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Imagine this;

12/8/2025

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Story Idea:

The year is 2020, and you're just going about your day, when SUDDENLY, you get isekai’d.

The place you land initially seems devoid of life, but you soon discover humans there, speaking a language you don’t understand but which is at least vaguely familiar to you.

These people are very primitive, foragers using only rudimentary tools.

You find out you don’t need to eat or drink, and are immune to all forms of harm, and as time passes, you realize you're not aging anymore.

As you look to the night sky and observe weather patterns, it's not QUITE the night sky and weather you were used to in your daily life, but it looks ALMOST identical, day and night.

You begin to try and bridge the language gap between you and the humans you encounter, mostly you learning theirs.

You do teach them some English phrases, but mostly, you learn their culture and what little oral history they have. They have family stories and myths which seem vaguely familiar to you, but don't quite match anything you studied in school.

And with time, something happens.

You begin to tell stories of your own, relaying to the best of your ability what you remember about various subjects. You have only a basic high school and rudimentary college general education, not an expert in any subject which really matters much in this primitive world.

But even though your high school education was years ago and you forgot more than you remember, you passively discover that you actually know a whole lot more than you give yourself credit for. You might not know much about any subject, but you know a little about just about every subject.

These people don't have an alphabet, or algebra-level math, or wheels, or tools beyond bows and arrows, knives, and spears. You bring knowledge of the existence of things they can't even really fathom the existence of. Computers, roads, cars, guns, airplanes, you name it.

You might not know how those things work, but your very tales of their existence leave an impression on the people, who begin to try and put some of your ideas into practice. And to your shock, they're actually really good at figuring out how to turn your ideas into reality.

Soon, these people worship you as a God-Ruler, despite your protests. You insist you're just as human as them, but your inability to be harmed, lack of human needs, no aging, and advanced knowledge all make them insist otherwise.

Even if they're the ones doing the work, you bring ideas.

Domesticated animals and farming took thousands of years to develop, but just you knowing they're possible and encouraging the people to try and experiment gets a lot done in a few generations. You have the beginnings of a people who have a strong continuous identity and remain stationary.

Writing, agriculture, more advanced tools, wheeled transportation, aqueducts, buildings with engineering, currency, all begin to form, based loosely on your understanding of them and pragmatically implemented by the hundreds, thousands of people now listening to your directions.

You embrace this role, figuring as long as you’re here, you might as well give the people the best lives you can manage. So, you do your best to direct them, and take on a name. Jokingly, you decide to name yourself after a historical figure, deciding to channel their brilliance.

As you study the passage of time, and train others to do the same, they improve upon your rudimentary understanding of astronomy to effectively reinvent it, and through these master astronomers, you figure out you weren’t sent to a different planet; you're still on earth...

...In fact, you didn’t even change location. You just changed time, being sent approximately 7,000 years into the past upon arrival. But by now, that was generations ago. Time tends to blur unless you're really paying attention, so you make sure to establish a calendar to mark where you are.

You develop a theory that maybe your immortality is because you can't age or die until 2020, but there’s only one way to test that; the slow, gradual passage of time.

And you decide while you're at it, why not leave your mark on this new history? You have entire cities, banded together now.

You're creating maps of the world, from where your people are, and sending them out to explore further and further the ancient earth.

You encounter other tribes, of course. Some join willingly, others try to fight your people. You easily defeat and assimilate them.

By now, you essentially have an empire. You promise yourself to be benevolent, not inflicting any horrors upon those who are assimilated. You dream of rebuilding the modern world, just better, with more peace, more unity, more focus on all the good in humanity.

As you tell stories about religions and of great historical wonders of the world, your people decide to recreate these things for you.

And through endless trial and error, progress is rapidly made. The more people who listen to you, the faster they can experiment with modern concepts.

Modern concepts you might not fully have grasped, but which they can flawlessly recreate with enough time and manpower. You might not know how to build a computer, but with enough infrastructure and trial and error, it would eventually be possible.

Better forges, better resources.

You basically speedrun a Kickstart to humanity forming a network.

And then, on the fringes of your empire, your people make a discovery:

Other people, using technology akin to yours, thousands of years before it should be around.

And while they speak a different language, they recognize English.

You arrange a meeting with their leader, on a hunch, and discover you actually weren’t alone in being a transplant from 2020 earth. And you and this leader of another people decide to essentially remain neutral. "You do your thing while I do mine, just don't invade our territory."

You form some trade, of course, and even exchange ideas your people have had on recreating modern earth life thousands of years in advance. Your people were able to implement some ideas theirs hadn’t yet, and vice-versa.

And you continue to expand your empires, cautiously with the passage of time.

...then, you discover another empire with similar advancements. You meet their leader, who is ALSO a transplant from 2020s earth. When you talk to the first 2020 transplant, they inform you that they have made contact with yet ANOTHER.
As all of these various empires and their immortal leaders talk,

...You begin to grow suspicious, when SUDDENLY, it dawns on you all.

You didn’t get isekai’d to earth 7,000 years in the past.

...All of you have been isekai’d into the roles of immortal leaders in a game of Civilization.

(I hope you enjoyed reading this. <3)
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I have more I want to blog about, but...

12/7/2025

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...it will have to wait.

About my anniversary with my wife.
About what happened two years ago.
What I want to do.
Events in my life.
Etc.

But for now.

What I came to share was the result of a dream last night. (The other dream I had involved a parody-horror film where a shark was in a WWE wrestling ring eating wrestlers and having it be valid matches, with the shark eventually defeated by the satire-friendly version of Cody Rhodes. But I couldn't really build upon that dream. This dream, on the other hand...)

​So last night I had a really vivid dream which led to the creation of a new manga shounen (or, well, seinen more accurately) idea. I'll never have the free time to make it, but I wanted to lay out the basic idea.

The story would begin at the traditional half-way point in a story. Instead of following a rookie 16-year-old teenaged boy, this would start with the protagonist at 26--a full ten years after he began his hero's journey. All of the advanced concepts that a hero is exposed to (and, through the naive hero, us the audience get to learn about), he already knows and has mastered.

The story would begin after a tragedy which killed/scattered his crew. Think akin to the likes of One Piece heading into the timeskip, Andromeda season 5, etc. He, as well as all the heroes and protagonists, lost--big time. His ship was damaged and broken almost entirely beyond repair, hanging on by a thread. He lost almost everyone on his crew and who he cared about. All his allies gone, and a bounty placed upon his head and the head of his two remaining companions. Everyone is thought either dead or with a bounty high enough to guarantee they soon will be.

And that's just where things begin.

To explain some of the mechanics involved, this would be basically a cross of stories like One Piece, Cowboy Bebop, and Star Wars, along with some other shounen stories. A large portion of the populace can tap into "The Magic Field", which grants them a lot of the abilities of Force-Sensitive users, crossed with Haki users. They have universal access to telekinesis including strong push/pull, enhanced physical abilities particularly jumping, agility, nimbleness, etc., they have a form of clairvoyance which senses danger, they have a minor ability to cause incoming bullets (not blasters because this setting still uses kinetic weaponry aside from stun guns which are energy, but these bullets are more magitek in being big blasts) to miss, as well as enhanced accuracy in their shots, the ability to plant suggestions in their opponent's mind as a minor form of hypnosis, enhanced strength and toughness, increased endurance and rapid healing, etc.

Advanced users of these can elevate these abilities further, to actually sense incoming attacks well before they happen, to have an aura that suppresses opponents and encourages allies, virtual immunity to most forms of harm, the ability to inflict harm on otherwise immune targets, etc.

