Creativity without the means to make the idea as envisioned or even remotely close to it is truly a curse.

Because there’s this knowledge about a genuinely groundbreaking brilliant idea which you know would resonate with people, be a big hit, make them feel emotions, and really be seen as the genius they are...

...and the knowledge that as things stand, it'll likely never be made, ever. 

It’s a curse across multiple things. The other day, I actually wrote some in a story for farn--just not the story I needed to be. I was writing bits from the sequel to Records.

The initially planned second book in a trilogy, before I realized Records was too big for a single book. The book which would therefore require me to have written all of Records first.

And I haven’t touched Records of Farn for months.

I’ve also wanted to tackle further formatting my notes and transcribing them all in one or two places, bringing it all together in a single comprehensive place.

Haven’t done that in a couple months, either, although almost every time I go on a TVTropes binge I’m at least inspired to do a couple touchups. (Because Tropes are a convenient tool for describing characters and plot points.)

And now, I am plagued by THREE different cover artist band ideas for music. One would be mostly a meme, but technically the easiest. I’d just need to record my voice multiple times, then learn an editing program to put the recordings together and figure out how to format it for a YouTube video. 

The next easiest would require me to acquire a program capable of writing various different pianos and keyboards sounds/noises, and to properly educate myself on them, learn them, etc. My bells training as a percussionist never left me, so I would have a relatively easy time learning how to write the right notes, but tuning them to sound like the piano beat in my head might take longer. 

But of course, neither of those are the ones I am most called to work on atm.

The one which I want to work on is the one most impossible for me to do solo, and in general, would probably be incredibly difficult and grueling even for a small team to pull off. Because of course I would come up with an idea nearly impossible to be sustainable. 

This third cover song band wouldn’t actually be strictly speaking a cover band exclusively. 1 - 6 times per year, one of their original songs would be released. But the idea is weekly covers, as in, 52 songs per year...but presented in a way which is effectively four times as many.

The idea for this cover band is a Gorillazesque animated band with lore, both in terms of their characters and the actual setting. The world they’re on would have the aesthetic of partially post-apocalyptic, partially-dystopian, but would technically be neither. 

What makes it so hard to make is that each song would have four versions per week. On Mondays, it would typically be the member with a deep voice singing. On Wednesdays, it would typically be the one who belts out the lyrics without a care in the world as to accuracy, a free spirited voice in the spirit of a karaoke night where the aim isn’t to sing the song well, but to just have fun.

On Fridays, it would typically be trying to make an extremely faithful cover, matching as closely to a 1:1 as possible with my voice. 

And on Sundays, the three voices would combine, to form a fourth version, with the frontman and the background singers, kinda like a capella groups, but also still having the song's nonvoice parts too.

The art style for the weekday solo covers would largely be Sepia, often with a touch of lowfi aesthetic, but also heavily featuring black at the edges, and with splashes of color for the characters and important props. (For instance, hair and eyes always colored, and significant objects being held similarly so.)

This art style would frequently be like an animated digital oil painting, but also would frequently be like a thick, thiccc lines anime animation, kinda like the normal Sunday video. (See below.)

For the combined Sunday song, it can best be described as mostly Danganronpa cutscene with a dash of Scott Pilgrim. Muted colors for the background, mostly grays of a lifeless environment which progressively springs into life as the video progresses, with vibrant colors from the singers and their stage. Thick lines for the characters, but an almost lineless (and lifeless) background initially which becomes more animated as the song progresses.

The Sunday ones would be full musical videos, a la Offspring animated music videos or similar. They would do their best to mirror and parallel the original songs' videos, while still diverging into doing their own thing.

The weekdays would be more of an animated comic mixed with lofi vibe. With the focus on the band's members lore during their segments and the focus on the lore of the world and why it looks partially dystopian and post-apocalyptic during the Sunday videos, which would also gradually show the reason why things become more animated and vibrant as the video progresses. (Basically, the music of the trio is quite literally healing the land.)

The scope and scale of this project speaks for itself. It’s not impossible for a small team of artists/animators in tandem with producers to pull off a project of that scope. But it would be stressful to maintain that level of consistency in releasing four music videos per week, even if one or two of them are phoning it in.

And it’s actually not impossible for a single person to do it all! Just highly improbable, and requiring it to essentially be a full-time job. I’m a good enough artist to draw art in the caliber it’d need to be, but not a fast enough artist. I’d need to spend months practicing the styles and background details and character details to build that speed. We’re talking probably a hundred hours of practice minimum, and then teaching myself how to animate on top of that.

Not impossible, just incredibly difficult. 

If I could animate the Sunday video in two or three days, and draw the other three in one or two days, then I could have one to three for recording and producing. 

But producing, as well as animating, would require the coordination to make sure everything is perfectly timed and aligned, a skill taking additional work and labor. 

I have none of the know-how to pull this off at the moment. Yes, I can learn, but it would likely take me a dedicated 48 hours (not two days where it’s 8 hours per day, I mean 48 continuous hours across numerous days so likely a full month minimum) at least in order to build the foundation for at least stumbling through the idea to a workable level.

So of course this incredibly difficult project (not quite Phyrra and Cyrus in scale, but also not exactly viable currently) is what I am currently hyperfixated on expanding and building. 

A project that is brilliant, but unattainable without a radical shift in my life circumstances enabling a combination of finances and skills and time which I currently lack all of.

It’s still a nice idea though. 

I’m just forever cursed with the knowledge it'll never be made, just like the rest of my wonderful beautiful genius groundbreaking heartwrenching ideas.

A girl can dream tho.

​So I've been wanting to talk about this for a long while now, but I decided to pull the trigger on outlining one of the most important pieces of background lore in my current novel, Records of Farn.

Specifically, revolving around the eighteen Demon God-Lords, also known as the Abundant ARGON. Each of them is the demon of one sin, and yes, there's eighteen sins because seven is wholly uncreative.

They are the eighteen most powerful demons in existence, and by virtue of being gods, their existence is literally written into the code of the universe.

I've hundreds of pages of notes on the Abundant ARGON alone, both because I used them to figure out how divine beings work on farn and because I found them to be interesting characters.

I don’t want to spend too much time summarizing the mechanics of demons, demon gods, and the Demon God-Lords, and how each differ from the others, but I will Breefly mention that each of the Abundant Argon could desperately use therapy, but by virtue of all demons being prideful and stubborn and masking their weaknesses, none of them are likely to ever seek therapy from The Immortal Therapist (who I should also talk about at some point, just...not today).

So instead, I wanted to give a rundown on each of the eighteen.

Loosely speaking, the first demon is Belreach, The First Damned, Demon of the sin Creation, and the father of all demons. He wasn’t created as a demon, but some unknown force tasked him with creating the concept of a demon and the limits on them. He achieved this, but in his own desires, made himself the first of such beings.

He was the original King of the demon realm, ruling over all demonkind as an initially uncontested ruler.

There’s a deliberate lack of detail to him, because this is a time period predating most deities even existing, so a lot of the details to him are deliberately left undefined. However, I will say, he's not currently master of all demonkind, despite being their Progenitor, and only commands a fraction of them.

The next two demon god-lords, who technically became demons before Belreach, are the sibling-spouse duo of Bemoheth and Athaneva. And yes, sibling spouse in the Zeus Hera sense, invoking all of the pantheons which have a male and female sibling duo who are married. It’s one of the main reasons they became demons.

If you were to add an L and i to Athaneva, I think the anagrams would be clear, they're basically Behemoth and Leviathan.

They were originally proto-spirits, the form of being that would eventually coalesce to become Great Spirits, and were SUPPOSED to be the top two in the pantheon of Great Spirits. However, when Belreach began defining demons, these divine beings decided effectively "sure, why not?" And just became Demon God-Lords. Because they could.

Athaneva, The First Chaos, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Chaos, as she is quite literally primordial chaos. She defied what she was meant to be and lives to cause as much as possible.

Bemoheth, The First Beast, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Existence, as his very existence as a demon is blasphemous to the very universe, again because he was meant to be the top God of the Great Spirits, but as a proto-spirit opted to not become the first Great Spirit and instead exist as a demon.

Together the duo are considered the Progenitors of all monsters, because they are what birthed monsters across the land of farn.

There’s not really much to their characters, because they are self-explanatory. Their essence is simple, and their power as primordial gods unrivaled except by other primordial gods.

The fourth Demon God-Lord is Luden, the First Fallen. He is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Pride.

