myself; I’m an autistic plural(median system) transwoman lesbian witch with ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety, and numerous disabilities both physical and mental. I’m 32 years old as of July 23rd, and legally married to the love of my life as of November 15th 2024.

Although, tangent; we're still hoping to have a wedding ceremony (we effectively eloped) in October 2026, pushed back from the initial plan of October 2025. But I digress.

Over my life, I've accumulated a fair share of interests. Writing, games, music, songs, Dancing, Poetry, art, Webcomics, and more. (I blogged daily about these things for nearly 10 years continuously!)

I've pursued all of them as a potential career casually, but never been able to get my foot fully through the door on anything. Professionally, I've been a lifeguard and later Aquatic Lead (formerly called a Lead Lifeguard) my entire adult life, for nearly 11 years (minus one missed year due to covid).

In online spaces, I am mostly known for my supportive nature. I bring joy and positivity to the spaces I choose to inhabit. I give my time, energy, and support to friends, loved ones, and even relative strangers who I happen to share a space with.

In my mind, everyone I talk to is a potential future friend, because every friend I have ever had, I got from talking. I share memes, I make silly wordplay jokes, I just vibe with folks. I provide my presence and provide that source of constant engagement. 

I talk about my passions, my interests, my life, and listen to them talk about theirs. I find their stories fascinating, and I am pretty good at remembering what they tell me, too!

Whenever people run into issues they want advice on, I give what I can. When people are down, I provide perspective. I help people see the best in them, when they can’t, and I provide ways for them to recover, rebuild, and keep going forward. 

I give my life perspective to share that they are not alone, and I give them guidance. I am in many ways a teacher and a counselor/psychiatrist/healer. I give people a way of reframing their life, in a way which encourages healthier mindsets.

One of the main ways I share small reminders and tips is with my daily check-ins. I started them to encourage everyone to check in daily to let people know they're alive and okay, and chose to encourage engagement by providing small boosts to the day, little things which can shed perspective on all their negative self-talk and allow for fighting against their weaknesses and building on their strengths. 

I want to share those with a wider audience than what I have, so I’m working to expand into other media. I eventually want to make a year-long calendar, and/or a year-long prompt journal. I've begun plans on making a series of 44 card oracle decks, too!

I've turned these daily check-ins into a webcomic, and occasionally into videos. I started a subreddit dedicated to providing them as well, and added a tag for it on the subreddit for my presence as a content creator. 

Speaking of which, I am a content creator.
I create videos of all kinds. On TikTok I primarily post memeposts, wordplay which I think of.
On YouTube there’s a variety. I vlog, I talk about passion projects, I provide longer uplifting messages, I educate people on subjects I’m familiar with particularly plurality, I provide unedited longer form recordings of gameplay for games, and I perform the various songs I’ve composed.

I stream on twitch. (And upload streams as raw vods to YouTube.) I’m a variety streamer, although lately I’ve been playing almost exclusively Cozy Farm Game type games such as Stardew Valley and Disney Dreamlight Valley.
Besides Cozy Farm Games, I primarily play RPG games, one-off story games, and childhood nostalgia games.
I also stream both art and my novelwriting process.

My current novel, Records of Farn, has as its own Elevator Pitch, "The genres of High School Hijinks/Shenanigans, Shonen, Shojo, Light Novel Isekai, and Harem blended/mixed into one, to tell an Epic surrounding around the effects the isekai’d protagonist has on the fantasy world she finds herself in."

Farn is a paracosm, with as much history as earth. It’s as old as earth in billions of years, had a planet collision to form one moon in a similar timeframe, developed primitive proto-life in a similar timeframe, sapients began forming around the same time, modern sapients appeared around 200,000 years ago, and civilizations have risen and fallen in parallel times to earth. The main difference is farn is a place where magic and religion are real, so the history of the planet is interwoven with mythological figures who explicitly had a proven tangible impact on the world.

Since this means there’s billions alive in the modern day, with hundreds of countries, cultures, and countless pop culture, I will never be able to tell the entire story of the planet, because to tell it all would be as impossible as telling all of earth’s history.

However, Records is specifically focused around the introduction of one transplant from earth, Vee, and her arrival on farn, and how her arrival transforms the planet thanks to the influence and consequences of her actions on the world stage.