And these universal tools are aided by the equivalent of lightsabers, called "artifact weapons". Usually taking the form of augment gloves, but some can be customized into other forms, too. These artifact weapons have as a universal power generating a shield which absorbs incoming attacks and, on a narrow band approximately the size of a curved broadsword, deflecting projectiles towards a location.

But this is all standard equipment and powers.

Characters have powers beyond tapping into The Magic Field, called their Star Power. These powers are entirely separate and entirely unique to the individual. Think devil fruits, or bloodline powers from Naruto, or the unique powers of every individual in most shounen. You get the idea. These powers take training to use and unlock, but are innate and nearly limitless in potential.

Those who have mastered their Star Power unlock a second, stronger ability. This stronger ability can be something entirely different, and is loosely called their "Spatial Magic Sphere". It requires both a strong connection to The Magic Field, and a strong mastery of Star Power. The downside to this is all users of Spatial Magic Spheres have some ability to detect other Spatial Magic Sphere users even when the Spatial Magic Sphere user is just using their base power or Magic Field power. In short, once one accesses Spatial Magic Spheres, their usage of Star Power and The Magic Field innately channels their Spatial Magic Sphere, and because every Spatial Magic Sphere on some level can detect the presence of another Spatial Magic Sphere, tapping Spatial Magic Sphere for the first time causes it to passively always be there on some level.

The protagonist, his first mate and longest traveling companion, and his wife (again--experienced veteran protagonist, the love interest had a relationship upgrade over five years ago before the story begins) all have access to Spatial Magic Spheres, artifact weapons, and advanced Magic Field powers.

The protagonist is a former-prodigy genius mechanic, inventor, and the captain of a cube-shaped spaceship (which is not spaceworthy at the story's beginning, trapped roaming a single planet initially where all the action happens at first), officially called The Cube, and affectionately nicknamed 'Cubie'.
He was notable in how he actually got access to multiple artifact weapons (protagonist privileges!). He's got a key that allows him to unlock just about anything and interface with anything (effectively both a key and a usb stick), that also serves as a sword (lightsaber, not keyblade). He also has gloves, as well as a staff-gun (can take the form of a staff, or the form of a gun, and in its compact form is basically a lightsaber-shaped handle, or a compact-force-lance from Andromeda if you prefer).

He discovered The Cube and retrofitted it, a la a Millenium Falcon/Lagann style encounter, although this wasn't his start to his adventuring life and took place a little down the line.

His Star Power is an augmented form of Sigil Casting. Sigil Casting is technically a form of harvesting Space Magic, but rather, channeling it to do things which normal Space Magic practitioners can't achieve. The downside is it requires writing out sigils, onto a surface, in order to cast the effect. (Think FMA alchemy.) However, the upside is a level of versatility and customability. This is a pretty weak power in terms of Star Powers (especially considering this is one of the strongest Magic Field users in the setting by the time of the story's start), but he makes it seem a lot less so because of how he customizes it, and passively channels it, and how he uses it to augment his natural mechanical and invention skills. Because he can fuse his inventions with his Star Power's Sigil Casting, and he can create Sigils other Sigil Casters can't, he's the ultimate master of rune magic, earning his Star Power the name "Rune Master".

As of accessing his Spatial Magic Sphere, he can create elemental variants on his Sigil Casting. When he has white hair he can channel Ice. Red hair, fire. Black hair, pure darkness. Golden hair, pure light. Blueish-purple hair, pure energy. And his default state, brown hair, is technically both air and earth, because he is a bridge between the two innately.

But where he's truly broken is in his Spatial Magic Sphere ability, "Sphere of Influence": it allows him to vastly augment all Magic Field users, all artifact weapons, all Star Power users, and all Spatial Magic Sphere users, within his influence range (which is the size of a sizeable starship, think about the size of a modern battleship but in 3 dimensions), and critically...he can also do the inverse, vastly weakening or even completely negating all of those. His ability allows him to be able to negate a potential fleet full of opponents to some extent, while creating an entire fleet of people under his influence.

So, his title has changed to reflect that. It went from "The Artificer" to "The Stacked Deck" to "The Spirit of Stars".


His first mate, longest companion, is a cat furry, and she's technically stronger than her captain. She's a master markswoman, master swordswoman, and really shines in hand-to-hand combat in particular. She, too, has an artifact weapon of gloves (again, pretty standard), with hers having the unique ability to morph forms into swords, guns, or gauntlets depending on her need. Personality-wise, as well as power-wise, she's basically combining Vi from League of Legends, Revy from Black Lagoon, and Yang from RWBY.

She's hotheaded, antagonistic, highly abrasive, highly combative, a bruiser who loves a good fight, heavy drinker, etc. But she's also a genius commander, both in terms of strategy and tactics, is good at logistics, understands the ins and outs of storage, picks up on subtleties in others most miss, has a way of reading people beyond that afforded to most Magic Field users, etc. She's not dumb, she's actually arguably the smartest member of the crew, and she has the talents to match. She's ridiculously good at analyzing.

She is capable of detecting and deducing the powers of combatants to an uncanny level, including being the first to notice the presence of even the most stealthy of Spatial Magic Sphere users.

My dream didn't show me her powers, but presumably they involve her abilities. Guns, blades, movement, etc. Presumably, she has teleportation powers among other skills.


His wife, promoted from love interest, who he's been married to for about five years or so (young love, adventure, etc.), is the navigator, negotiator, and banker of the group (yes basically Nami), and she also is the one in charge of plants and the air circulation in the ship. She makes it so that the crew doesn't suffocate or starve, and has a skill for disabling enemy ships in specific ways to inflict that on them. While her husband and their first mate are known to be global threats, she's the scariest member of the crew.

Her basic Star Power abilities are growing and controlling plants out of nothing. What she's capable of beyond that, my dream didn't show--only that it mortified their starter villain for the series to immediately surrender despite his own broken powerset.


The story begins by showing the captain and his first mate trying to repair Cubie, heavily snarking and trying not to mention the disasters they just lived through. Then, the first mate notices the presence of a Spatial Magic User on the ship, disturbing things. A saboteur/assassin named Zeb, who has the Star Power of a total invisibility cloak making him immune to detection to even Spatial Magic Users most of the time. When he is dangled thousands of feet above the air about to be pushed to his doom (because the ship, while not capable of traveling the stars, is still airborne), activates his Spatial Magic Sphere ability, a time-rewind ability.

His time-rewind ability is two-fold. He retains perfect knowledge from a loop he initiates a rewind on, and if he dies he automatically returns to the point he began the loop on, with the knowledge he died but none of the memories for the loops since the last time he died. Encountering the protagonist's wife repeatedly and unavoidably keeps triggering his death, not giving him the ability to rewind and find out why. And no matter how many loops he goes through, he can't win.

So the end of the first chapter is him surrendering to the crew, and in a panic, begging and pleading to join them, because his failure will make him just as much as a target, and once marked as a target he knows he won't ever be given a chance to not be one. The crew, understanding that his offer is sincere, genuine, and that he legitimately has no other opportunities, accepts. They might not remember killing him or his thousands upon thousands of times rewinding to attempt to kill them, but they retained at least a sense of his honor, integrity, and genuine skill, so Zeb becomes their first new recruit and first new member of the crew, joining them on their adventure to rebuild their crew.


Potential future crewmates include an actual rookie (likely a native of the planet The Cube Crew are stuck on), who the crew would explain the mechanics of the world in, requiring heavy protection but being an investment;
Cubie, made into a hologram (a la Cortana from Halo, or Andromeda from Andromeda);
And potentially one or two children of the protagonist and his wife.

Among many others.