He is the ruler of the citadel, the central fortress in the middle of the demon realm. By virtue of the Abundant Argon meeting in his realm, he is the de facto leader of Demon Conferences.

He is considered the King of Demons, and if you couldn’t guess, he's the reason Belreach isn’t King of demonkind. He was a bit of an upstart, but gathered an army which waged a demon war, conquering land after land, built the citadel, and then resisted Belreach's siege of it.

The two, with Mastemo’s help, eventually reached a truce, which would ultimately end up dividing the demon realm into sixteen parts, controlled by the eighteen Abundant Argon.

Sixteen, because Athaneva and Bemoheth share a territory, and one of the Abundant Argon has her realm as a small portal half outside the demon realm.

You might ask who Mastemo is. I'll cover him later, because he's one of the younger Demon God-Lords. So, if he's one of the younger Abundant Argon, how was he there for the first Demon Conference? Because all eighteen were. I don’t wanna ramble too much on it, but basically, the Demon God-Lords by virtue of being written into the code of the universe have always existed and their presence can be felt throughout all of time, despite them having tangible timeframes they manifested on farn. So while only four Demon God-Lords had manifested, all eighteen were still present.

But I digress. Luden is loosely based on the concept of Lucifer as a fallen angel, who becomes the ruler of hell as the father of sin, and so on and so forth, Christian lore insert here, you get the idea. He has a rather Darwin approach to demons, survival of the strongest. If a demon isn’t strong enough to figure out how to survive, then they don’t deserve to live.

His backstory is something he deems only his equals of knowing. What's known is that he was originally a member of a different pantheon, which by the nature of the pantheons around at the time could only have been either Ellun’s Pantheon or him being among The Archangels.

He was originally genderless, and part of his sin of Pride was him becoming exclusively male, abandoning any genderless, genderfluid, or feminine forms or parts and fully embracing the identity of male.

I know the details of what his backstory is, but I don’t want to share them. I'll say he's really complicated, in a way I think is really cool, but I don’t want to reveal what the convoluted circumstances were.

I'll say he was the first Demon God-Lord whose presence had tangible consequences of ripple effects on farn though. He was the cause of one Archangel suffering a brief episode of diverging from the intended path of Archangels, which then set off a chain reaction across every pantheon including influencing the other two Archangels to suffer a temporary divergence from the intended path, which in turn would create circumstances leading to the birth of over half of the Abundant Argon.

In short, what he did was so egregious, it shaped the majority of all misfortune on farn. He might not have invented demons or been the first, but he is effectively the indirect architect of every misfortune on farn to follow. Including the fifth Abundant Argon!

And that would be Lilith, The First Succubus. She’s the Demon God-Lord of the sin Lust. Now, Lilith is a main character in Records, so unlike the rest of the Abundant Argon, she actually gets a chance to tell her backstory. I'll say she was the first mortal to ever ascend to Godhood though.

One of her secondary titles is "The Last Primordial", because she is the last, the youngest, of the Primordial Gods, the Old Gods, the gods predating the landscape of farn as it is currently known.

And the reason she is the last of them is because of her being the first mortal to become a god. She put an end to an era of various pantheons waging a divine cold war against each other, because they all had to pause and collectively go, "Oh shit. Our actions can have consequences birthing Gods equal to us in power."

Now, obviously, all of the younger Abundant ARGON still formed! So obviously, there was still divine beings intervening with consequences. But her ascension to Demon God-Lordhood represented a cosmic shift in the effects of the divine on farn, with their influence scaling back from daily and nearly omnipresent to more passive and only on occasion.

Because she showed mortals could become gods equal in power to all prior gods, there was a sudden need for caution in actions taken, because rival gods born from mortals would be likely to hold grudges against those who had led to circumstances of such extreme suffering necessary to birth a God.

The next Demon God-Lords don’t have a strict order, but formed less than 200,000 years ago but over 70,000 years ago.

Sanatas, The Destroyer, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Wrath. He's effectively Poseidon, Krampus, and Satan rolled into one. He was a proto-Beastkin, a tribal leader, who was very angry at the oppression his people were facing at the hands of Mountain Humans (read: Caucasian Humans).

The result of this was him becoming one of the four Abundant Argon associated with The Apocalypse, as in, his presence on farn is a sign an apocalyptic event is likely to occur on a grand landscape-altering scale. Bemoheth and Athaneva are two of the other three.

Trisairo, The Exiled Fae, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Order. She became a tyrant, ruling the fae realm with absolute order and strictness.

Now, fae on farn are pretty much exactly what you would expect them to be; inherently agents of pure chaos. Their only rule is that rules are more like suggestions. So imagine the scope of beings like that exposed to what Trisairo did. She subjugated divine beings of chaos to the very antithesis of their nature. She introduced gender to previously genderless fae, and her control over what shouldn’t be controlled had devastating effects on the fae.

It led to the creation of The Fae Arbiter, a creature which is simultaneously fae, and yet, not fae. Simultaneously has power over all fae, yet is entirely powerless. Simultaneously exists only to resolve issues of cosmic scale, while also existing to provide the best for all fae. Both mortal, yet immortal. The ultimate contradictory fae, who is everything and nothing simultaneously. (Think Schroedinger's Cat.)

Milodee, The Dragon Reject, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Blind Obedience. To understand her, I would have to explain the nature of dragons, but I don’t wanna go into a tangent on an entire different pantheon of gods. Loosely though, Dragons--similarly to Fae and Spirits--are inherently divine beings. Milodee was the youngest of the first generation of dragons to inhabit farn.

Dragons inherently seek having a hoard. They are inherently greedy and selfish and arrogant and seek power and to assert their dominance over lesser creatures, usually by ravaging lands.

Milodee rejected her dragon nature and fought for the people. However, this rejection of her nature took a toll on her, and left her vulnerable and weak. She sought a solution, and someone promised her an answer, if she followed his will without question. And she did. But he both literally and figuratively backstabbed her, and was just using her.

The turmoil of her inner conflict, the betrayal, the loss, and the toll the horrific tribulations she suffered because of her betrayal led her to go on a Lilith-scale rampage, ascending to demonhood despite already being divine. From the ashes of what she burned down, she used the lessons of her tormentors to build her own empire.

She went from always smiling and having a wide grin to permanently wearing a stoic look, because she was just that broken. But, part of her original protector nature remained, as she now serves as the enforcer of a divine treaty whereby all of the gods of every pantheon are to keep their influence to the old world, not the new.

So that's eight so far.
The next SEVEN can all directly or indirectly trace their origins to the same place. Only three of the remaining ten formed without any direct tie to the following.

Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, was a continent midway between the new world and the old world. Topla, the main city on the continent, was the capitol of the Toplan Empire. The Toplans (read: Atlanteans) had magical advancements loosely equal to or slightly superior to modern day farn. In earth terms, they had technology rivaling 2025 level of technology potentially slightly better than what we have now.

The Toplan Empire spanned both the new world and the old world, over 70,000 years ago. In their minds, they brought enlightenment to the primitive cultures around the world. Those who they were colonizing and conquering had a different opinion of their actions.

Eventually, zealotry, arrogance, corruption, and apathy led to the circumstances where Dabadon, The Commander, would undergo his demonic Ascension around 70,000 years before the modern day. Dabadon is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Slothfulness. He, along with Sanatas, Bemoheth, and Athaneva, form the four Abundant Argon signaling apocalyptic events, because they all together were responsible for sinking the entire continent of Seidonia, with all one billion inhabitants. The consequences of an entire continent sinking to the bottom of the ocean also sent tidal waves across the world, wiping out nearly every coastal city overnight.

However, this catastrophe still left what would be deemed The Toplan Legacy, a mythical claim to being the true heirs of the greatness which was the Toplan Empire. In short, the backing behind every colonial and imperial mindset to follow, all aiming to reclaim the lost glory of Seidonia.

It starts with Toran. Toran was the easternmost outpost of the Toplan Empire, a trade colony established to easily connect with the farn equivalent to Asia. Toran can be thought of as the farn equivalent to Troy.

Toran was, by some method, displaced in time by approximately 60,000 years. Potentially 66,666, if we wanna be extra dramatic. I haven’t canonized the METHOD of time displacement. It would either be a magical glacier of sorts locking them in place a la Dylan Hunt Andromeda style, or it would be them literally being flung forward in time, where they just were one minute an outpost of Topla, and the next find out Topla has been gone for over 60,000 years.

