I think the realization kicked in when I wasn't really feeling like dancing to most of the grooves on the radio. I usually would be prancing about like an idiot and being a goofball, but I was basically serious and morose the entire time. Work didn't have any incidents beyond my mood being bad, though.
Of course, I'm utterly exhausted, since the bad sleep combined with work means I really want to nap.
But, I have some confirmation of family night tonight. My brother is in fact coming. Presumably it won't be just us four, so that means my parents will presumably be coming home as well. Whether we meet tomorrow or not, I don't actually know, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
For now, just know that I do have that, so won't get to talk much to people.
Which is a shame. I really, really enjoy talking to people. I used to actually be really really good at it online but at some point my skills atrophied. Ever since I've had a significant other, though, I've...slowly but surely been feeling those skills return, I feel like?
Like. I just feel like expressing myself more. Talking more. I feel more alive, and I want to share that enthusiasm with others and let them know of my experiences and why the world is worth living for. And this is something I am absolutely okay with. <3
Though I should take a nap.