You know, the ones who wonder where I go to when I'm not checking in? (I know you exist, even if you hide it well.) Well I thought I'd give an update. Right now, I am at a key moment--I can't really do anything right now. But I am in the zone where I am EITHER: about to bounce back and suddenly start doing things, OR: about to get ten times worse, crash and burn, and completely detach myself from reality.
I'm not sure which it is. I came in thinking it'd be the former, but I am well aware that times which look like they will be the former can take a sudden turn for the worse and transform into the latter. I wish I could give you reassurance. I came in here thinking I could, but then I realized that might be a lie.
Basically, what I want to say--and what is most likely to be true--is that you'll have to bear with me a little bit longer, but that I'm almost through the depression phase. I'm cautiously optimistic. But said optimism does come with CAUTION, in that if I fail it will be a spectacular failure, and I won't know until tomorrow which I'm headed towards.
It could be neither, with me remaining as-is, but I just kinda...well, feel something's going to change by tomorrow. I thought it'd be for the better, but there's no guarantee. We'll just have to see, and of course, hope. With luck and me trying my best to muster what little skills I possess, I'll manage to make some semblance of a pulled together life.
I'm not sure which it is. I came in thinking it'd be the former, but I am well aware that times which look like they will be the former can take a sudden turn for the worse and transform into the latter. I wish I could give you reassurance. I came in here thinking I could, but then I realized that might be a lie.
Basically, what I want to say--and what is most likely to be true--is that you'll have to bear with me a little bit longer, but that I'm almost through the depression phase. I'm cautiously optimistic. But said optimism does come with CAUTION, in that if I fail it will be a spectacular failure, and I won't know until tomorrow which I'm headed towards.
It could be neither, with me remaining as-is, but I just kinda...well, feel something's going to change by tomorrow. I thought it'd be for the better, but there's no guarantee. We'll just have to see, and of course, hope. With luck and me trying my best to muster what little skills I possess, I'll manage to make some semblance of a pulled together life.
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