Regardless of the method of displacement, them being time displaced by 60,000 years or so is canonical. (Only the method hasn’t been established by me.)

Toran would go on to form the Toran Empire, spanning the farn equivalent of the Mediterranean Sea, forming their own outposts. They would expand into areas the Toplan Empire hadn’t, both further east and south, colonizing effectively the farn equivalent to Africa, Europe, and the Middle East, spanning upwards to India.

Their adventuring culture was structured largely like Danganronpa, with adventurers highly specialized to ultimate extremes, hyper-competent to Godlike extents in their chosen fields, and using those fields to accomplish great feats.

The cousin people to the Torens, the Tinians, are the farn equivalent to one iteration of Greece. Tinia was another Toplan outpost, but unlike Toran, Tinia had to take The Slow Path forward. They were ethnically and culturally identical to Toplan at the time of the sinking of Seidonia, and stories of their Toplan heritage and the displacement of Toran survived the 60,000 year gap.

When Toran reappeared, the two cousin people were happy to see each other, and established good relations with each other. Toran freely shared their Toplan technology, culture, and history with their cousins.

The Tinians, however, eventually felt betrayed by the Torens. Toran had an easy path to expand their Empire to match and in many ways exceed that of the Toplan Empire. Yet Tinia could only expand into the bitter hash northern regions, inhabited by people who were adept at pushing the Tinians back.

The inability to freely expand into the Norkan regions left Tinians feeling like the Torens were deliberately stifling their growth. The Torens in contrast felt it was best to let their cousins strike out on their own. After all, they did make progress in colonizing part of the Norkan region.

Which is very important, because the Norkan descendants will cling to that loose thread. Norkans are loosely the farn equivalent to ancient Germanic, Celtic, and Norse people all rolled into one, and Norkan raiders would through their descendants form one of the modern superpowers of farn. But that's lore for a different day.

The important part is that the Tinians idea of striking out on their own was declaring war on the Torens. The two were evenly matched in a long stalemate.

Eventually, there was a call for a truce, to be signed within the impenetrable walls of Toran. The Tinians expected the Torens to be so arrogant they wouldn’t expect it was a trap, with them planning to Red Wedding the Torens within their own walls.

The Torens, however, weren’t that stupid. They suspected shenanigans, and thought they had sufficiently prepared.

They both ended up surprised by the other, and instead of the desired decisive blow, it was closer to a mutual kill. Technically, it was a Tinian Phyrric Victory, because they actually achieved their goal and had off-shore survivors who would retreat from the scene of the disaster.

However, this was because of the birth of a new member of the Abundant Argon, Deumos, The Deceiver. As an adventurer, he was considered the Ultimate Analyst, and yes, those who know their Danganropa lore can guess that means he became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Despair. He predicted everything about what the Tinians would do, and was ignored. The Torens lost the battle because their impenetrable walls were their main advantage, and lacking it, he was their last survivor, and he massacred the Tinians who survived the bloody battle.

Tinia lost all of its military, the majority of its leadership, and most of its navy, so was left vulnerable to invasion on all sides. The Toran colonies of Ranmoa and Thyrrga briefly united in vengeance to strike out against Tinia from the south and west.

Meanwhile, the Norkans reclaimed their territory from the north.

And completing the pressure on Tinia was raiders from the east, led by Belchevore, The Consumer. Since this is one of the two dark ages in farn history, loosely akin in time and effect to the Bronze Age Collapse, not much is known about Belchevore, other than he was likely an Insectoid race of some kind whose conquests led to his demonic Ascension. He became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Gluttony.

After Tinia inevitably collapsed, the unifying force between Ranmoa and Thyrrga collapsed, and the two both laid claim to the title of Toplan Legacy, leading into The Legacy Wars. If you couldn’t guess, Thyrrga is the farn equivalent to Carthage and Ranmoa the equivalent to Rome, with this the Punic Wars. Like on earth, Ranmoa would ultimately win, establishing the Ranmoan Empire, spanning the geography you would expect a Roman Empire to.

The downfall of the Ranmoan Empire was the same factors of most empires: greed, corruption, and apathy. They wanted to continue expanding, but lacked the resources to. So, they forcefully drafted the peaceful scholar Mastemo and enlisted his help in perverting his knowledge into weapons of war. Mastemo was not amused. You may remember that I mentioned a Mastemo, The Forsaken Scholar, who is a member of the Abundant Argon? Sure enough, this is him. He destroyed the Ranmoan Empire and demonically ascended to become the Demon God-Lord of the sin Knowledge.

The fall of the Ranmoan Empire left numerous splinters, who were united by King Arnos, or King Arneros, who is basically a combination of King Arthur, Jason of the Argonauts, and King Charlemagne the Great. He was a nautical adventurer turned great King, who united these fractured people to form the Federation of Ranmoan Children. Tragically, his early death led to the Federation of Ranmoan Children having a conflict which led to private businesses effectively seizing control of the Ferachen Empire as it was now called. These private corporations effectively ran everything, including adventuring, as a for-profit venture, breaking thousands of years of traditional regarding adventurers largely working closer to socialism and/or communism in structure.

Suffice to say, this latestage capitalistic hellscape did not end well, and eventually, Zeboel, The Striker, the next member of the Abundant Argon, would destroy the Ferachen Empire in a rebellion which led to their demonic Ascension. (Zeboel being the only explicitly enby member of the Abundant Argon.) They became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Envy.

This led to the farn equivalent to the dark ages, because while the Ferachen Empire had a valid claim to the Toplan Empire Legacy, its collapse left only the distant memory of greatness, with fractured nations forming in its wake.

This led to the landscape you would expect for the middle ages through the Renaissance in Ycasia, the farn equivalent to western Europe. Nations eventually began to form mostly finalized boarders, gain stronger independent cultures, warred with each other, had kings and nobles and so on and so forth.

Eventually, this would lead to two more of the Abundant Argon manifesting as a consequence, in different parts of the world.

Bothai, The False Chosen, was a prodigy adventurer and great leader, who represented a threat to the elites of society. One of them sent Lilith to assassinate him, and much to her chagrin, she was forced to execute this, impaling him through the chest from behind.

His dying corpse landed in the ruins of a temple to Deumos. Deumos had, by this time, run afoul of Milodee and been effectively banished from farn. He tried to claim that because he was a descendant of the Toplans and there were descendants of Toplans in the new world, he could lay claim to it. His Loophole was considered insufficient, and he paid the price of having his entire following, history, and very existence erased. But Bothai, dying, bleeding out, on his temple, allowed him to connect with Bothai, and make a deal with a demon. Deumos would save Bothai’s life, in exchange for possessing Bothai and Bothai becoming an agent of restoring Deumos's presence on farn.

Bothai, already in the mindset of seeking vengeance against those conspirators who killed him, agreed. I want to turn this story into a webcomic, but the end result was Bothai becoming Deumos's equal, becoming the Demon God-Lord of the sin Ambition.

In a different corner of the world in a similar timeframe, the various nations of Ycasia were colonizing the continent of Angea, displacing the locals, enslaving them, etc. Rarma, The Ensnarer, a child of a white father and black mother, could pass as a tanned white person, but was very much a child of both worlds, with all the trauma that entailed. I also am planning to tell her story, but the short form of it is, she met a guy who became her one true love. They became warlords together and effectively declared war against all other warlords and every nation colonizing Angea. Eventually, Rarma ended up mortally wounded. Her husband kept her in stasis, fought off all enemies, and healed her enough to revive her, but in the process, he himself got mortally wounded, and a just-revived Rarma was too weak to reciprocate the stasis. The two had saved each other countless times, but she wasn’t able to save him so immediately after he saved her.

She took this quite poorly. She embraced the worst traits of both herself and her husband, expanding their plans, following through with them, and didn’t just fend off the opposition. She brutally CRUSHED them, conquering the entire continent.

She was driven to demonic Ascension by the maddening irony of how she could have everything she ever could ask for--except the one and only thing she wanted. Because not even the Abundant Argon can revive the truly dead, her lover was gone for good. So she became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Greed.

All seven of those trace back indirectly to Luden, because Luden’s actions drove the actions which created the Toplan Empire, and through the sinking of Seidonia, the resulting chain of events.

To chronologically backtrack a bit, Phaimyustazael became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Fear(also Deceit) a few thousand years before modern times. Less than six thousand, but over two thousand. You might wonder why his name is so convoluted, and it's by his design. He is the Demon God-Lord of contracts. Whenever you think "deal with the devil", it'd be him you’re making a deal with.