Any surviving crew members would likely be encountered and eventually rejoin after The Cube becomes spaceworthy again and begins traveling the stars, trying to fight back.

They'd be called The Cube Crew, which might be the name of the series altogether since the heart of the series is The Cube Crew recovering after barely surviving the worst events in their lives where they suffer a near-total defeat. (To give a scope of how bad this level of defeat is, it's basically a Whitebeard Pirates level of defeat. They lost a war and got hunted down after. Many died in the conflict. Even those who lived, many were killed after by multiple entities wanting their demise. Which also gives a scope for the protagonist's level of influence. By the time of his fall, he was one of the four strongest figures of interest in the setting, essentially, with the scope of influence that would entail.)

That's about as far as I got in the dream. But I really enjoyed the setting generated from it and the uniqueness of the starting point.

The goal of The Cube Crew isn't so much to get vengeance, or to start a resistance, or to fight back, as much as it is to survive, and rebuild, and recover, and regather, and to leave a path for future generations to have a better life, to not let the futures of the next generation be crushed. They're more looking for people to pass the torch onto than they are to finish the job.

Of course, part of this would involve them actually failing to pass on the torch, tragically so, in multiple occasions. Young people being killed, invoking their rage. Young people being brainwashed. Young people fighting against them, and them being forced to defend themselves to lethal results. Etc. But their goal, throughout it all, remains the same:
Track down all of the survivors of their crew,
Re-unite the crew, taking all who wish to rejoin and leaving those who have moved on in peace, to attain closure,
Talking to the loved ones of all those who perished, to help them obtain that same level of closure,
Inspiring hope,
Encouraging action,
Imparting lessons into those who follow,
Rebuilding, restarting, and continuing families, to have (more) kids, and raise those children. (The wife of the protagonist rambles on and on about having 12 kids, and goes into Marinette from Miraculous Ladybug levels of tangents about that plan, how it will be, etc. And she's been doing this since before the two were even married. It's a quirk of hers, part of her extensive planning capabilities and her own ruthless nature, essentially.)

I would love to make it, but alas. Because of how many projects have higher priority, I likely never will. Still going to note the idea though!
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More novel rambles on farn;

8/8/2025

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​So I've been wanting to talk about this for a long while now, but I decided to pull the trigger on outlining one of the most important pieces of background lore in my current novel, Records of Farn.

Specifically, revolving around the eighteen Demon God-Lords, also known as the Abundant ARGON. Each of them is the demon of one sin, and yes, there's eighteen sins because seven is wholly uncreative.

They are the eighteen most powerful demons in existence, and by virtue of being gods, their existence is literally written into the code of the universe.

I've hundreds of pages of notes on the Abundant ARGON alone, both because I used them to figure out how divine beings work on farn and because I found them to be interesting characters.

I don’t want to spend too much time summarizing the mechanics of demons, demon gods, and the Demon God-Lords, and how each differ from the others, but I will Breefly mention that each of the Abundant Argon could desperately use therapy, but by virtue of all demons being prideful and stubborn and masking their weaknesses, none of them are likely to ever seek therapy from The Immortal Therapist (who I should also talk about at some point, just...not today).

So instead, I wanted to give a rundown on each of the eighteen.

Loosely speaking, the first demon is Belreach, The First Damned, Demon of the sin Creation, and the father of all demons. He wasn’t created as a demon, but some unknown force tasked him with creating the concept of a demon and the limits on them. He achieved this, but in his own desires, made himself the first of such beings.

He was the original King of the demon realm, ruling over all demonkind as an initially uncontested ruler.

There’s a deliberate lack of detail to him, because this is a time period predating most deities even existing, so a lot of the details to him are deliberately left undefined. However, I will say, he's not currently master of all demonkind, despite being their Progenitor, and only commands a fraction of them.

The next two demon god-lords, who technically became demons before Belreach, are the sibling-spouse duo of Bemoheth and Athaneva. And yes, sibling spouse in the Zeus Hera sense, invoking all of the pantheons which have a male and female sibling duo who are married. It’s one of the main reasons they became demons.

If you were to add an L and i to Athaneva, I think the anagrams would be clear, they're basically Behemoth and Leviathan.

They were originally proto-spirits, the form of being that would eventually coalesce to become Great Spirits, and were SUPPOSED to be the top two in the pantheon of Great Spirits. However, when Belreach began defining demons, these divine beings decided effectively "sure, why not?" And just became Demon God-Lords. Because they could.

Athaneva, The First Chaos, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Chaos, as she is quite literally primordial chaos. She defied what she was meant to be and lives to cause as much as possible.

Bemoheth, The First Beast, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Existence, as his very existence as a demon is blasphemous to the very universe, again because he was meant to be the top God of the Great Spirits, but as a proto-spirit opted to not become the first Great Spirit and instead exist as a demon.

Together the duo are considered the Progenitors of all monsters, because they are what birthed monsters across the land of farn.

There’s not really much to their characters, because they are self-explanatory. Their essence is simple, and their power as primordial gods unrivaled except by other primordial gods.

The fourth Demon God-Lord is Luden, the First Fallen. He is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Pride.

He is the ruler of the citadel, the central fortress in the middle of the demon realm. By virtue of the Abundant Argon meeting in his realm, he is the de facto leader of Demon Conferences.

He is considered the King of Demons, and if you couldn’t guess, he's the reason Belreach isn’t King of demonkind. He was a bit of an upstart, but gathered an army which waged a demon war, conquering land after land, built the citadel, and then resisted Belreach's siege of it.

The two, with Mastemo’s help, eventually reached a truce, which would ultimately end up dividing the demon realm into sixteen parts, controlled by the eighteen Abundant Argon.

Sixteen, because Athaneva and Bemoheth share a territory, and one of the Abundant Argon has her realm as a small portal half outside the demon realm.

You might ask who Mastemo is. I'll cover him later, because he's one of the younger Demon God-Lords. So, if he's one of the younger Abundant Argon, how was he there for the first Demon Conference? Because all eighteen were. I don’t wanna ramble too much on it, but basically, the Demon God-Lords by virtue of being written into the code of the universe have always existed and their presence can be felt throughout all of time, despite them having tangible timeframes they manifested on farn. So while only four Demon God-Lords had manifested, all eighteen were still present.

But I digress. Luden is loosely based on the concept of Lucifer as a fallen angel, who becomes the ruler of hell as the father of sin, and so on and so forth, Christian lore insert here, you get the idea. He has a rather Darwin approach to demons, survival of the strongest. If a demon isn’t strong enough to figure out how to survive, then they don’t deserve to live.

His backstory is something he deems only his equals of knowing. What's known is that he was originally a member of a different pantheon, which by the nature of the pantheons around at the time could only have been either Ellun’s Pantheon or him being among The Archangels.

He was originally genderless, and part of his sin of Pride was him becoming exclusively male, abandoning any genderless, genderfluid, or feminine forms or parts and fully embracing the identity of male.

I know the details of what his backstory is, but I don’t want to share them. I'll say he's really complicated, in a way I think is really cool, but I don’t want to reveal what the convoluted circumstances were.

I'll say he was the first Demon God-Lord whose presence had tangible consequences of ripple effects on farn though. He was the cause of one Archangel suffering a brief episode of diverging from the intended path of Archangels, which then set off a chain reaction across every pantheon including influencing the other two Archangels to suffer a temporary divergence from the intended path, which in turn would create circumstances leading to the birth of over half of the Abundant Argon.

In short, what he did was so egregious, it shaped the majority of all misfortune on farn. He might not have invented demons or been the first, but he is effectively the indirect architect of every misfortune on farn to follow. Including the fifth Abundant Argon!