Vee was designed as a protagonist to represent under-represented demographics. Namely, she’s a polyamorous plural transwoman lesbian with ADHD, autism, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. I asked the question what it would take for a person with those specific traits to be the one of eight billion sent as most qualified to farn, with her and farn evolving side by side.

I initially planned for three books covering the majority of the world. Records would cover Vee’s first three years in farn. I would write a sequel set after, and then an interquel between the two, with the interquel covering a lot of the expanded lore, filling in the gaps neither Records or the sequel would.

But I ran into a problem; I realized Records would, in its entirety, be akin to the entirety of The Lord of the Rings in length. I was effectively writing an entire series of light novels, or the entirety of a lengthy Manga like Bleach, or the entirety of an anime with hundreds of episodes, in one single book.

My first solution was to break it up by year. Year One as Vee’s first year, Year Two as her second, and Post-Graduation as her first year out and about fully in the adult world.

...Yet I've run into the problem where just Year One alone is likely to be around 2,000 - 4,000 pages in length, and the other years are likely to be equally as long.

...So my current plan is to return to the roots. I took great inspiration from light novels, so why not just have each book of Records be one or two Arcs, a la a Manga Volume, or an anime Season?

That will likely leave the first book at a reasonable 400 - 600 pages.

And I am actually pretty close to getting it written! It’s about one tenth done for a first draft, and the hardest parts of setting the framework are almost completed, with snippets of the rest written and a pretty comprehensive timeline established.

I just need to put in the work to make it.

And I have a lot of plans for the expanded farn universe. I genuinely believe that Farn as a franchise is, if handled properly, worth a billion if not multiple billions of dollars. (Mind you, I have no interest in even being a millionaire yet alone a billionaire, but I think my world has that much value.)

I think if I could successfully pitch it to a service provider like Amazon or Netflix, Records of Farn would make an INCREDIBLY good anime. We're talking, Demon Slayer or Jujutsu Kaisen levels of animation and popularity. There’s enough characters with their quirks and backstories for endless amounts of investment in the world, and with a show to provide their official looks, that opens the door up to merch. Figures, shirts, you name it, anything which could be sold and distributed to people on a worldwide basis.

Especially since it wouldn’t end there!

Records has a planned sequel and the interquel still, both of which could be adapted to be their own, shorter, anime series!

And then There’s the expanded world lore.

I have in mind a Battlestar Galactica slash Lost type live action soap opera dramafest covering the distant past revolving around the continent of Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, and how it led to the rise of Dabadon, the Demon God-Lord of Slothfulness. I have always thought that, given the opportunity, I could successfully pull off what all the pale imitators who tried to copy what those shows did, tried to do but failed. I feel I understand what made those shows work, and how I could artificially recreate what was accidentally made by circumstances of the time.

I also have in mind a musical, covering the downfall of the Federation of Ranmoan Children, aka the Ferachen Empire, and how Zeboel the Demon God-Lord of Envy was birthed from that late stage capitalism hellscape.

And then There’s a novel covering the rise of Rarma, the Demon God-Lord of Greed, and how she conquered Angea, putting an end to the era of colonialism in the old world.

And There’s more!

I also have in mind a book-slash-anime series called "Fallen Farn", a 'what-if' alternate universe covering one possible rendition of what farn would look like without Vee’s influence, one possible way things pan out without Vee accomplishing her full potential. In essence, it shows one possible world which diverges from the canonical farn at a point where Vee easily could have failed, and shows the consequences of that failure in an alternate future separate from the canonical sequel and interquel.

That’s four to five anime series, one musical, and one live action series, beyond all of the original books to be written, all with the potential merch to match!

And the sequel I intend to write has the theoretical potential for sequels after it to be written, too!

That, aside from how there’s at least one fictional MOBA video game which easily could be turned into an actually real one.

By my estimation, I have compiled 6,000 pages of notes for farn, and there’s plenty more unwritten I’ve stored exclusively in my head. A veritable Similarian of notes!

When I say this is a potentially billion dollar franchise if properly enabled, I well and truly believe it to have that level of worth. Farn is a rich, interesting world, truly equal to earth in scale, and that provides the ability for a truly endless amount of stories on every type of media.

And farn is just my current obsession as a paracosm.
I've made more, like the Rubyverse of my webcomic Red Hood Rider of equal scale to farn. (Heck, even The Descended is sizable.)