As the demon of contracts, he's an expert at making people who arrogantly think they have bested him painfully realize they have been tricked by Phaimyustazael, The Trickster. To understand why, you have to know how demon true names work.

The true names of demons are well-known. So a contractor or summoner knowing a demon's true name offers them no power over that demon.

UNLESS the demon ACKNOWLEDGES their true name in the presence of their summoner or contractor. If they explicitly say, "yes, this is me", then they are bound to the one who brought them to farn. This is why demons have hundreds of aliases and titles. They use those to avoid acknowledging who they are to their summoner.

Phaimyustazael, by virtue of his name and the spelling thereof being ridiculously hard to get right, weaponizes this. He will acknowledge misspoken versions of his name and typos thereof, to let contractors THINK they have been given full control.

But because they didn’t perfectly pronounce his true name, it doesn’t count as being his true name, meaning they actually hold no extra power over him, and they find this out the hard way.

The youngest of the Abundant Argon in manifesting, even though she’s been around for all of eternity, is Rothasta. I originally had her title as "The First Inquisitor", but I am realizing that all five of the Primordial Demon God-Lords have 'first' and none of the other 15 do except Rothasta, so I am looking for a new ?adverb? between 'the' and 'Inquisitor'. Currently I am going for 'Sullen', but that may change later if I think of a better replacement for 'first'.

Rothasta is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Sacrifice. She was sent by a now-long-gone nation to prevent demons from crossing through a portal connecting the demon realm with farn. While guarding this portal, she would never age, and so, she was an eternal guardian of preventing mass demonic incursion onto farn.

She did this as a mortal for at least a thousand years. She was informed nothing remained of her nation. Everyone she knew had their lineage die out, and all records of her kingdom were lost, erased, etc. In short, nothing about her mortal life remained, and she had no reason to keep fighting. But she did.

Until about a hundred years ago, when she just...snapped. She had known she had consumed the essence of enough demons where she could become a demon god for over a thousand years. She chose not to. Until one day, she just...didn’t. She just succumbed. And became the seventeenth of the Abundant Argon.

As for the eighteenth Abundant Argon, they have yet to manifest on farn. Their effect on the world has already been felt, with them a member of every Demon Conference, but they haven’t yet actually manifested on farn, so their identity is unknown because the events leading to their birth as a Demon God-Lord haven’t yet transpired.

Because of this, the eighteenth Demon God-Lord could be anyone, and be the Demon God-Lord of any sin.

Of course, I know who the five possible eighteenth members of the Abundant Argon would be, each representing a different possible eighteenth sin. While anyone COULD be the eighteenth, only five people have the circumstances where they MIGHT become the eighteenth.

The eighteenth Demon God-Lord could be the sin of Insanity, Clarity, Regret, Conflict, or Pacifism.

And you might wonder. "Why is there only 18, and not 24?"

Well that's because the circumstances surrounding these people mean that any one of them becoming a Demon God-Lord would change the landscape of farn in a way which would prevent the circumstances for the other four.

In short, it’s not that there must be eighteen Demon God-Lords, never more and never less.

It’s that it’s only possible for eighteen individuals to become Demon God-Lords. Seventeen already have. Five people could be the eighteenth, but any one of them becoming the eighteenth changes the other four in ways making it impossible for them to become one anymore.

The best way I can think to explain this spoiler-free is to ask you to imagine a hypothetical.
Say all five candidates for the 18th were friends, and the only trigger condition for becoming the eighteenth Demon God-Lord was a tragedy where the other four died.

Sure, if there were multiple trigger conditions, then it would be possible to have nineteen to 24. But because the one and ONLY trigger condition for this hypothetical is the other four possible people being killed, there can always only be one final demonic Ascension to Demon God-Lordhood.

While any of them COULD be the final Abundant Argon, only one trigger condition can ever trigger, because that trigger condition prevents the other four triggers from being possible.

Since all eighteen of the Abundant Argon have been at every major Demon Conference starting with the first, they have always known they would have eighteen in total, thus why Mastemo proposed calling the Demon God-Lords The Abundant Argon.

They knew that no matter what, circumstances would play out to have that number eventually. Not because it was set to be eighteen, but rather because it just happened the circumstances behind the formation of the eighteenth would prevent any future possibility of more Demon God-Lords.

I hope that clarifier helps explain the concept. Where it's not a rule of "there must be 18 exactly", and instead it's just "well, 18 of us form at some point".

The only other thing I want to clarify is that about half of the Abundant Argon have kingdoms on farn and permanently reside there, and the other half only dwell on farn when summoned.

The five primordials, Sanatas, Dabadon, Zeboel, Phaimyustazael, and Rothasta all have no kingdoms on farn, and exist on farn exclusively through summons and contracts. They mainly dwell in the demon realm.

Milodee, Trisairo, Deumos, Belchevore, Mastemo, Bothai, Rarma, and the eighteenth Abundant Argon, all possess kingdoms on farn. (Or in the case of the 18th, WILL possess a kingdom.) Effectively, their subjects are a form of permanently summoning and contracting them.

There’s a lot more to demons, Demon Lords, Demon Gods, and Demon God-Lords, and how each is different from each other, and how demons work, because I only touched on the bare minimum of the mechanics involved.

And most of the Abundant Argon have a lot more to their stories and characters. I didn’t cover any of their secondary domains, which is what they are usually actually worshipped for. People pray to the Demon God-Lords to provide them something, and while it CAN be their primary domain of their sin, it's usually actually their secondary traits they get worshipped for.

For instance, Lilith’s primary worshippers are slaves praying for freedom, as Lilith’s secondary domain is freedom from slavery, loosely speaking.

Each of them, including the eighteenth, have secondary aspects to them. At least one pro-something and a correlating anti-something. But I think describing all of them is best saved for a different ramble.

I hope you enjoyed this one!

Hi, I am writing this across every platform I can, in order to best reach out to everyone and give them the rundown of things.

If you don’t know me, my name is Bree, aka, the Range of Bree System, aka Ranger, aka mastina2, and in most places I go by rBree2.

My elevator pitch for myself; I’m an autistic plural(median system) transwoman lesbian witch with ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety, and numerous disabilities both physical and mental. I’m 32 years old as of July 23rd, and legally married to the love of my life as of November 15th 2024.

Although, tangent; we're still hoping to have a wedding ceremony (we effectively eloped) in October 2026, pushed back from the initial plan of October 2025. But I digress.

Over my life, I've accumulated a fair share of interests. Writing, games, music, songs, Dancing, Poetry, art, Webcomics, and more. (I blogged daily about these things for nearly 10 years continuously!)

I've pursued all of them as a potential career casually, but never been able to get my foot fully through the door on anything. Professionally, I've been a lifeguard and later Aquatic Lead (formerly called a Lead Lifeguard) my entire adult life, for nearly 11 years (minus one missed year due to covid).

In online spaces, I am mostly known for my supportive nature. I bring joy and positivity to the spaces I choose to inhabit. I give my time, energy, and support to friends, loved ones, and even relative strangers who I happen to share a space with.

In my mind, everyone I talk to is a potential future friend, because every friend I have ever had, I got from talking. I share memes, I make silly wordplay jokes, I just vibe with folks. I provide my presence and provide that source of constant engagement. 

I talk about my passions, my interests, my life, and listen to them talk about theirs. I find their stories fascinating, and I am pretty good at remembering what they tell me, too!

Whenever people run into issues they want advice on, I give what I can. When people are down, I provide perspective. I help people see the best in them, when they can’t, and I provide ways for them to recover, rebuild, and keep going forward. 

I give my life perspective to share that they are not alone, and I give them guidance. I am in many ways a teacher and a counselor/psychiatrist/healer. I give people a way of reframing their life, in a way which encourages healthier mindsets.

One of the main ways I share small reminders and tips is with my daily check-ins. I started them to encourage everyone to check in daily to let people know they're alive and okay, and chose to encourage engagement by providing small boosts to the day, little things which can shed perspective on all their negative self-talk and allow for fighting against their weaknesses and building on their strengths. 

I want to share those with a wider audience than what I have, so I’m working to expand into other media. I eventually want to make a year-long calendar, and/or a year-long prompt journal. I've begun plans on making a series of 44 card oracle decks, too!

I've turned these daily check-ins into a webcomic, and occasionally into videos. I started a subreddit dedicated to providing them as well, and added a tag for it on the subreddit for my presence as a content creator. 