And that would be Lilith, The First Succubus. She’s the Demon God-Lord of the sin Lust. Now, Lilith is a main character in Records, so unlike the rest of the Abundant Argon, she actually gets a chance to tell her backstory. I'll say she was the first mortal to ever ascend to Godhood though.

One of her secondary titles is "The Last Primordial", because she is the last, the youngest, of the Primordial Gods, the Old Gods, the gods predating the landscape of farn as it is currently known.

And the reason she is the last of them is because of her being the first mortal to become a god. She put an end to an era of various pantheons waging a divine cold war against each other, because they all had to pause and collectively go, "Oh shit. Our actions can have consequences birthing Gods equal to us in power."

Now, obviously, all of the younger Abundant ARGON still formed! So obviously, there was still divine beings intervening with consequences. But her ascension to Demon God-Lordhood represented a cosmic shift in the effects of the divine on farn, with their influence scaling back from daily and nearly omnipresent to more passive and only on occasion.

Because she showed mortals could become gods equal in power to all prior gods, there was a sudden need for caution in actions taken, because rival gods born from mortals would be likely to hold grudges against those who had led to circumstances of such extreme suffering necessary to birth a God.

The next Demon God-Lords don’t have a strict order, but formed less than 200,000 years ago but over 70,000 years ago.

Sanatas, The Destroyer, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Wrath. He's effectively Poseidon, Krampus, and Satan rolled into one. He was a proto-Beastkin, a tribal leader, who was very angry at the oppression his people were facing at the hands of Mountain Humans (read: Caucasian Humans).

The result of this was him becoming one of the four Abundant Argon associated with The Apocalypse, as in, his presence on farn is a sign an apocalyptic event is likely to occur on a grand landscape-altering scale. Bemoheth and Athaneva are two of the other three.

Trisairo, The Exiled Fae, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Order. She became a tyrant, ruling the fae realm with absolute order and strictness.

Now, fae on farn are pretty much exactly what you would expect them to be; inherently agents of pure chaos. Their only rule is that rules are more like suggestions. So imagine the scope of beings like that exposed to what Trisairo did. She subjugated divine beings of chaos to the very antithesis of their nature. She introduced gender to previously genderless fae, and her control over what shouldn’t be controlled had devastating effects on the fae.

It led to the creation of The Fae Arbiter, a creature which is simultaneously fae, and yet, not fae. Simultaneously has power over all fae, yet is entirely powerless. Simultaneously exists only to resolve issues of cosmic scale, while also existing to provide the best for all fae. Both mortal, yet immortal. The ultimate contradictory fae, who is everything and nothing simultaneously. (Think Schroedinger's Cat.)

Milodee, The Dragon Reject, is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Blind Obedience. To understand her, I would have to explain the nature of dragons, but I don’t wanna go into a tangent on an entire different pantheon of gods. Loosely though, Dragons--similarly to Fae and Spirits--are inherently divine beings. Milodee was the youngest of the first generation of dragons to inhabit farn.

Dragons inherently seek having a hoard. They are inherently greedy and selfish and arrogant and seek power and to assert their dominance over lesser creatures, usually by ravaging lands.

Milodee rejected her dragon nature and fought for the people. However, this rejection of her nature took a toll on her, and left her vulnerable and weak. She sought a solution, and someone promised her an answer, if she followed his will without question. And she did. But he both literally and figuratively backstabbed her, and was just using her.

The turmoil of her inner conflict, the betrayal, the loss, and the toll the horrific tribulations she suffered because of her betrayal led her to go on a Lilith-scale rampage, ascending to demonhood despite already being divine. From the ashes of what she burned down, she used the lessons of her tormentors to build her own empire.

She went from always smiling and having a wide grin to permanently wearing a stoic look, because she was just that broken. But, part of her original protector nature remained, as she now serves as the enforcer of a divine treaty whereby all of the gods of every pantheon are to keep their influence to the old world, not the new.

So that's eight so far.
The next SEVEN can all directly or indirectly trace their origins to the same place. Only three of the remaining ten formed without any direct tie to the following.

Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, was a continent midway between the new world and the old world. Topla, the main city on the continent, was the capitol of the Toplan Empire. The Toplans (read: Atlanteans) had magical advancements loosely equal to or slightly superior to modern day farn. In earth terms, they had technology rivaling 2025 level of technology potentially slightly better than what we have now.

The Toplan Empire spanned both the new world and the old world, over 70,000 years ago. In their minds, they brought enlightenment to the primitive cultures around the world. Those who they were colonizing and conquering had a different opinion of their actions.

Eventually, zealotry, arrogance, corruption, and apathy led to the circumstances where Dabadon, The Commander, would undergo his demonic Ascension around 70,000 years before the modern day. Dabadon is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Slothfulness. He, along with Sanatas, Bemoheth, and Athaneva, form the four Abundant Argon signaling apocalyptic events, because they all together were responsible for sinking the entire continent of Seidonia, with all one billion inhabitants. The consequences of an entire continent sinking to the bottom of the ocean also sent tidal waves across the world, wiping out nearly every coastal city overnight.

However, this catastrophe still left what would be deemed The Toplan Legacy, a mythical claim to being the true heirs of the greatness which was the Toplan Empire. In short, the backing behind every colonial and imperial mindset to follow, all aiming to reclaim the lost glory of Seidonia.

It starts with Toran. Toran was the easternmost outpost of the Toplan Empire, a trade colony established to easily connect with the farn equivalent to Asia. Toran can be thought of as the farn equivalent to Troy.

Toran was, by some method, displaced in time by approximately 60,000 years. Potentially 66,666, if we wanna be extra dramatic. I haven’t canonized the METHOD of time displacement. It would either be a magical glacier of sorts locking them in place a la Dylan Hunt Andromeda style, or it would be them literally being flung forward in time, where they just were one minute an outpost of Topla, and the next find out Topla has been gone for over 60,000 years.

Regardless of the method of displacement, them being time displaced by 60,000 years or so is canonical. (Only the method hasn’t been established by me.)

Toran would go on to form the Toran Empire, spanning the farn equivalent of the Mediterranean Sea, forming their own outposts. They would expand into areas the Toplan Empire hadn’t, both further east and south, colonizing effectively the farn equivalent to Africa, Europe, and the Middle East, spanning upwards to India.

Their adventuring culture was structured largely like Danganronpa, with adventurers highly specialized to ultimate extremes, hyper-competent to Godlike extents in their chosen fields, and using those fields to accomplish great feats.

The cousin people to the Torens, the Tinians, are the farn equivalent to one iteration of Greece. Tinia was another Toplan outpost, but unlike Toran, Tinia had to take The Slow Path forward. They were ethnically and culturally identical to Toplan at the time of the sinking of Seidonia, and stories of their Toplan heritage and the displacement of Toran survived the 60,000 year gap.

When Toran reappeared, the two cousin people were happy to see each other, and established good relations with each other. Toran freely shared their Toplan technology, culture, and history with their cousins.

The Tinians, however, eventually felt betrayed by the Torens. Toran had an easy path to expand their Empire to match and in many ways exceed that of the Toplan Empire. Yet Tinia could only expand into the bitter hash northern regions, inhabited by people who were adept at pushing the Tinians back.

The inability to freely expand into the Norkan regions left Tinians feeling like the Torens were deliberately stifling their growth. The Torens in contrast felt it was best to let their cousins strike out on their own. After all, they did make progress in colonizing part of the Norkan region.

Which is very important, because the Norkan descendants will cling to that loose thread. Norkans are loosely the farn equivalent to ancient Germanic, Celtic, and Norse people all rolled into one, and Norkan raiders would through their descendants form one of the modern superpowers of farn. But that's lore for a different day.

