Still. All the same. When I have a combination of depression and a lull in things to do. I get, for lack of a better term, "bored": all the things my mind first jumps to as possible activities are for whatever reason not things which I have an inkling of either desire or ability to do.
For instance, I can't talk to my significant other because if I'm doing my timezone math correctly, they're asleep-or-if-not-asleep-SHOULD-be-asleep. I can't do schoolwork today because accountability sheets are due every Friday and I turned mine in yesterday for bonus points that were offered--so if I did any work today, it would be "free" work, not counting towards my total. (Also, I don't wanna.)
I don't even have family night as an excuse to chill out and do nothing and to limit my time, because family night is...going to be weird. Holiday weekend and all that. I don't know what the plan is, but I know what the plan is not. And the plan is not tonight, so. No family night tonight, meaning I've got as much time as I want all to myself.
I don't have any immediate mafia game obligations at the moment anyway.
So I've basically got four options I can think of:
-Play Civ 3 again. I don't want to start that, because while I have the time right now, I know I won't have it later and doing so feels like a mistake. Also, my only options are to save scum or to abandon a war to the point where I question whether it would be worth it. Probably not this one.
-Get back into the modding groove of things by knocking out some mod design stuff I procrastinated on. This is actually viable and something I need to do sooner rather than later (I do after all actually want to run these games while there's actual interest in them, not literally half a year later), however, I just feel like it's not something which I need to do right now and my desire isn't that high. It's something I can do, that I thought of, but not really something which I want to do.
-Get caught up in webcomics. This one won't take me that long, and I do want it done, but...I actually have a bit of a higher calling right now. And that is...
-Art. Now, I still don't want to try a proper revival of my webcomic, since I know I don't have the time/ability to do Red Hood Rider right now. Okay, so I want to, I just know how stupid it would be to try. However, there are other art things I do want to do. For instance, remember my entry about outdoing myself? I want to color that image.
Really, really badly want to try coloring that image.
And I have the time to do so, even.
And I think I have the ability; I've learned new tricks which could help me make it better. (In theory, at least.)
And there's other things I could do. For instance, clearing off the scanner so I can use it and uploading in an art dump all my sketches that I've done. (And there's been quite a number which I have done!) I don't quite know what I'll manage to get done.
But I want to spend today on art at least partially if not entirely, so.
Wish me luck.