Speaking of which, I am a content creator.
I create videos of all kinds. On TikTok I primarily post memeposts, wordplay which I think of.
On YouTube there’s a variety. I vlog, I talk about passion projects, I provide longer uplifting messages, I educate people on subjects I’m familiar with particularly plurality, I provide unedited longer form recordings of gameplay for games, and I perform the various songs I’ve composed.

I stream on twitch. (And upload streams as raw vods to YouTube.) I’m a variety streamer, although lately I’ve been playing almost exclusively Cozy Farm Game type games such as Stardew Valley and Disney Dreamlight Valley.
Besides Cozy Farm Games, I primarily play RPG games, one-off story games, and childhood nostalgia games.
I also stream both art and my novelwriting process.

My current novel, Records of Farn, has as its own Elevator Pitch, "The genres of High School Hijinks/Shenanigans, Shonen, Shojo, Light Novel Isekai, and Harem blended/mixed into one, to tell an Epic surrounding around the effects the isekai’d protagonist has on the fantasy world she finds herself in."

Farn is a paracosm, with as much history as earth. It’s as old as earth in billions of years, had a planet collision to form one moon in a similar timeframe, developed primitive proto-life in a similar timeframe, sapients began forming around the same time, modern sapients appeared around 200,000 years ago, and civilizations have risen and fallen in parallel times to earth. The main difference is farn is a place where magic and religion are real, so the history of the planet is interwoven with mythological figures who explicitly had a proven tangible impact on the world.

Since this means there’s billions alive in the modern day, with hundreds of countries, cultures, and countless pop culture, I will never be able to tell the entire story of the planet, because to tell it all would be as impossible as telling all of earth’s history.

However, Records is specifically focused around the introduction of one transplant from earth, Vee, and her arrival on farn, and how her arrival transforms the planet thanks to the influence and consequences of her actions on the world stage.

Vee was designed as a protagonist to represent under-represented demographics. Namely, she’s a polyamorous plural transwoman lesbian with ADHD, autism, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. I asked the question what it would take for a person with those specific traits to be the one of eight billion sent as most qualified to farn, with her and farn evolving side by side.

I initially planned for three books covering the majority of the world. Records would cover Vee’s first three years in farn. I would write a sequel set after, and then an interquel between the two, with the interquel covering a lot of the expanded lore, filling in the gaps neither Records or the sequel would.

But I ran into a problem; I realized Records would, in its entirety, be akin to the entirety of The Lord of the Rings in length. I was effectively writing an entire series of light novels, or the entirety of a lengthy Manga like Bleach, or the entirety of an anime with hundreds of episodes, in one single book.

My first solution was to break it up by year. Year One as Vee’s first year, Year Two as her second, and Post-Graduation as her first year out and about fully in the adult world.

...Yet I've run into the problem where just Year One alone is likely to be around 2,000 - 4,000 pages in length, and the other years are likely to be equally as long.

...So my current plan is to return to the roots. I took great inspiration from light novels, so why not just have each book of Records be one or two Arcs, a la a Manga Volume, or an anime Season?

That will likely leave the first book at a reasonable 400 - 600 pages.

And I am actually pretty close to getting it written! It’s about one tenth done for a first draft, and the hardest parts of setting the framework are almost completed, with snippets of the rest written and a pretty comprehensive timeline established.

I just need to put in the work to make it.

And I have a lot of plans for the expanded farn universe. I genuinely believe that Farn as a franchise is, if handled properly, worth a billion if not multiple billions of dollars. (Mind you, I have no interest in even being a millionaire yet alone a billionaire, but I think my world has that much value.)

I think if I could successfully pitch it to a service provider like Amazon or Netflix, Records of Farn would make an INCREDIBLY good anime. We're talking, Demon Slayer or Jujutsu Kaisen levels of animation and popularity. There’s enough characters with their quirks and backstories for endless amounts of investment in the world, and with a show to provide their official looks, that opens the door up to merch. Figures, shirts, you name it, anything which could be sold and distributed to people on a worldwide basis.

Especially since it wouldn’t end there!

Records has a planned sequel and the interquel still, both of which could be adapted to be their own, shorter, anime series!

And then There’s the expanded world lore.

I have in mind a Battlestar Galactica slash Lost type live action soap opera dramafest covering the distant past revolving around the continent of Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, and how it led to the rise of Dabadon, the Demon God-Lord of Slothfulness. I have always thought that, given the opportunity, I could successfully pull off what all the pale imitators who tried to copy what those shows did, tried to do but failed. I feel I understand what made those shows work, and how I could artificially recreate what was accidentally made by circumstances of the time.

I also have in mind a musical, covering the downfall of the Federation of Ranmoan Children, aka the Ferachen Empire, and how Zeboel the Demon God-Lord of Envy was birthed from that late stage capitalism hellscape.

And then There’s a novel covering the rise of Rarma, the Demon God-Lord of Greed, and how she conquered Angea, putting an end to the era of colonialism in the old world.

And There’s more!

I also have in mind a book-slash-anime series called "Fallen Farn", a 'what-if' alternate universe covering one possible rendition of what farn would look like without Vee’s influence, one possible way things pan out without Vee accomplishing her full potential. In essence, it shows one possible world which diverges from the canonical farn at a point where Vee easily could have failed, and shows the consequences of that failure in an alternate future separate from the canonical sequel and interquel.

That’s four to five anime series, one musical, and one live action series, beyond all of the original books to be written, all with the potential merch to match!

And the sequel I intend to write has the theoretical potential for sequels after it to be written, too!

That, aside from how there’s at least one fictional MOBA video game which easily could be turned into an actually real one.

By my estimation, I have compiled 6,000 pages of notes for farn, and there’s plenty more unwritten I’ve stored exclusively in my head. A veritable Similarian of notes!

When I say this is a potentially billion dollar franchise if properly enabled, I well and truly believe it to have that level of worth. Farn is a rich, interesting world, truly equal to earth in scale, and that provides the ability for a truly endless amount of stories on every type of media.

And farn is just my current obsession as a paracosm.
I've made more, like the Rubyverse of my webcomic Red Hood Rider of equal scale to farn. (Heck, even The Descended is sizable.)

I've been writing stories since I was 13, and that has led to dozens, even hundreds, of rich worlds I can with relative ease write and bring to life, as I aim to with farn.

And I have more passions than just farn, too!

I also want to write and illustrate a children's book series, with an illustrated picture book containing captions which rhyme, telling subtle easily digestible morals to children through the eyes of the protagonist. Messages like "you might not like going to the doctor, but it helps you stay healthy", how to play safe, how to explore, etc.

I am a talented enough artist and wordsmith to pull it off, where I could potentially write a new book every month and release dozens in the series.

...But all of this, all of these ideas, all of the creativity, all of the passion, all of the support I give others, all of the love, kindness, education, resources, and so on and so forth I provide? All that joy and positivity, all that potential?

...Is in jeopardy, because I myself am in danger by the dire straights of my current life circumstances and the desperation thereof.

My work recently made policy changes which in effect removed accommodations for my disabilities. My work already strains me above 25 hours per week, and removing the parts of the routine which made it bearable is exhausting me to the point I genuinely might collapse at any given moment.

And on top of that, I have been given extra job responsibilities without any extra pay for the compensation of the increased workload. I’m doing more work, with less accommodations for my disabilities, and getting no increase in my pay or benefits from it.

Just my one job, now averaging closer to 36 hours a week, a full ten more than I can realistically handle with accommodations, while having those accommodations removed, and doing extra work for no extra pay? Is genuinely pushing my body and mind past breaking. I very well may perish thanks to my job if conditions don’t improve.

But it gets worse. Despite all of the above, my job doesn’t cover the cost of living. Me and my wife are both employed at soul-sucking jobs which are taxing us beyond our breaking points because we both have disabilities, but despite two jobs, we still aren’t making even close to enough to even survive.

Despite how our current jobs could already kill us, we're looking for second, even third, jobs, to get four to six sources of income, because that’s what we need at the moment.

Our apartment complex illegally upped our rent by $100 last year, without any notice. And when we renewed our lease, we went from having all utilities except power included for free, to being charged for every utility. Garbage, sewage, water, all previously free, but adding an additional couple hundred dollars.

Excluding power and internet, which together are an extra $300, our monthly rent went from $1700 to $2000, without any notice. Our first indication we would be charged for the utilities was the first monthly bill after we renewed our lease.