The important part is that the Tinians idea of striking out on their own was declaring war on the Torens. The two were evenly matched in a long stalemate.

Eventually, there was a call for a truce, to be signed within the impenetrable walls of Toran. The Tinians expected the Torens to be so arrogant they wouldn’t expect it was a trap, with them planning to Red Wedding the Torens within their own walls.

The Torens, however, weren’t that stupid. They suspected shenanigans, and thought they had sufficiently prepared.

They both ended up surprised by the other, and instead of the desired decisive blow, it was closer to a mutual kill. Technically, it was a Tinian Phyrric Victory, because they actually achieved their goal and had off-shore survivors who would retreat from the scene of the disaster.

However, this was because of the birth of a new member of the Abundant Argon, Deumos, The Deceiver. As an adventurer, he was considered the Ultimate Analyst, and yes, those who know their Danganropa lore can guess that means he became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Despair. He predicted everything about what the Tinians would do, and was ignored. The Torens lost the battle because their impenetrable walls were their main advantage, and lacking it, he was their last survivor, and he massacred the Tinians who survived the bloody battle.

Tinia lost all of its military, the majority of its leadership, and most of its navy, so was left vulnerable to invasion on all sides. The Toran colonies of Ranmoa and Thyrrga briefly united in vengeance to strike out against Tinia from the south and west.

Meanwhile, the Norkans reclaimed their territory from the north.

And completing the pressure on Tinia was raiders from the east, led by Belchevore, The Consumer. Since this is one of the two dark ages in farn history, loosely akin in time and effect to the Bronze Age Collapse, not much is known about Belchevore, other than he was likely an Insectoid race of some kind whose conquests led to his demonic Ascension. He became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Gluttony.

After Tinia inevitably collapsed, the unifying force between Ranmoa and Thyrrga collapsed, and the two both laid claim to the title of Toplan Legacy, leading into The Legacy Wars. If you couldn’t guess, Thyrrga is the farn equivalent to Carthage and Ranmoa the equivalent to Rome, with this the Punic Wars. Like on earth, Ranmoa would ultimately win, establishing the Ranmoan Empire, spanning the geography you would expect a Roman Empire to.

The downfall of the Ranmoan Empire was the same factors of most empires: greed, corruption, and apathy. They wanted to continue expanding, but lacked the resources to. So, they forcefully drafted the peaceful scholar Mastemo and enlisted his help in perverting his knowledge into weapons of war. Mastemo was not amused. You may remember that I mentioned a Mastemo, The Forsaken Scholar, who is a member of the Abundant Argon? Sure enough, this is him. He destroyed the Ranmoan Empire and demonically ascended to become the Demon God-Lord of the sin Knowledge.

The fall of the Ranmoan Empire left numerous splinters, who were united by King Arnos, or King Arneros, who is basically a combination of King Arthur, Jason of the Argonauts, and King Charlemagne the Great. He was a nautical adventurer turned great King, who united these fractured people to form the Federation of Ranmoan Children. Tragically, his early death led to the Federation of Ranmoan Children having a conflict which led to private businesses effectively seizing control of the Ferachen Empire as it was now called. These private corporations effectively ran everything, including adventuring, as a for-profit venture, breaking thousands of years of traditional regarding adventurers largely working closer to socialism and/or communism in structure.

Suffice to say, this latestage capitalistic hellscape did not end well, and eventually, Zeboel, The Striker, the next member of the Abundant Argon, would destroy the Ferachen Empire in a rebellion which led to their demonic Ascension. (Zeboel being the only explicitly enby member of the Abundant Argon.) They became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Envy.

This led to the farn equivalent to the dark ages, because while the Ferachen Empire had a valid claim to the Toplan Empire Legacy, its collapse left only the distant memory of greatness, with fractured nations forming in its wake.

This led to the landscape you would expect for the middle ages through the Renaissance in Ycasia, the farn equivalent to western Europe. Nations eventually began to form mostly finalized boarders, gain stronger independent cultures, warred with each other, had kings and nobles and so on and so forth.

Eventually, this would lead to two more of the Abundant Argon manifesting as a consequence, in different parts of the world.

Bothai, The False Chosen, was a prodigy adventurer and great leader, who represented a threat to the elites of society. One of them sent Lilith to assassinate him, and much to her chagrin, she was forced to execute this, impaling him through the chest from behind.

His dying corpse landed in the ruins of a temple to Deumos. Deumos had, by this time, run afoul of Milodee and been effectively banished from farn. He tried to claim that because he was a descendant of the Toplans and there were descendants of Toplans in the new world, he could lay claim to it. His Loophole was considered insufficient, and he paid the price of having his entire following, history, and very existence erased. But Bothai, dying, bleeding out, on his temple, allowed him to connect with Bothai, and make a deal with a demon. Deumos would save Bothai’s life, in exchange for possessing Bothai and Bothai becoming an agent of restoring Deumos's presence on farn.

Bothai, already in the mindset of seeking vengeance against those conspirators who killed him, agreed. I want to turn this story into a webcomic, but the end result was Bothai becoming Deumos's equal, becoming the Demon God-Lord of the sin Ambition.

In a different corner of the world in a similar timeframe, the various nations of Ycasia were colonizing the continent of Angea, displacing the locals, enslaving them, etc. Rarma, The Ensnarer, a child of a white father and black mother, could pass as a tanned white person, but was very much a child of both worlds, with all the trauma that entailed. I also am planning to tell her story, but the short form of it is, she met a guy who became her one true love. They became warlords together and effectively declared war against all other warlords and every nation colonizing Angea. Eventually, Rarma ended up mortally wounded. Her husband kept her in stasis, fought off all enemies, and healed her enough to revive her, but in the process, he himself got mortally wounded, and a just-revived Rarma was too weak to reciprocate the stasis. The two had saved each other countless times, but she wasn’t able to save him so immediately after he saved her.

She took this quite poorly. She embraced the worst traits of both herself and her husband, expanding their plans, following through with them, and didn’t just fend off the opposition. She brutally CRUSHED them, conquering the entire continent.

She was driven to demonic Ascension by the maddening irony of how she could have everything she ever could ask for--except the one and only thing she wanted. Because not even the Abundant Argon can revive the truly dead, her lover was gone for good. So she became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Greed.

All seven of those trace back indirectly to Luden, because Luden’s actions drove the actions which created the Toplan Empire, and through the sinking of Seidonia, the resulting chain of events.

To chronologically backtrack a bit, Phaimyustazael became the Demon God-Lord of the sin Fear(also Deceit) a few thousand years before modern times. Less than six thousand, but over two thousand. You might wonder why his name is so convoluted, and it's by his design. He is the Demon God-Lord of contracts. Whenever you think "deal with the devil", it'd be him you’re making a deal with.

As the demon of contracts, he's an expert at making people who arrogantly think they have bested him painfully realize they have been tricked by Phaimyustazael, The Trickster. To understand why, you have to know how demon true names work.

The true names of demons are well-known. So a contractor or summoner knowing a demon's true name offers them no power over that demon.

UNLESS the demon ACKNOWLEDGES their true name in the presence of their summoner or contractor. If they explicitly say, "yes, this is me", then they are bound to the one who brought them to farn. This is why demons have hundreds of aliases and titles. They use those to avoid acknowledging who they are to their summoner.

Phaimyustazael, by virtue of his name and the spelling thereof being ridiculously hard to get right, weaponizes this. He will acknowledge misspoken versions of his name and typos thereof, to let contractors THINK they have been given full control.

