But not everything is bad right now. Reading a post from my idol, Jocelyn(n) Samara, gave me hope for my future. Why? Because in it, she effectively said she was like me before she started the comic.
The post in question, rather a comic, called "Thanks", effectively said that she never expected much from starting the comment, and yet now has received an overwhelming amount of love and support, and that it was her fans that gave her the confidence to keep going.
She said she thought she had done nothing that would ever matter, and yet, thanks to the countless stories (including my own!), she is honored to have touched so many people.
That bit about thinking she'd done nothing really resonated with me. My inner good voice had said "Keep going, you've got to keep going" prior to me discovering that post, and THAT post is something I really needed to hear.
So while the post in question was meant as thanks to readers like me...instead I find myself owing thanks to HER for having helped me in my dark days.