I've been writing stories since I was 13, and that has led to dozens, even hundreds, of rich worlds I can with relative ease write and bring to life, as I aim to with farn.

And I have more passions than just farn, too!

I also want to write and illustrate a children's book series, with an illustrated picture book containing captions which rhyme, telling subtle easily digestible morals to children through the eyes of the protagonist. Messages like "you might not like going to the doctor, but it helps you stay healthy", how to play safe, how to explore, etc.

I am a talented enough artist and wordsmith to pull it off, where I could potentially write a new book every month and release dozens in the series.

...But all of this, all of these ideas, all of the creativity, all of the passion, all of the support I give others, all of the love, kindness, education, resources, and so on and so forth I provide? All that joy and positivity, all that potential?

...Is in jeopardy, because I myself am in danger by the dire straights of my current life circumstances and the desperation thereof.

My work recently made policy changes which in effect removed accommodations for my disabilities. My work already strains me above 25 hours per week, and removing the parts of the routine which made it bearable is exhausting me to the point I genuinely might collapse at any given moment.

And on top of that, I have been given extra job responsibilities without any extra pay for the compensation of the increased workload. I’m doing more work, with less accommodations for my disabilities, and getting no increase in my pay or benefits from it.

Just my one job, now averaging closer to 36 hours a week, a full ten more than I can realistically handle with accommodations, while having those accommodations removed, and doing extra work for no extra pay? Is genuinely pushing my body and mind past breaking. I very well may perish thanks to my job if conditions don’t improve.

But it gets worse. Despite all of the above, my job doesn’t cover the cost of living. Me and my wife are both employed at soul-sucking jobs which are taxing us beyond our breaking points because we both have disabilities, but despite two jobs, we still aren’t making even close to enough to even survive.

Despite how our current jobs could already kill us, we're looking for second, even third, jobs, to get four to six sources of income, because that’s what we need at the moment.

Our apartment complex illegally upped our rent by $100 last year, without any notice. And when we renewed our lease, we went from having all utilities except power included for free, to being charged for every utility. Garbage, sewage, water, all previously free, but adding an additional couple hundred dollars.

Excluding power and internet, which together are an extra $300, our monthly rent went from $1700 to $2000, without any notice. Our first indication we would be charged for the utilities was the first monthly bill after we renewed our lease.

And this extra $300 in rent has slowly been building up to drowning us to a point where we can't keep it up, and last month finally was the breaking point.

In July, we received a $2,000 bill we had to pay. That was our rent money, and since we had to pay that bill, we had nothing left for rent.

So we have received an eviction notice. We have through August 7th to pay the rent, at least $2,000 but potentially $4,000, or we get evicted on August 12th.

We've been trying to pursue every aid resource. We've hit walls on food stamps in navigating the bureaucracy. We would qualify for legally disabled and get the benefits from it if we could actually afford to go to the doctor, but we can't.

My health insurance at the end of last year upped my monthly rate from $150/month to $550/month, a $400 increase I couldn’t pay. So I've been without health insurance all year long, and even if I had it, I wouldn’t be able to afford even the copays. We've been catch-22'd price gated out of qualifying for disabilities.

If we could afford to see doctors and receive their care, then it would be shown medical intervention isn’t enough to make us fully functional members of society, that we are in fact by the legal standard considered disabled. And that would open up the resources of disability to us. But because we can’t afford doctors, we can't get those resources, when those resources would likely enable us to afford doctors. We're trapped locked out of receiving the care we legally should qualify for.

Housing resources have largely given us no leads. We've pushed cheaper housing and programs to largely no effect.

We've tapped just about every resource left, and have nothing left.

And all of this builds on top of each other. My job exhausting me, trying to navigate the bureaucracy of receiving aid exhausting me, my own body exhausting me, hunting for cheaper housing, everything is adding up to breaking me, and if I do break...There’s no fixing me after.

All of the ideas, all of the creativity, all of the joy, all of the positivity, all of what I do, all the good I could ever do, all of the passion, all of that is on the verge of disappearing. Forever. Of being gone, permanently lost to the world.

So this is a final call for aid.

And to give a tangible answer to what you can do to help, there’s actually quite a lot!
You can send items or food directly to us. Either through throne (which has surprise gifts enabled), or through me DMing you our address.

You can spread the word. Share this, in post form, in video form, however you can, anywhere and everywhere.