But because they didn’t perfectly pronounce his true name, it doesn’t count as being his true name, meaning they actually hold no extra power over him, and they find this out the hard way.

The youngest of the Abundant Argon in manifesting, even though she’s been around for all of eternity, is Rothasta. I originally had her title as "The First Inquisitor", but I am realizing that all five of the Primordial Demon God-Lords have 'first' and none of the other 15 do except Rothasta, so I am looking for a new ?adverb? between 'the' and 'Inquisitor'. Currently I am going for 'Sullen', but that may change later if I think of a better replacement for 'first'.

Rothasta is the Demon God-Lord of the sin Sacrifice. She was sent by a now-long-gone nation to prevent demons from crossing through a portal connecting the demon realm with farn. While guarding this portal, she would never age, and so, she was an eternal guardian of preventing mass demonic incursion onto farn.

She did this as a mortal for at least a thousand years. She was informed nothing remained of her nation. Everyone she knew had their lineage die out, and all records of her kingdom were lost, erased, etc. In short, nothing about her mortal life remained, and she had no reason to keep fighting. But she did.

Until about a hundred years ago, when she just...snapped. She had known she had consumed the essence of enough demons where she could become a demon god for over a thousand years. She chose not to. Until one day, she just...didn’t. She just succumbed. And became the seventeenth of the Abundant Argon.

As for the eighteenth Abundant Argon, they have yet to manifest on farn. Their effect on the world has already been felt, with them a member of every Demon Conference, but they haven’t yet actually manifested on farn, so their identity is unknown because the events leading to their birth as a Demon God-Lord haven’t yet transpired.

Because of this, the eighteenth Demon God-Lord could be anyone, and be the Demon God-Lord of any sin.

Of course, I know who the five possible eighteenth members of the Abundant Argon would be, each representing a different possible eighteenth sin. While anyone COULD be the eighteenth, only five people have the circumstances where they MIGHT become the eighteenth.

The eighteenth Demon God-Lord could be the sin of Insanity, Clarity, Regret, Conflict, or Pacifism.

And you might wonder. "Why is there only 18, and not 24?"

Well that's because the circumstances surrounding these people mean that any one of them becoming a Demon God-Lord would change the landscape of farn in a way which would prevent the circumstances for the other four.

In short, it’s not that there must be eighteen Demon God-Lords, never more and never less.

It’s that it’s only possible for eighteen individuals to become Demon God-Lords. Seventeen already have. Five people could be the eighteenth, but any one of them becoming the eighteenth changes the other four in ways making it impossible for them to become one anymore.

The best way I can think to explain this spoiler-free is to ask you to imagine a hypothetical.
Say all five candidates for the 18th were friends, and the only trigger condition for becoming the eighteenth Demon God-Lord was a tragedy where the other four died.

Sure, if there were multiple trigger conditions, then it would be possible to have nineteen to 24. But because the one and ONLY trigger condition for this hypothetical is the other four possible people being killed, there can always only be one final demonic Ascension to Demon God-Lordhood.

While any of them COULD be the final Abundant Argon, only one trigger condition can ever trigger, because that trigger condition prevents the other four triggers from being possible.

Since all eighteen of the Abundant Argon have been at every major Demon Conference starting with the first, they have always known they would have eighteen in total, thus why Mastemo proposed calling the Demon God-Lords The Abundant Argon.

They knew that no matter what, circumstances would play out to have that number eventually. Not because it was set to be eighteen, but rather because it just happened the circumstances behind the formation of the eighteenth would prevent any future possibility of more Demon God-Lords.

I hope that clarifier helps explain the concept. Where it's not a rule of "there must be 18 exactly", and instead it's just "well, 18 of us form at some point".

The only other thing I want to clarify is that about half of the Abundant Argon have kingdoms on farn and permanently reside there, and the other half only dwell on farn when summoned.

The five primordials, Sanatas, Dabadon, Zeboel, Phaimyustazael, and Rothasta all have no kingdoms on farn, and exist on farn exclusively through summons and contracts. They mainly dwell in the demon realm.

Milodee, Trisairo, Deumos, Belchevore, Mastemo, Bothai, Rarma, and the eighteenth Abundant Argon, all possess kingdoms on farn. (Or in the case of the 18th, WILL possess a kingdom.) Effectively, their subjects are a form of permanently summoning and contracting them.

There’s a lot more to demons, Demon Lords, Demon Gods, and Demon God-Lords, and how each is different from each other, and how demons work, because I only touched on the bare minimum of the mechanics involved.

And most of the Abundant Argon have a lot more to their stories and characters. I didn’t cover any of their secondary domains, which is what they are usually actually worshipped for. People pray to the Demon God-Lords to provide them something, and while it CAN be their primary domain of their sin, it's usually actually their secondary traits they get worshipped for.

For instance, Lilith’s primary worshippers are slaves praying for freedom, as Lilith’s secondary domain is freedom from slavery, loosely speaking.

Each of them, including the eighteenth, have secondary aspects to them. At least one pro-something and a correlating anti-something. But I think describing all of them is best saved for a different ramble.

I hope you enjoyed this one!
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My situation continues to worsen.

8/6/2025

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Hi, I am writing this across every platform I can, in order to best reach out to everyone and give them the rundown of things.

If you don’t know me, my name is Bree, aka, the Range of Bree System, aka Ranger, aka mastina2, and in most places I go by rBree2.

My elevator pitch for myself; I’m an autistic plural(median system) transwoman lesbian witch with ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety, and numerous disabilities both physical and mental. I’m 32 years old as of July 23rd, and legally married to the love of my life as of November 15th 2024.

Although, tangent; we're still hoping to have a wedding ceremony (we effectively eloped) in October 2026, pushed back from the initial plan of October 2025. But I digress.

Over my life, I've accumulated a fair share of interests. Writing, games, music, songs, Dancing, Poetry, art, Webcomics, and more. (I blogged daily about these things for nearly 10 years continuously!)

I've pursued all of them as a potential career casually, but never been able to get my foot fully through the door on anything. Professionally, I've been a lifeguard and later Aquatic Lead (formerly called a Lead Lifeguard) my entire adult life, for nearly 11 years (minus one missed year due to covid).

In online spaces, I am mostly known for my supportive nature. I bring joy and positivity to the spaces I choose to inhabit. I give my time, energy, and support to friends, loved ones, and even relative strangers who I happen to share a space with.

In my mind, everyone I talk to is a potential future friend, because every friend I have ever had, I got from talking. I share memes, I make silly wordplay jokes, I just vibe with folks. I provide my presence and provide that source of constant engagement. 

I talk about my passions, my interests, my life, and listen to them talk about theirs. I find their stories fascinating, and I am pretty good at remembering what they tell me, too!

Whenever people run into issues they want advice on, I give what I can. When people are down, I provide perspective. I help people see the best in them, when they can’t, and I provide ways for them to recover, rebuild, and keep going forward. 

I give my life perspective to share that they are not alone, and I give them guidance. I am in many ways a teacher and a counselor/psychiatrist/healer. I give people a way of reframing their life, in a way which encourages healthier mindsets.

One of the main ways I share small reminders and tips is with my daily check-ins. I started them to encourage everyone to check in daily to let people know they're alive and okay, and chose to encourage engagement by providing small boosts to the day, little things which can shed perspective on all their negative self-talk and allow for fighting against their weaknesses and building on their strengths. 

I want to share those with a wider audience than what I have, so I’m working to expand into other media. I eventually want to make a year-long calendar, and/or a year-long prompt journal. I've begun plans on making a series of 44 card oracle decks, too!

