I also feel that even so, what that shows isn't worthless. Quite the opposite. It can actually reveal rather a lot, and bring forward some things which you wouldn't ordinarily think about, but when you reflect on them, are accurate all the same--the magic behind the cards, you could say. There's a method behind the magic, but there's a magic inside the method. So that's why I appreciated the reading.
It highlighted a few things, so I thought I'd share. I basically put forward the options of novel, Red Hood Rider, Descended, and life. For novel, I got ambition, a deep connection to it. But that there'd be the risk of getting overwhelmed by it. I got a normally negative thing for positive, which basically amounted to perception: that I have a negative one.
It also gave, via the negative, a perception of me. Obsession. There's the burden. The feeling that pursuing the novel is greedy, and there's frustration within. It did have a bit about being annoyed at how cheerful others are, and a feeling of guilt about that and keeping it a secret--believe it or not, that hit really home. Also included: alone, different, and depression, along with a potential feeling of being ignored.
For Red Hood Rider, I got success, failure, and ambitions. Focused around getting things done and reaching ambitions. Basically, it'd be something rich and full of ambition and curiosity and energy, exploring new paths. There's a path moving forward, with satisfaction: pride in my unique work. But it also represents some isolation. Also some stubbornness in ignoring advice. There's also a frustration in feeling a lack of feedback, which I admit...has happened.
For The Descended, the card basically said I would be getting away from depression--which is mind you, exactly what happened a while back if you'll recall. There'd be a better feeling of control when working on it, though it'd be tough: I'd be working to overcome exhaustion and emotional turbulence, for the feeling of calm. I would, however, feel isolated, with a feeling of being different. Empty, alone, but at peace.
And for life, what I got was again, negatives for the positives: pursuit of life would represent overcoming burdens, and as a result, feel like I belong. But if I try to stand up for my beliefs, I'll not deal with it well. It'd also be sacrificing all my projects, leaving me feeling a lack of control. It also represents a bitter reliance on money, which could NOT be more true for me. It'd be a rather sad existence, where I'd be calling out for help.
I rather enjoy the reflection it brought.