Advocate on my behalf to any agency you think will listen.
Legal agencies which might take up me as a client for the illegal things I’ve been enduring.
An agent and/or manager who you think might believe in me and my vision such that they're willing to take a chance on me and believe that I can actually create what I believe I can.
Aid programs you think could work with me.

Jobs which you find that could work with us and our disabilities, ideally remote work which pays a significant amount.
Fundraising organizations or individuals, who might be interested in campaigning for us.

Or even just directly plugging how to support us.
You can support me through twitch subs and bits, albeit at a low payout to me.

You can donate to my kofi,
Or even commission something from me if you want a tangible return on your investment in me.

You can donate to our GoFundMe.

And you can spread the word to others.

You can follow, subscribe, and watch my content. (Ads on twitch when I stream, potential monetization on TikTok + YouTube.)
Here's a list of my links, my carrd.

Spread my content, spread the word of my need. Spread the word of the things I've gone through, of what I am hoping to do, of what I already am doing. Tell people about me, in any way shape or form you can.

I’m running out of time.
I have so much to offer the world.
I just need some help surviving in it.

To be technical, it was a dream after I had woken up for the morning, work was canceled due to the snow, and then I went back to bed, so it's more like a dream this morning.

But this was no ordinary occurrence.

I had a dream that felt real. And more than that, it felt like I was viewing flashes in time. Memories sent to my past self, from my future, but like memories often are, not in chronological order.

The first I saw was of me and my wife, Kelsey, raising a daughter. (One I felt had a name starting with A and at least one more a in it, and which felt like it was primarily softer sounds rather than mostly harder ones.) I saw her as a young girl, somewhere in the age range of 4 - 9, and we were raising her in a relatively large space.

The second I saw was of her, now a young adult, visiting us with her own daughter (our granddaughter), around the same age range of 4 - 9. What initially confused me was that she was visiting us in a smaller space than the one she was raised in, but it was still her and she was still visiting us.

Then I saw a vision of us buying what felt like a mansion--a place large enough to raise our infant (she was appearing as a baby less than 2 years old, felt less than a year old) and to let Parker, our puppy that we just got, run free. (Oh yeah I haven't blogged in nearly a month, so I forgot to share the news in a blog. kels and I have a puppy now! He's a 4 month old white Shepherd mix. We don't know more yet.) We somehow managed to get a place for the both of them.

And then I got a vision of us, after our daughter was an adult, going back to a smaller residence, it felt like an apartment. It wasn't something we needed to do, but for whatever reason we wanted to.

And it felt so real.

I shared it to my wife, thinking it important...

...And then I was blown away to learn...

Kels had nearly the exact same dream.

kels had seen us raising our daughter.
kels had seen us having a larger house.
And kels had even seen us making the decision to downsize.

We had nearly the exact same dream at the exact same time.

That feels like it can't be coincidence.

Like...obviously, there's no guarantee that what we saw will come to pass. This felt like it wasn't a vision of an alternate reality, it felt like it was a premonition of what's to come in this one, but at the same time, the future is fluid. What happens isn't set in stone. So there's no guarantee this will be a life we live.

But at the same time?

...I want that vision to come true.

I want to make what we saw come to pass.

I don't know how we'll pull it off.
Every step of the way is uncertain. How we'll raise a daughter (method of getting a daughter), how we'll get the funds to procure a place for her, how we'll make all of it happen.

But...I want that future. And kels does, too.
And that has given me a whole lot of hope for the future, too--if it's a future we currently hold the power to make, then it is a future that is worth living in and raising a child in, where that child may choose to have a child of her own. 

I don't know how we'll pull it off--but having seen this future so vividly and clearly, with my wife having seen it too, and both of us wanting to make it happen, we'll find a way. We have to.

I'm not giving up on that future, on having a family we raise. What we saw felt like it was a gentle nudge, a reminder, of the lives we want to live. And it doesn't need to be perfect, it doesn't need to be exactly as we saw, but, I believe if we take actions in pursuit of that future, it will happen.

We're facing overwhelming challenges. Illegally high rent, medical insurance exploitation, health issues, work issues, car issues, and more ugly surprises at every turn. It's not going to be given to us, and would be easy to be taken away from us. We need to not only take action, but also prevent those which close off that future.