I've turned these daily check-ins into a webcomic, and occasionally into videos. I started a subreddit dedicated to providing them as well, and added a tag for it on the subreddit for my presence as a content creator. 

Speaking of which, I am a content creator.
I create videos of all kinds. On TikTok I primarily post memeposts, wordplay which I think of.
On YouTube there’s a variety. I vlog, I talk about passion projects, I provide longer uplifting messages, I educate people on subjects I’m familiar with particularly plurality, I provide unedited longer form recordings of gameplay for games, and I perform the various songs I’ve composed.

I stream on twitch. (And upload streams as raw vods to YouTube.) I’m a variety streamer, although lately I’ve been playing almost exclusively Cozy Farm Game type games such as Stardew Valley and Disney Dreamlight Valley.
Besides Cozy Farm Games, I primarily play RPG games, one-off story games, and childhood nostalgia games.
I also stream both art and my novelwriting process.

My current novel, Records of Farn, has as its own Elevator Pitch, "The genres of High School Hijinks/Shenanigans, Shonen, Shojo, Light Novel Isekai, and Harem blended/mixed into one, to tell an Epic surrounding around the effects the isekai’d protagonist has on the fantasy world she finds herself in."

Farn is a paracosm, with as much history as earth. It’s as old as earth in billions of years, had a planet collision to form one moon in a similar timeframe, developed primitive proto-life in a similar timeframe, sapients began forming around the same time, modern sapients appeared around 200,000 years ago, and civilizations have risen and fallen in parallel times to earth. The main difference is farn is a place where magic and religion are real, so the history of the planet is interwoven with mythological figures who explicitly had a proven tangible impact on the world.

Since this means there’s billions alive in the modern day, with hundreds of countries, cultures, and countless pop culture, I will never be able to tell the entire story of the planet, because to tell it all would be as impossible as telling all of earth’s history.

However, Records is specifically focused around the introduction of one transplant from earth, Vee, and her arrival on farn, and how her arrival transforms the planet thanks to the influence and consequences of her actions on the world stage.

Vee was designed as a protagonist to represent under-represented demographics. Namely, she’s a polyamorous plural transwoman lesbian with ADHD, autism, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. I asked the question what it would take for a person with those specific traits to be the one of eight billion sent as most qualified to farn, with her and farn evolving side by side.

I initially planned for three books covering the majority of the world. Records would cover Vee’s first three years in farn. I would write a sequel set after, and then an interquel between the two, with the interquel covering a lot of the expanded lore, filling in the gaps neither Records or the sequel would.

But I ran into a problem; I realized Records would, in its entirety, be akin to the entirety of The Lord of the Rings in length. I was effectively writing an entire series of light novels, or the entirety of a lengthy Manga like Bleach, or the entirety of an anime with hundreds of episodes, in one single book.

My first solution was to break it up by year. Year One as Vee’s first year, Year Two as her second, and Post-Graduation as her first year out and about fully in the adult world.

...Yet I've run into the problem where just Year One alone is likely to be around 2,000 - 4,000 pages in length, and the other years are likely to be equally as long.

...So my current plan is to return to the roots. I took great inspiration from light novels, so why not just have each book of Records be one or two Arcs, a la a Manga Volume, or an anime Season?

That will likely leave the first book at a reasonable 400 - 600 pages.

And I am actually pretty close to getting it written! It’s about one tenth done for a first draft, and the hardest parts of setting the framework are almost completed, with snippets of the rest written and a pretty comprehensive timeline established.

I just need to put in the work to make it.

And I have a lot of plans for the expanded farn universe. I genuinely believe that Farn as a franchise is, if handled properly, worth a billion if not multiple billions of dollars. (Mind you, I have no interest in even being a millionaire yet alone a billionaire, but I think my world has that much value.)

I think if I could successfully pitch it to a service provider like Amazon or Netflix, Records of Farn would make an INCREDIBLY good anime. We're talking, Demon Slayer or Jujutsu Kaisen levels of animation and popularity. There’s enough characters with their quirks and backstories for endless amounts of investment in the world, and with a show to provide their official looks, that opens the door up to merch. Figures, shirts, you name it, anything which could be sold and distributed to people on a worldwide basis.

Especially since it wouldn’t end there!

Records has a planned sequel and the interquel still, both of which could be adapted to be their own, shorter, anime series!

And then There’s the expanded world lore.

I have in mind a Battlestar Galactica slash Lost type live action soap opera dramafest covering the distant past revolving around the continent of Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, and how it led to the rise of Dabadon, the Demon God-Lord of Slothfulness. I have always thought that, given the opportunity, I could successfully pull off what all the pale imitators who tried to copy what those shows did, tried to do but failed. I feel I understand what made those shows work, and how I could artificially recreate what was accidentally made by circumstances of the time.

I also have in mind a musical, covering the downfall of the Federation of Ranmoan Children, aka the Ferachen Empire, and how Zeboel the Demon God-Lord of Envy was birthed from that late stage capitalism hellscape.

And then There’s a novel covering the rise of Rarma, the Demon God-Lord of Greed, and how she conquered Angea, putting an end to the era of colonialism in the old world.

And There’s more!

I also have in mind a book-slash-anime series called "Fallen Farn", a 'what-if' alternate universe covering one possible rendition of what farn would look like without Vee’s influence, one possible way things pan out without Vee accomplishing her full potential. In essence, it shows one possible world which diverges from the canonical farn at a point where Vee easily could have failed, and shows the consequences of that failure in an alternate future separate from the canonical sequel and interquel.

That’s four to five anime series, one musical, and one live action series, beyond all of the original books to be written, all with the potential merch to match!

And the sequel I intend to write has the theoretical potential for sequels after it to be written, too!

That, aside from how there’s at least one fictional MOBA video game which easily could be turned into an actually real one.

By my estimation, I have compiled 6,000 pages of notes for farn, and there’s plenty more unwritten I’ve stored exclusively in my head. A veritable Similarian of notes!

When I say this is a potentially billion dollar franchise if properly enabled, I well and truly believe it to have that level of worth. Farn is a rich, interesting world, truly equal to earth in scale, and that provides the ability for a truly endless amount of stories on every type of media.

And farn is just my current obsession as a paracosm.
I've made more, like the Rubyverse of my webcomic Red Hood Rider of equal scale to farn. (Heck, even The Descended is sizable.)

I've been writing stories since I was 13, and that has led to dozens, even hundreds, of rich worlds I can with relative ease write and bring to life, as I aim to with farn.

And I have more passions than just farn, too!

I also want to write and illustrate a children's book series, with an illustrated picture book containing captions which rhyme, telling subtle easily digestible morals to children through the eyes of the protagonist. Messages like "you might not like going to the doctor, but it helps you stay healthy", how to play safe, how to explore, etc.

I am a talented enough artist and wordsmith to pull it off, where I could potentially write a new book every month and release dozens in the series.

...But all of this, all of these ideas, all of the creativity, all of the passion, all of the support I give others, all of the love, kindness, education, resources, and so on and so forth I provide? All that joy and positivity, all that potential?

...Is in jeopardy, because I myself am in danger by the dire straights of my current life circumstances and the desperation thereof.

My work recently made policy changes which in effect removed accommodations for my disabilities. My work already strains me above 25 hours per week, and removing the parts of the routine which made it bearable is exhausting me to the point I genuinely might collapse at any given moment.

And on top of that, I have been given extra job responsibilities without any extra pay for the compensation of the increased workload. I’m doing more work, with less accommodations for my disabilities, and getting no increase in my pay or benefits from it.

