There's so many things that I want to do. There's so many things that I should be doing. Yet I wouldn't know where to begin. These things are stupidly simple when said. Things which are as basic as "taking initiative", "talking", "doing what you said you would do", and the like. But I'm not really doing a good job at these things. Some things, I don't feel like doing even though I know I should. Obligations, responsibilities. Other things though...other things, things I actually want to do. I am having a similar aversion to.
It's just a mess. I don't quite know how to pull the pieces of me together such that it's not. Because right now. I am unambiguously a mess.