And this extra $300 in rent has slowly been building up to drowning us to a point where we can't keep it up, and last month finally was the breaking point.

In July, we received a $2,000 bill we had to pay. That was our rent money, and since we had to pay that bill, we had nothing left for rent.

So we have received an eviction notice. We have through August 7th to pay the rent, at least $2,000 but potentially $4,000, or we get evicted on August 12th.

We've been trying to pursue every aid resource. We've hit walls on food stamps in navigating the bureaucracy. We would qualify for legally disabled and get the benefits from it if we could actually afford to go to the doctor, but we can't.

My health insurance at the end of last year upped my monthly rate from $150/month to $550/month, a $400 increase I couldn’t pay. So I've been without health insurance all year long, and even if I had it, I wouldn’t be able to afford even the copays. We've been catch-22'd price gated out of qualifying for disabilities.

If we could afford to see doctors and receive their care, then it would be shown medical intervention isn’t enough to make us fully functional members of society, that we are in fact by the legal standard considered disabled. And that would open up the resources of disability to us. But because we can’t afford doctors, we can't get those resources, when those resources would likely enable us to afford doctors. We're trapped locked out of receiving the care we legally should qualify for.

Housing resources have largely given us no leads. We've pushed cheaper housing and programs to largely no effect.

We've tapped just about every resource left, and have nothing left.

And all of this builds on top of each other. My job exhausting me, trying to navigate the bureaucracy of receiving aid exhausting me, my own body exhausting me, hunting for cheaper housing, everything is adding up to breaking me, and if I do break...There’s no fixing me after.

All of the ideas, all of the creativity, all of the joy, all of the positivity, all of what I do, all the good I could ever do, all of the passion, all of that is on the verge of disappearing. Forever. Of being gone, permanently lost to the world.

So this is a final call for aid.

And to give a tangible answer to what you can do to help, there’s actually quite a lot!
You can send items or food directly to us. Either through throne (which has surprise gifts enabled), or through me DMing you our address.

You can spread the word. Share this, in post form, in video form, however you can, anywhere and everywhere.

Advocate on my behalf to any agency you think will listen.
Legal agencies which might take up me as a client for the illegal things I’ve been enduring.
An agent and/or manager who you think might believe in me and my vision such that they're willing to take a chance on me and believe that I can actually create what I believe I can.
Aid programs you think could work with me.

Jobs which you find that could work with us and our disabilities, ideally remote work which pays a significant amount.
Fundraising organizations or individuals, who might be interested in campaigning for us.

Or even just directly plugging how to support us.
You can support me through twitch subs and bits, albeit at a low payout to me.

You can donate to my kofi,
Or even commission something from me if you want a tangible return on your investment in me.

You can donate to our GoFundMe.

And you can spread the word to others.

You can follow, subscribe, and watch my content. (Ads on twitch when I stream, potential monetization on TikTok + YouTube.)
Here's a list of my links, my carrd.

Spread my content, spread the word of my need. Spread the word of the things I've gone through, of what I am hoping to do, of what I already am doing. Tell people about me, in any way shape or form you can.

I’m running out of time.
I have so much to offer the world.
I just need some help surviving in it.

...Okay to be fair, I haven't blogged a lot so that joke is less effective than normal, butstill.

I'm still sick, recovering. Returning from vacation got me one sickness, and to be honest, I'm not even sure I was over it when Christmas hit and I got another sickness.

Both me and my wife got it pretty bad, but we're recovering.

And we've gotten some really good stuff now.

We're getting a free futon, as well as apparently also some free other stuff. A free desk and maybe recliner down the line.

So we've been cleaning our apartment to make room, and already our apartment is so much neater and cleaner.

There's a lot more work to be done, slow going because we're sick still and we don't want to prolong said sickness by pushing it, but it's going and going pretty good!

We got a lot of cooking supplies, including a microwave, so once again, in all ways but one, life is good!!!

The one way it isn't remains illegal financial charges, but...we're working on it.

In the meanwhile?

I'm making tremendous progress on my novel!

I'm cruising through writing, and in terms of organizing notes...

...Well, it's, ah. It's both going well, but also needs some cleanup. Because my worldbuilding is going faster than my notes can keep up with.

I know the details of basically every Abundant Argon.

When they formed.
Why they formed.
What they look like.
Even ones I didn't before.

I have an unofficial backstory for Luden (kept that way deliberately, but rather extensive), and a loose ETA of when. I always knew what Luden looked like.

I've always known what Lilith looks like, and her backstory (rather extensive). Her timeframe of when is actually a bit of a chronological rock/anchor for me in fact; knowing when things happened in regards to her lets me place when they  happen because of how well I know her timeline.

​Zeboel I relatively recently figured out the event causing their fall, what they look like, and the time involved. It's enough to be a Musical.

Deumos I already knew was the demon who caused Bothai's fall, but Deumos's own backstory, I figured out today!!! (It's ridiculously extensive.) Some of Deumos's backstory would be shown during Bothai's story, and Deumos's character growth would be largely because of Bothai. This also gave me his appearance.

Sanatas I knew the appearance and backstory of (relatively extensive). He was kinda a rock, as he had to be pre-Seidonia.

Dabadon I knew the approximate appearance and backstory of already. He was another rock, thanks to sinking Seidonia. A story extensive enough to be a live action show imo.

Rarma's appearance and backstory I've known for quite a while. (I want to write a novel about it in fact.) The one thing not QUITE set is the timing of her ascension. It's after Deumos's, as she wasn't ruling Angea back then, and presumably after Mastemo's unless she randomly left North Angea untouched. This would make her among the younger, but not among the youngest, as she's pre-Bothai (who is pre-Rothasta).

Belchevore's backstory is largely lost to the ages, but I know what he looks like now! And I have an approximate time he rose to power, too! (It's in one of the two Dark Ages. I'm thinking the mini Dark Age caused by Toran's fall, placing Belchevore as between Deumos's Ascension and Mastemo's Ascension.)

Mastemo, I knew the appearance and backstory of (pretty extensive, although relatively easy to summarize). He also served as a bit of a rock, as I knew exactly what the earth equivalent of his Ascension was. (The earth equivalent being the Fall of Rome. The farn equivalent of the Roman Empire pushed him too far in corruption, laziness, and greed.)

​Trisairo, I know the appearance of and have a working backstory (I admit it's basic, as it amounts to "She's the Demon of Order, who tried to bring Order to the Fae Realm, and the Fae being Fae, this was Not A Good Thing", but not every member of The Abundant Argon needs a whole life story. Most do, but it needn't be ALL of them.)

Ditto Milodee. Trisairo and Milodee are two of the few chronological absentees, in that I don't have their timeframe established yet.

Both are on the much older, but not ancient, side. We're talking pre-Deumos. Whether pre-Dabadon or post-Dabadon is the real debate at the moment. I'll figure it out soon.

​Bemoheth and Athaneva are unique among the Abundant Argon in that they have no backstory. I don't have their exact appearance nailed down definitively, or at least not their human forms. (I know what their true forms look like.) They are basically as old as farn itself, so they predate even Luden. While I need to know what their human forms look like, I don't need to know anything more about them because there isn't more to know about them. They're proto-spirits who chose to become demons just because they could. They're siblings and spouses. (Demons and Gods, natch. Refer to basically any mythology for how Gods are entwined.) That's about it.

​Bothai is one of the youngest Abundant Argon. I've known his backstory and appearance for a while, but finding his exact chronology has been a challenge. I'm honing in on an approximate timeframe, but it isn't nailed down to anything specific quite yet. He's younger than Zeboel by a considerable margin, and younger than Rarma, too. In fact I'm pretty sure he's the third-youngest, with only Rothasta and the 18th Abundant Argon as younger.

​Belreach is basically as old as Bemoheth and Athaneva and ever so slightly older than Luden, so is among the oldest of the Abundant Argon. I know his backstory, for what little there is, but his exact appearance isn't quite nailed down. He's a man. He looks like a dude. That's...about it, for details I know for sure.

​Phaimyustazael is one of the Abundant Argon I know the least about. He's got new info I know about him as of today (well, mostly it's stuff I internally already had, but wrote down more definitively), namely why his name is so ridiculous compared to the others. (As the King of Contracts, it's by design. It makes it easier for him to deceive people and makes it harder for would-be loopholers to succeed.) I have a really good idea what he looks like (basically, a constant grin fairly pale white man with black hair that's slightly animesque but more subdued and realistic, with shining ocean blue eyes), and a basic idea of how he became the Demon of Contracts.

