I can feel it. The drive is there.
I can do it.
Just need to focus a little and get it.
Get everything I need to master, mastered, at work. Get work schedule regularlized.
Then medical transition stuff, under control.
It'll also help once I am not spending ~4-8 hours per day watching Worlds 2021 in League of Legends. (Something I do genuinely prioritize because I know that if I don't watch it almost immediately, I won't watch it at all. And I DO want to watch it.)
I feel like I am close to doing what I need to do.
Just, need to keep at it, because my life is mine to control.
I am close to the balance I need. Don't have it yet, but I can feel it. I'm close to getting it.