But, I believe in that future, and want it. How we'll get there, we're still figuring out. But it is a future worth fighting for.

After one of the worst possible weeks to endure, today was terrific.

To catch you all up, my car nearly exploded on me. I told my boss about this, and my boss threatened corrective action if I didn't show up despite how my car wasn't safe to drive. So I drove a damaged car to work (endangering my safety in the process), it nearly stalled four times and had multiple kickbacks and was probably damaged by this process more than it already was.

And, knowing it wouldn't make it back home, I made some emergency maintenance on my car at work. The good news is, it mostly fixed the car. My car could still break any day, mind you (largely from the damage sustained from the drive I didn't want to do), but it's less likely to after the repair I did. The bad news is, because I wasn't in an environment suited for the repair and had to make it myself and without the tools at home, I spilled oil all over.

And then my boss threatened me again from it, saying if the oil got to the storm drain then the city could sue my workplace and I would be held liable for it. This being the same boss who I TOLD HER ABOUT MY CAR BEING UNSAFE TO DRIVE. I would not have needed to repair it in my workplace parking lot if I wasn't threatened with corrective action for prioritizing the repair over prioritizing showing up for my scheduled shift.

But because my boss threatened corrective action if I did prioritize the repair and my safety, I had to sacrifice both for the sake of showing up for my shift. And then to make it back home the emergency repair I did made my boss threaten me AGAIN for something which never would have happened if she listened to me in the first place!

And then I had to wait all day for them to come up with a solution. Tired, cold, hungry, with no help, and no effort to prioritize the spill over anything else. And I will have to pay for the stuff which got bought to be used, after my next paycheck. Meaning they are going to charge ME for a problem MY BOSS CREATED BY THREATENING ME and not listening. I SAID my car was unsafe to drive, and instead of accommodating for my life circumstance, I had my job threatened, and had to try and do a repair in an environment ill-suited for it, and got threatened for the result.

All of this also meant that I was outside in the freezing cold for a long time. Doing lots of hard physical labor. Banging and bruising my head and back. While sick. I was, and still technically am, sick. And I was straining myself by overly physically exerting myself. And being exposed to the cold for a long time. 

And since then I've been just trying to rest, relax, recover, and get through the day.

That led to a lot of things, namely, cleaning, at our apartment falling behind.

Until today!

I fully cleaned the apartment of all trash, removing it all.

I made progress on getting the dishes cleaned, too!

So like...got a lot done and am still resting and relaxing.

A lot could go wrong, but at least today, I have a lot to be proud of. <3

...Okay to be fair, I haven't blogged a lot so that joke is less effective than normal, butstill.

I'm still sick, recovering. Returning from vacation got me one sickness, and to be honest, I'm not even sure I was over it when Christmas hit and I got another sickness.

Both me and my wife got it pretty bad, but we're recovering.

And we've gotten some really good stuff now.

We're getting a free futon, as well as apparently also some free other stuff. A free desk and maybe recliner down the line.

So we've been cleaning our apartment to make room, and already our apartment is so much neater and cleaner.

There's a lot more work to be done, slow going because we're sick still and we don't want to prolong said sickness by pushing it, but it's going and going pretty good!

We got a lot of cooking supplies, including a microwave, so once again, in all ways but one, life is good!!!

The one way it isn't remains illegal financial charges, but...we're working on it.

In the meanwhile?

I'm making tremendous progress on my novel!

I'm cruising through writing, and in terms of organizing notes...

...Well, it's, ah. It's both going well, but also needs some cleanup. Because my worldbuilding is going faster than my notes can keep up with.

I know the details of basically every Abundant Argon.

When they formed.
Why they formed.
What they look like.
Even ones I didn't before.

I have an unofficial backstory for Luden (kept that way deliberately, but rather extensive), and a loose ETA of when. I always knew what Luden looked like.

I've always known what Lilith looks like, and her backstory (rather extensive). Her timeframe of when is actually a bit of a chronological rock/anchor for me in fact; knowing when things happened in regards to her lets me place when they  happen because of how well I know her timeline.

​Zeboel I relatively recently figured out the event causing their fall, what they look like, and the time involved. It's enough to be a Musical.

Deumos I already knew was the demon who caused Bothai's fall, but Deumos's own backstory, I figured out today!!! (It's ridiculously extensive.) Some of Deumos's backstory would be shown during Bothai's story, and Deumos's character growth would be largely because of Bothai. This also gave me his appearance.