I don't have an exact chronology set, it's somewhere likely in the range of Deumos: definitely after Dabadon, but before Mastemo. He might be the farn equivalent to King Midas? (As Midas was pre-Troy and Deumos was at the end of Troy, if so this would make him pre-Deumos but responsible for a disastrous fall of an empire.) Which would place him as over 4,000 years ago.
Someone who could cause the fall of an empire like the Babylonians, Myceneans, Hittites, or Assyrians. He could have caused the equivalent of the Knossos, Crete earthquake, the Minoan eruption, or the equivalent of the Thera eruption, etc., all about 200 - 500 years prior to Deumos.

And then we get to the youngest two.

Rothasta was 100 - 200 years ago in the demon realm. Her life as a mortal was pre-Bothai, and might be even pre-Mastemo, as knowledge of her kingdom was lost even to him. Since knowledge of an entire kingdom being wiped out with no trace is rare, this places her most likely human on farn times as immediately post-Zeboel or immediately post-Deumos. However this culminated in her actual Ascension being only a couple hundred years ago because she held onto her humanity in the demon realm for hundreds of years. I know what she looks like, and what she did. Her own pre-guardian history is lost even to her, but I can trace it based on her kingdom not having any trace of existing. It's quite possible she was a resident of the Ferachen Empire, in fact. But if so, would be closer to its founding under King Arnos. She could have even met the guy, been friends with him, even been one of his knights.

And the youngest of the Abundant Argon technically hasn't formed yet, but is known who they are to the Abundant Argon. The 18th member is a spoiler though, but I know who they are, what they look like, and what would cause their Ascension.

Soyeah. Making a lot of worldbuilding progress!

The Abundant Argon have always been a kind of linchpin by which the rest of farn's history has formed through. Other pantheons' rules were modeled after the Demon God-Lords out-of-universe (not in-universe). Ditto their powers, how they work, etc. The mechanics of divine entities were largely reverse-engineered from the mechanics of demons specifically. So, similarly, their history has shaped farn's own history, as well as geography.

I've mapped out farn's geography to have most places named.

And with the abundant argon having shaped the history of those places, I have basically the entirety of the background of the world of farn memorized to the level of an average farn well-educated college general-education adult.

Which is about the level of earth well-educated college general-education adult about earth's geography, history, and religion.

I've always said that farn is comparable to earth in history, geography, socioeconomics, geopolitical climate, cultures, etc. But now I have the how laid out, to the point where I can point to earth events I know about, and point to their farn equivalent. And vice-versa. And how they're similar, and how they're different.

Farn and Earth, despite Farn having magic and explicit deities as well as numerous different sapients, follow nearly identical trajectories as a whole in their progression and regression, in their societal collapses and empire collapses and empire rises. Not identical, especially as The Old World became more "crowded" by divine beings as time passed, and The New World was discovered far sooner chronologically (we're talking basically a thousand years sooner or so, loosely speaking), with Bairn's history more being a mixture of USA and United Kingdom history (history for the region dates back to the equivalent of the Roman Empire, so 1600+ years ago, albeit with large gaps until 1000 years ago or so when Baeyern, the farn equivalent to William the Conqueror, founded the country that would bear a simplification of his name), so like...it's not really a 1:1.

A lot of earth events are condensed into a single farn event, and vice-versa, with what might be a single earth event having been extrapolated to be numerous different farn events. But loosely, the overall trajectory of the two planets is OVERALL comparable, enough that any reasonably relatively well-educated adult from earth if transported to farn would just kinda...GET it.

Both so that Vee, said earthling, would be able to comprehend...and more pragmatically, so my readers, also earthlings, can too!

I hope you all like the final result.

Farn is eventually going to be turned over to the masses.

I've always seen me as just the medium by which stories of farn begin to get shared. Not as the only earth resident producing them.

Farn is as real as earth is, but that makes it a world too big for me to tell every tale of. I want to open it to others, too.

So the work I do now will help let others carry on my work in telling the tale of the planet after I am done sharing what I personally know.

Let's write the future together.

Granted, quite poorly.

But this is a preview into the tragedy of Zeboel. Zeboel is a background character, and until I wrote this song I didn't really know their story other than that they're some form of nonbinary preferring They/Them or It pronouns. As one of the relatively younger Abundant Argon though, I knew Zeboel had to have once been a mortal, and would thus have a story behind how they became one of the 18 Demon God-Lords on farn.

I realized they caused the downfall of the last true claimant of the Toplan (read; Atlantean) empire, the Federation of Ramoan (read; Roman) Children, loosely speaking the farn equivalent of the early Franks in the Charlemagnesque era of the Holy Roman Empire, but with a modern flair where they were basically the modern United States of America ruled by capitalism, where short-term greed led to short-term gains but left a class divide where the rich were focused on getting richer and the poor were left suffering, left to die, and frustrated. It got to the point where all they needed was someone to follow.

Zeboel became that symbol by being representative of the issue. Part of the profession the backbone of farn runs on being profitized (an adventurer), and being a kind, caring, compassionate, empathetic person, a pacifist at that, who wanted nothing to do with violence yet wanted to help the people. When pushed to despair, desperation, and broken, Zeboel was left feeling there was no other options anymore, there was no other way, and embraced their charismatic side to become that symbol of revolution.

This song is the "point of no return" for Zeboel on that path, at the end of the two-thirds mark of the Musical, with the final third demonstrating the bloody revolution would topple the world order but then cause the wave of hate to turn on each other and destroy themselves because without a common foe to unite against and without a way for their hate to go away, they instead directed it towards each other leading to the death of basically everyone.

Zeboel had the chance to rule the rubble, similar to how Mastemo became a King, but Zeboel, thoroughly broken, just...had no desire to. They were left an empty shell, they were left with no purpose, so they just...left. Before the destruction had even actually finished, really. And that lack of a leader to fill the gap caused the farn equivalent of The Dark Ages.

I am still on January 19th for transcribing notes from discord into my files, and the transcribed notes are messy and not organized properly, as I would like them to be. However, this is much much much better than it was before.

I've begun to add things in, and finalize a few, and am networking things far better. (Speaking of networking, it's been a while since I've reminded you that this blog is published on two sites, the weebly main site and the wix mirror. The wix mirror doesn't have my older blogs yet, but will eventually, when I put the time in to add them.)

​I did decide to cheat and do a little bit of gaming--but I kept it to Normals in TFT (kinda regret it not being ranked since I got top 4 in both but I was not ready for the tilt of getting sub-4 on a night I want to get rest), and it was to clear out almost all of the quests I have. (The one remaining one is the 3* 3+ units, which is just a hyper-roll and/or Supers and/or trade sector type game, so can be done easily enough.)
All I needed was Neeko with a deathcap and 2* (almost didn't get it, as I 2*'d her the round I died), and then the Threat ones (Morgana, Aatrox, Fiddle 2* fielded; Syndra summoning a 2* threat), and in two games back to back (I think I got 3rd and 2nd?), I pulled it off.

Butyeah, today was mostly spent on trying to transcribe notes into their proper locations. I'm going through the notes, slowly, surely. When I get done with the discord notes, there will be a lot more work to do. Formatting the notes, cleaning them up, placing them appropriately, and then fleshing out the notes as they should be.

My notes have the format of an unofficial wiki (because I find that format easy to read/understand/process/file), and part of that is needing to make entries for everything. And put the 'tropes' for everything. To be honest, I think that doing everything I am setting out to do might take months upon months of work. There will always be more to add.

Still though. It needs to be done to at least some extent. Some details, I can get away with not fleshing out. (Don't really need to think up blood types, for instance.) Other details, though, I need to include. Anything I want to write? Need to include. Any detail I want to include? Needs to be written. There are things that I don't think I can realistically do. There are things I don't think I can flesh out. There are things that will remain vague, ambiguous, generic, etc.

I'm going to be cutting as many corners as I can, so my notes don't need to show the details. Maybe note I'm cutting corners, but not really detail things. Still, because Farn is going to be three books and the first book is going to be very, very long (it would probably be enough material for three or more books on its own), that means even the bare minimum after having cut corners is going to be very very long.

I still gotta try tho.
Farn is worth recording.
In the event I fail to write it, at the very least I want to leave enough that someone else could piece together the events and build something resembling what I wanted.
To some extent, that's why I've also become more open to sharing farn with others prematurely. Those in trusted spaces have been given the theoretical access to the worlds. I'm reasonably certain none of them have taken me up on the offer and actually viewed the work--and that's okay. The offer was the important part. It's there for them if they want it to be there.

