I got back into streaming. It was, unfortunately, a bit of a short stream. My mother gets up at 5 am, my sister goes to bed at like 3:30 am, so that gives me a narrow ~1.5 hour window in which I can stream interference-free.
I also know the streamer lifestyle now of getting immensely tired. I've been staying up until ~6:30 am to watch League games, but in spite of that, one hour of streaming made me feel like it was bed time. I was struggling to word, I was struggling to think of things to say, I was struggling to focus, I was feeling like "dead streamer energy", as in, streamer feeling dead near the end of their stream where you can visually tell that they are tired and need to end the stream...I felt that.
So I couldn't go on much further even without the 5 am deadline of my mother.
This is a deadline that won't exist on Friday Nights going into Saturday and Saturday Nights going into Sunday but right now I expect to be bingewatching the LEC during those times and will need to choose between watching the LEC or streaming and I actually favor watching the LEC. (There's certain LCK teams I want to watch; I always want to watch the LEC. Besides that, League is mostly "I'll watch it if it's on, but I don't go out of my way to catch it." Meaning I'd prioritize streaming over watching it. But with LCK matches I want to see and/or LEC matches I want to see, they take priority over streaming to me.)
I'll hopefully be getting into streaming more tho, but it does depend a lot on how my coming out goes.
As a reminder...that's a thing. Which is coming up. Rapidly. We're in the 8 day mark, almost one week mark. I have done plenty of work, but I've got a lot more work to do yet and I need to get to a point of being prepared/ready that I've not yet reached.
We'll see if I can continue that tomorrow at the one week mark.
I also know the streamer lifestyle now of getting immensely tired. I've been staying up until ~6:30 am to watch League games, but in spite of that, one hour of streaming made me feel like it was bed time. I was struggling to word, I was struggling to think of things to say, I was struggling to focus, I was feeling like "dead streamer energy", as in, streamer feeling dead near the end of their stream where you can visually tell that they are tired and need to end the stream...I felt that.
So I couldn't go on much further even without the 5 am deadline of my mother.
This is a deadline that won't exist on Friday Nights going into Saturday and Saturday Nights going into Sunday but right now I expect to be bingewatching the LEC during those times and will need to choose between watching the LEC or streaming and I actually favor watching the LEC. (There's certain LCK teams I want to watch; I always want to watch the LEC. Besides that, League is mostly "I'll watch it if it's on, but I don't go out of my way to catch it." Meaning I'd prioritize streaming over watching it. But with LCK matches I want to see and/or LEC matches I want to see, they take priority over streaming to me.)
I'll hopefully be getting into streaming more tho, but it does depend a lot on how my coming out goes.
As a reminder...that's a thing. Which is coming up. Rapidly. We're in the 8 day mark, almost one week mark. I have done plenty of work, but I've got a lot more work to do yet and I need to get to a point of being prepared/ready that I've not yet reached.
We'll see if I can continue that tomorrow at the one week mark.
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