Sanatas I knew the appearance and backstory of (relatively extensive). He was kinda a rock, as he had to be pre-Seidonia.

Dabadon I knew the approximate appearance and backstory of already. He was another rock, thanks to sinking Seidonia. A story extensive enough to be a live action show imo.

Rarma's appearance and backstory I've known for quite a while. (I want to write a novel about it in fact.) The one thing not QUITE set is the timing of her ascension. It's after Deumos's, as she wasn't ruling Angea back then, and presumably after Mastemo's unless she randomly left North Angea untouched. This would make her among the younger, but not among the youngest, as she's pre-Bothai (who is pre-Rothasta).

Belchevore's backstory is largely lost to the ages, but I know what he looks like now! And I have an approximate time he rose to power, too! (It's in one of the two Dark Ages. I'm thinking the mini Dark Age caused by Toran's fall, placing Belchevore as between Deumos's Ascension and Mastemo's Ascension.)

Mastemo, I knew the appearance and backstory of (pretty extensive, although relatively easy to summarize). He also served as a bit of a rock, as I knew exactly what the earth equivalent of his Ascension was. (The earth equivalent being the Fall of Rome. The farn equivalent of the Roman Empire pushed him too far in corruption, laziness, and greed.)

​Trisairo, I know the appearance of and have a working backstory (I admit it's basic, as it amounts to "She's the Demon of Order, who tried to bring Order to the Fae Realm, and the Fae being Fae, this was Not A Good Thing", but not every member of The Abundant Argon needs a whole life story. Most do, but it needn't be ALL of them.)

Ditto Milodee. Trisairo and Milodee are two of the few chronological absentees, in that I don't have their timeframe established yet.

Both are on the much older, but not ancient, side. We're talking pre-Deumos. Whether pre-Dabadon or post-Dabadon is the real debate at the moment. I'll figure it out soon.

​Bemoheth and Athaneva are unique among the Abundant Argon in that they have no backstory. I don't have their exact appearance nailed down definitively, or at least not their human forms. (I know what their true forms look like.) They are basically as old as farn itself, so they predate even Luden. While I need to know what their human forms look like, I don't need to know anything more about them because there isn't more to know about them. They're proto-spirits who chose to become demons just because they could. They're siblings and spouses. (Demons and Gods, natch. Refer to basically any mythology for how Gods are entwined.) That's about it.

​Bothai is one of the youngest Abundant Argon. I've known his backstory and appearance for a while, but finding his exact chronology has been a challenge. I'm honing in on an approximate timeframe, but it isn't nailed down to anything specific quite yet. He's younger than Zeboel by a considerable margin, and younger than Rarma, too. In fact I'm pretty sure he's the third-youngest, with only Rothasta and the 18th Abundant Argon as younger.

​Belreach is basically as old as Bemoheth and Athaneva and ever so slightly older than Luden, so is among the oldest of the Abundant Argon. I know his backstory, for what little there is, but his exact appearance isn't quite nailed down. He's a man. He looks like a dude. That's...about it, for details I know for sure.

​Phaimyustazael is one of the Abundant Argon I know the least about. He's got new info I know about him as of today (well, mostly it's stuff I internally already had, but wrote down more definitively), namely why his name is so ridiculous compared to the others. (As the King of Contracts, it's by design. It makes it easier for him to deceive people and makes it harder for would-be loopholers to succeed.) I have a really good idea what he looks like (basically, a constant grin fairly pale white man with black hair that's slightly animesque but more subdued and realistic, with shining ocean blue eyes), and a basic idea of how he became the Demon of Contracts.

I don't have an exact chronology set, it's somewhere likely in the range of Deumos: definitely after Dabadon, but before Mastemo. He might be the farn equivalent to King Midas? (As Midas was pre-Troy and Deumos was at the end of Troy, if so this would make him pre-Deumos but responsible for a disastrous fall of an empire.) Which would place him as over 4,000 years ago.
Someone who could cause the fall of an empire like the Babylonians, Myceneans, Hittites, or Assyrians. He could have caused the equivalent of the Knossos, Crete earthquake, the Minoan eruption, or the equivalent of the Thera eruption, etc., all about 200 - 500 years prior to Deumos.

And then we get to the youngest two.