And with it out there, that means my work is less likely to die.
The more and more work I do on it--the more and more likely it is that the final product matches my vision.

So I gotta keep pushing forward, and hopefully, I can make farn a reality.

I mean. I have a whole laundry list of things I could comment on, I just...idk, don't really know what I feel like writing about on the blog today. I guess I go stream of consciousness style, or maybe bullet-point list of things, or maybe a combination of both? (Here comes the ramble tag. xD)

We went to our first counseling/therapy session in three years (last one was as the pandemic was starting, in 2020). Little has come from it so far, but the hope is it gets me moving in the right direction.
We didn't even get to mention our plurality since it never really came up. We're not hiding it from him since we trust our counselor who probably figured it out on his own, but like...we just haven't found a way to really bring it up and talk about it yet. With frequent therapy, one of our sessions might lead to the talk about it.

We do want to tell him, we just don't know how to just say "oh by the way, we're plural". We could maybe force it, but for counseling, I personally feel like discussion should be evolving fluently and be about the topics brought up as they come up. If there's an awkward pause, and nothing fills the gap, that might be a good time and with enough sessions it'll come up eventually, but we're in no rush.

We also got a doctor's appointment this week, attempting to discuss the issues we've been having.
We wrote out a full list of issues we have going on.
Not wanting to self-diagnose, we didn't tell them what we think is causing those, because they are generic enough that any number of things could be the cause.
But we didn't get them to read the list.

Put simply, ​Autism + doctor appointment where they don't read your pre-prepared notes + don't communicate with each other + engage in a way I struggle with = guess who isn't getting answers about her medical issues. (It's me, I am the girl not getting answers.)

I got a followthrough appointment for a cardiologist. (I'll attempt to tell them the issue, doubt they'll have any more listening to me than what I already got though.)
I got prescribed dizziness medication (honestly I'm debating not even bothering with trying to get it, yet alone take it, but who knows, I might try it just to see if it works even though I know it won't).

But it doesn't seem like they were really engaging me in a way conductive to diagnosing my issues.

They repeatedly asked about anxiety--yes, I have it, I have very bad anxiety in fact, but I know for a fact these conditions aren't caused by anxiety. If anything, the moments I am anxious/stressed are the moments when my symptoms are at their weakest.
Basically, in times when I am distracted, when I am basically in a trance caused by my neuroses, most of my symptoms aren't there. When I actually obtain some semblance of peace of mind, that's when dangerous spikes happen. Thinking decreases the amount of times I am affected; not thinking increases the amount of times I am affected. The more I think of the issues, the less they happen.

Which is the exact opposite of what should be happening with stress/anxiety if stress and/or anxiety are the cause. Stress and anxiety cause these things to peak, in part because of the stress and the anxiety. But after the stress and the anxiety has faded, the symptoms tend to, too. (Which is why getting rid of the stress/anxiety makes it better.)

​Now, we can't get rid of our stress/anxiety (I don't know why), so the physical issues of stress/anxiety are definitely there (weight, mostly), but if stress and anxiety went away, I imagine the result would be these things getting even stronger and happening more often.

They probably think we're making it up, that the signs and symptoms are exaggerated, that we are creating the issue in our head.

We're not.

We know our body. We know what's going on with it. We just don't know how to describe to a medical professional what's going on, in a way that they would understand, and be productive to finding the root of the problems. I know what the issues are. I just don't know how to translate those issues into terms which a medical professional can then give a diagnosis for.

Well. I guess that'll be it for now. This medical rant ate up the majority of our blogging energy.
I'll say that we definitely are struggling to stay afloat in a lot of areas though.

There's so much we want to do.
We wanna work on the things our counselor asked us to.
We wanna stay afloat on mafia, discord, and torn, which all require extensive daily upkeep.
We wanna play games, but don't have the time to do it and anything else--we game, we lose out on doing literally everything else.
We wanna keep up on hygiene, but haven't taken a shower since last week. (And we're not going to--in all likelihood. None tonight, likely none tomorrow, probably will convince ourselves out of it Sunday too.)
We wanna stream, but were too tired yesterday and need to go to bed too soon tonight (to catch a watch party tomorrow, at least).
Did we even upload our last stream to YT? I don't think we did.

And then there's actually doing productive things.
We wanna get back onto ComicFury and add it into our daily routine. Not webcomics, mind you, and not obsessively viewing the discussion daily, but like on mafia and discord, reading the things of interest every day.
We wanna get our avatar for rBree2 on ComicFury (previously called "My Alt", our alt account) and Ranger on mafia done (same avatar, taking from both).
We wanna work on writing Farn.

We did make some minuscule progress today, a modicum of work, where we added Anna Effigy to our unofficial notes file.

But we're not getting our discord notes translated into the notes sections of any document, and we're not filling out the unofficial notes with existing notes or writing the desired new ones, by and large.

It just takes so much time...and focus...and we have none.

Yet alone, writing.

And for streaming/recording we've got work to do like downloading OBS, and we've not done that.

We're staying afloat, and that's about it.

We do have the excuse of a hellish work week, and recovering from sickness, in the last two weeks.

But we're still meant to be doing...so, so much more than we are.

We need to move forward.

We're not.
That's okay that we're not.
​But we still want to, and know we should, so knowing we should and knowing we want to, we need to figure out how to actually get there. Which again, was discussed in counseling a bit. "The level of want, and the level of prepared, both need to be high", I believe it was.

Well the want is high.
The level of preparedness?
...Well, clearly not.

Small steps are better than no steps I guess tho.

Went to bed without blogging yesterday since I didn't blog pre-stream and slept immediately post-stream, and even today am making a nonentry entry.

Still tho.

I've been making progress in things.

I kept up with my weekly games and have even managed to keep working on my story notes. I've gone to like 40 pages and I'm not even remotely close to finished, but a lot of it is actually new material I hadn't covered previously in any prior notes, so brand new notes is actually a really good thing.

Butyeah, gotta go now.

Okay so checking in my notes I've got...hmm, 1/11/2023?...
...I guess that means about 47 days worth of notes to sort through?

Aside from how I am trying to combine three documents' worth of info into one (well, one was already bare-bones having been formed side-by-side with this project, but I suppose the discord notes count as a document), which makes the amount of work I have to do that much higher.

I have ~145 or so pages of pure notes (not counting prototype excerpts) from one place to record, all the discord notes, and then a bunch more (thankfully, much shorter than 145 but still ~40 or so) all to transcribe in the more organized format I am aiming for. It's going to be a royal pain.

But the result will be worth it, if I can pull it off.

I won't let this side-project stop me from writing the story itself, mind you. I still intend to write it while streaming. (I took a week off of streaming in a desperate attempt to get my health back--it didn't work; I've got a sore throat which has persisted throughout the day.) I will stream other things as well--art, minecraft--but I intend to primarily​ stream writing my story.

But in my free time, I feel it's a valid choice to instead of writing the story to work on the notes because of the benefits behind having done so. My notes are a hectic mess as-is. Formatting them to be more organized and collected, with info previously not stated (at least not in that way), allowing me to have the info all available when needed.

It's a lot of work.

But I'm chipping away at it--slowly, gradually.

To be fair, fairly productive day. I didn't do everything I wanted to do--but I'm making large amounts of progress in my record keeping, and it's coming together nicely. I looked at it and was like, "Ohhh...YEAHHHH."

I'm looking at it and it is writing itself.

Now, I realize that writing this info isn't writing the story. I should just be writing the story. But, I want to get things presented the way I want them to be. I want to have my notes not be in discord messages to myself, and available in the notes. I've been slacking on rl stuff that my notes have been getting in the way of me pursuing, because I've been focusing on the notes.

Okay so talking hard right now. Basically, to explain: I have a notes discord where I have notes of all kind to myself. Because some sort of technical glitch kept me from recording things onto my docs directly, I began using the notes for it. And because my doc notes were a mess and the discord notes a mess, everything is a mess.

​And I want to clean them up.

​And this is also important because the discord where I have notes to myself also has other notes, and those notes are getting drowned by the farn notes, and I want to get the focus back on the rl notes rather than the farn notes.

So basically.

I know this won't make much sense to others.

​But basically, I'm working on the farn notes so that I can get my rl notes to be more clear. I've got a long, long ways to go. But if I get it done, it'll make things a lot easier for me.