Basically, the story is good, involving acts of god, but my mood today hasn't been the best since aside from the moments of divine intervention to lighten up my day and give some semblance of cheer to an otherwise-bleak time, my mood has been a bit gloomy.
I know for a fact that with my recluse ways, I am depressed at the moment. Have known it all day, suspected it since at least yesterday if not earlier. (I think I might have had an inclination towards the suspicion on Monday?) I am, undeniably, feeling down, withdrawing into a shell and just doing less and kinda shutting down.
I use environmental factors as an excuse. I am sick. I had this happen. I had that happen. But I know that while those are true and DO contribute, right now I'm kinda just...feeling altogether down. Just a little out. What word for that is there if not 'depressed'?
Because yeah, that's pretty much depression.
In other words, while I have a great story to say, right now I'm too depressed to tell it all. I couldn't even tell the full story to my girlfriend (though I told at least some of it), when I normally tell my girlfriend the full story of things I often only partially tell.
That not having the passion to tell the story was what sold the depression as being tangible.
Mind you, I can probably imagine worse times for depression to hit--but not many worse times; this is pretty high up on the list of "uhg, why is this happening to me NOW when I really need it not to?" for depression.
But there's not much I can do.
It IS here, and I can't change that it is here. All I can do is hope that things don't get worse.