Rothasta was 100 - 200 years ago in the demon realm. Her life as a mortal was pre-Bothai, and might be even pre-Mastemo, as knowledge of her kingdom was lost even to him. Since knowledge of an entire kingdom being wiped out with no trace is rare, this places her most likely human on farn times as immediately post-Zeboel or immediately post-Deumos. However this culminated in her actual Ascension being only a couple hundred years ago because she held onto her humanity in the demon realm for hundreds of years. I know what she looks like, and what she did. Her own pre-guardian history is lost even to her, but I can trace it based on her kingdom not having any trace of existing. It's quite possible she was a resident of the Ferachen Empire, in fact. But if so, would be closer to its founding under King Arnos. She could have even met the guy, been friends with him, even been one of his knights.

And the youngest of the Abundant Argon technically hasn't formed yet, but is known who they are to the Abundant Argon. The 18th member is a spoiler though, but I know who they are, what they look like, and what would cause their Ascension.

Soyeah. Making a lot of worldbuilding progress!

The Abundant Argon have always been a kind of linchpin by which the rest of farn's history has formed through. Other pantheons' rules were modeled after the Demon God-Lords out-of-universe (not in-universe). Ditto their powers, how they work, etc. The mechanics of divine entities were largely reverse-engineered from the mechanics of demons specifically. So, similarly, their history has shaped farn's own history, as well as geography.

I've mapped out farn's geography to have most places named.

And with the abundant argon having shaped the history of those places, I have basically the entirety of the background of the world of farn memorized to the level of an average farn well-educated college general-education adult.

Which is about the level of earth well-educated college general-education adult about earth's geography, history, and religion.

I've always said that farn is comparable to earth in history, geography, socioeconomics, geopolitical climate, cultures, etc. But now I have the how laid out, to the point where I can point to earth events I know about, and point to their farn equivalent. And vice-versa. And how they're similar, and how they're different.

Farn and Earth, despite Farn having magic and explicit deities as well as numerous different sapients, follow nearly identical trajectories as a whole in their progression and regression, in their societal collapses and empire collapses and empire rises. Not identical, especially as The Old World became more "crowded" by divine beings as time passed, and The New World was discovered far sooner chronologically (we're talking basically a thousand years sooner or so, loosely speaking), with Bairn's history more being a mixture of USA and United Kingdom history (history for the region dates back to the equivalent of the Roman Empire, so 1600+ years ago, albeit with large gaps until 1000 years ago or so when Baeyern, the farn equivalent to William the Conqueror, founded the country that would bear a simplification of his name), so like...it's not really a 1:1.

A lot of earth events are condensed into a single farn event, and vice-versa, with what might be a single earth event having been extrapolated to be numerous different farn events. But loosely, the overall trajectory of the two planets is OVERALL comparable, enough that any reasonably relatively well-educated adult from earth if transported to farn would just kinda...GET it.

Both so that Vee, said earthling, would be able to comprehend...and more pragmatically, so my readers, also earthlings, can too!

I hope you all like the final result.

Farn is eventually going to be turned over to the masses.

I've always seen me as just the medium by which stories of farn begin to get shared. Not as the only earth resident producing them.

Farn is as real as earth is, but that makes it a world too big for me to tell every tale of. I want to open it to others, too.

So the work I do now will help let others carry on my work in telling the tale of the planet after I am done sharing what I personally know.

Let's write the future together.

My body requires an annoyingly large amount of upkeep. I basically have a ridiculously fast metabolism which was meant to slow down except it never actually did. As stereotypical as it is, I have the metabolism of a teenage boy. Or maybe not quite that high, so let's say teenage girl. (Who are not the stereotype so I assume are still high consumers but not quite as high.) I need to eat a lot. Like, a lot a lot. I'd roughly estimate probably in the 3,000 range to not have a deficit? I dunno how food really works for the body, honestly. But I need to eat a lot to maintain 100%.

Like...no matter how much or how little I eat I never gain or lose weight. Not in any significant notable amount. I average somewhere in the 148 range. If I am eating a lot and less active that can climb higher but never above 153. If I'm active and starving myself it can fall to like 143. But I don't really gain or lose any real notable weight. I have no idea why, but that's just the way my body works. (I know, a lot of people would consider this a good thing, but it's just a thing, neither good nor bad.)

All of this is to say, what I eat doesn't matter for my weight. But it does matter for my energy and my ability to function throughout the day. (I'm getting to the point, I promise.) When I'm not eating enough, I end up lethargic, lacking energy, drained easily, tired, mentally foggy, etc. And I require a ludicrously large amount of food to eat enough. We're talking three large meals a day as the bare minimum. Which, I can't always get.

And lately...I've been having the opposite.

My wife and I since we've gotten back from vacation have been surviving off a single container of Ritz per day. 1 - 2 Ritz cylinders, shared between us. Not each. That one or two packs, split between us. Half a pack, or one full pack, each. For the entire day. For the better part of three days in a row. While I was relatively physically active, no less.

Suffice to say, it had a rather...negative effect on my ability to function effectively. Like, it's enough to survive, but I was exactly the things I said above. Lethargic, lacking energy, easily drained, mentally foggy, easily stressed, highly depressed, etc. I was unable to really function at all.

...But now...today...I actually feel...well it's hard to tell, half of me right now feels fully full, half of me feels like I could have some more, so it's hard to say, but...I...might actually be full??? And like...for the first time since getting back, I don't feel drained. I feel energetic.

And more than that.

I'm feeling like I'm not sick anymore. Time will tell if I'm not actually sick, but I'm not feeling sick anymore.

And you know what?

All of this?

...Was only possible because of the support I received from loved ones.

My mom gave me just enough to deal with rent.
My dad paid for my car's tabs renewal.
But I still didn't have enough money for groceries after the literal thousands they bailed me out with.

Yet after I mentioned to my friends yesterday night what I was going through...

...They rallied to support me, and gave just enough money for me to get groceries today.

And because I was able to eat today, I am now feeling more alive.

I have received the support of so many who have given me just enough to make it by, this month.

The one and only thing I haven't dealt with is the company that I believe is illegally charging me.

Granted! I still have to pursue taking action against the illegal charges and fighting back.

And I need to find food banks that work with my work schedule so I can go to one after work.

And I need to look into things like food stamps.

And I need to do a lot of stuff still.

And I didn't quite have the ability to today because while I was gaining energy today, I didn't have the energy until about an hour ago.

But! I am feeling hopeful. I'm feeling energetic. I'm feeling loved.

I know that I've gotten this far off of loads of support I won't be able to pay back.

But I'm not starving anymore. I'm not in despair anymore. I'm feeling like, tomorrow, I can tackle everything.

I can't afford to slack off--but at the same time, I feel like, as long as I don't? As long as I take action and am proactive? I will be okay. Things will work out. It won't be easy. But I am rested and recharged--tomorrow, it's time to use that energy.

I am insanely blessed. But I want to use that blessing and not waste it.

Thank you, everyone. For getting me through this tough time.

In whatever way I can, I will pay you back. I might not be able to ever pay you back in any meaningful way--but I still will pay you back. Because when I am this loved, it only redoubles my resolve to spread the love. You all deserve it. <3

...and only a fraction of it got done.

I wanted to make a followthrough blog to my blog about what happened last year, talking about the three worst things I could've done last year and how ironically, despite them being the worst possible things I could have done (and I tried my hardest to do none of them), it turns out there was validity behind them, in hindsight. Explaining this needs a blog proper, which I wanted to actually do yesterday, but I forgot until I crashed yesterday and today, I just have no energy for it.

I wanted to enjoy the Yuletide witch market, but I could tell kels wasn't enjoying it.

I wanted to get a lot of the apartment done, but I couldn't tackle the biggest area of the mess. I ran out of energy.

I wanted to work more on my novel, but that didn't happen.
I wanted to record TikTok and Instagram videos; neither happened.

I wanted to tackle more work on the illegal charges, but did neither.

I'm not progressing on any of the time-sensitive things I need to be.

And I feel pretty drained.

To be fair.

kels and I have been surviving on a single pack of Ritz per day. As our only meal. Shared between us. Yes, one or two cylinders, split between us, with no other food. At all. Whatsoever.

And I'm still sick.

And I did get a lot of cleaning done.

So like...I did have reason to get drained.

But...I still feel like I'm not doing enough quickly enough. While I'm not doing nothing, I don't feel like I'm doing enough quickly enough to handle life going forward.

I can't sustain this indefinitely. Things need to change. And for that...I need to step up.

I just am struggling to right now.