Just my one job, now averaging closer to 36 hours a week, a full ten more than I can realistically handle with accommodations, while having those accommodations removed, and doing extra work for no extra pay? Is genuinely pushing my body and mind past breaking. I very well may perish thanks to my job if conditions don’t improve.

But it gets worse. Despite all of the above, my job doesn’t cover the cost of living. Me and my wife are both employed at soul-sucking jobs which are taxing us beyond our breaking points because we both have disabilities, but despite two jobs, we still aren’t making even close to enough to even survive.

Despite how our current jobs could already kill us, we're looking for second, even third, jobs, to get four to six sources of income, because that’s what we need at the moment.

Our apartment complex illegally upped our rent by $100 last year, without any notice. And when we renewed our lease, we went from having all utilities except power included for free, to being charged for every utility. Garbage, sewage, water, all previously free, but adding an additional couple hundred dollars.

Excluding power and internet, which together are an extra $300, our monthly rent went from $1700 to $2000, without any notice. Our first indication we would be charged for the utilities was the first monthly bill after we renewed our lease.

And this extra $300 in rent has slowly been building up to drowning us to a point where we can't keep it up, and last month finally was the breaking point.

In July, we received a $2,000 bill we had to pay. That was our rent money, and since we had to pay that bill, we had nothing left for rent.

So we have received an eviction notice. We have through August 7th to pay the rent, at least $2,000 but potentially $4,000, or we get evicted on August 12th.

We've been trying to pursue every aid resource. We've hit walls on food stamps in navigating the bureaucracy. We would qualify for legally disabled and get the benefits from it if we could actually afford to go to the doctor, but we can't.

My health insurance at the end of last year upped my monthly rate from $150/month to $550/month, a $400 increase I couldn’t pay. So I've been without health insurance all year long, and even if I had it, I wouldn’t be able to afford even the copays. We've been catch-22'd price gated out of qualifying for disabilities.

If we could afford to see doctors and receive their care, then it would be shown medical intervention isn’t enough to make us fully functional members of society, that we are in fact by the legal standard considered disabled. And that would open up the resources of disability to us. But because we can’t afford doctors, we can't get those resources, when those resources would likely enable us to afford doctors. We're trapped locked out of receiving the care we legally should qualify for.

Housing resources have largely given us no leads. We've pushed cheaper housing and programs to largely no effect.

We've tapped just about every resource left, and have nothing left.

And all of this builds on top of each other. My job exhausting me, trying to navigate the bureaucracy of receiving aid exhausting me, my own body exhausting me, hunting for cheaper housing, everything is adding up to breaking me, and if I do break...There’s no fixing me after.

All of the ideas, all of the creativity, all of the joy, all of the positivity, all of what I do, all the good I could ever do, all of the passion, all of that is on the verge of disappearing. Forever. Of being gone, permanently lost to the world.

So this is a final call for aid.

And to give a tangible answer to what you can do to help, there’s actually quite a lot!
You can send items or food directly to us. Either through throne (which has surprise gifts enabled), or through me DMing you our address.

You can spread the word. Share this, in post form, in video form, however you can, anywhere and everywhere.

Advocate on my behalf to any agency you think will listen.
Legal agencies which might take up me as a client for the illegal things I’ve been enduring.
An agent and/or manager who you think might believe in me and my vision such that they're willing to take a chance on me and believe that I can actually create what I believe I can.
Aid programs you think could work with me.

Jobs which you find that could work with us and our disabilities, ideally remote work which pays a significant amount.
Fundraising organizations or individuals, who might be interested in campaigning for us.

Or even just directly plugging how to support us.
You can support me through twitch subs and bits, albeit at a low payout to me.

You can donate to my kofi,
Or even commission something from me if you want a tangible return on your investment in me.

You can donate to our GoFundMe.

And you can spread the word to others.

You can follow, subscribe, and watch my content. (Ads on twitch when I stream, potential monetization on TikTok + YouTube.)
Here's a list of my links, my carrd.

Spread my content, spread the word of my need. Spread the word of the things I've gone through, of what I am hoping to do, of what I already am doing. Tell people about me, in any way shape or form you can.

I’m running out of time.
I have so much to offer the world.
I just need some help surviving in it.

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I haven't blogged since last year!

1/3/2025

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...Okay to be fair, I haven't blogged a lot so that joke is less effective than normal, butstill.

I'm still sick, recovering. Returning from vacation got me one sickness, and to be honest, I'm not even sure I was over it when Christmas hit and I got another sickness.

Both me and my wife got it pretty bad, but we're recovering.

And we've gotten some really good stuff now.

We're getting a free futon, as well as apparently also some free other stuff. A free desk and maybe recliner down the line.

So we've been cleaning our apartment to make room, and already our apartment is so much neater and cleaner.

There's a lot more work to be done, slow going because we're sick still and we don't want to prolong said sickness by pushing it, but it's going and going pretty good!

We got a lot of cooking supplies, including a microwave, so once again, in all ways but one, life is good!!!

The one way it isn't remains illegal financial charges, but...we're working on it.

In the meanwhile?

I'm making tremendous progress on my novel!

I'm cruising through writing, and in terms of organizing notes...

...Well, it's, ah. It's both going well, but also needs some cleanup. Because my worldbuilding is going faster than my notes can keep up with.

I know the details of basically every Abundant Argon.

When they formed.
Why they formed.
What they look like.
Even ones I didn't before.

I have an unofficial backstory for Luden (kept that way deliberately, but rather extensive), and a loose ETA of when. I always knew what Luden looked like.

I've always known what Lilith looks like, and her backstory (rather extensive). Her timeframe of when is actually a bit of a chronological rock/anchor for me in fact; knowing when things happened in regards to her lets me place when they  happen because of how well I know her timeline.

​Zeboel I relatively recently figured out the event causing their fall, what they look like, and the time involved. It's enough to be a Musical.

Deumos I already knew was the demon who caused Bothai's fall, but Deumos's own backstory, I figured out today!!! (It's ridiculously extensive.) Some of Deumos's backstory would be shown during Bothai's story, and Deumos's character growth would be largely because of Bothai. This also gave me his appearance.

Sanatas I knew the appearance and backstory of (relatively extensive). He was kinda a rock, as he had to be pre-Seidonia.

Dabadon I knew the approximate appearance and backstory of already. He was another rock, thanks to sinking Seidonia. A story extensive enough to be a live action show imo.

Rarma's appearance and backstory I've known for quite a while. (I want to write a novel about it in fact.) The one thing not QUITE set is the timing of her ascension. It's after Deumos's, as she wasn't ruling Angea back then, and presumably after Mastemo's unless she randomly left North Angea untouched. This would make her among the younger, but not among the youngest, as she's pre-Bothai (who is pre-Rothasta).

Belchevore's backstory is largely lost to the ages, but I know what he looks like now! And I have an approximate time he rose to power, too! (It's in one of the two Dark Ages. I'm thinking the mini Dark Age caused by Toran's fall, placing Belchevore as between Deumos's Ascension and Mastemo's Ascension.)

Mastemo, I knew the appearance and backstory of (pretty extensive, although relatively easy to summarize). He also served as a bit of a rock, as I knew exactly what the earth equivalent of his Ascension was. (The earth equivalent being the Fall of Rome. The farn equivalent of the Roman Empire pushed him too far in corruption, laziness, and greed.)

​Trisairo, I know the appearance of and have a working backstory (I admit it's basic, as it amounts to "She's the Demon of Order, who tried to bring Order to the Fae Realm, and the Fae being Fae, this was Not A Good Thing", but not every member of The Abundant Argon needs a whole life story. Most do, but it needn't be ALL of them.)

Ditto Milodee. Trisairo and Milodee are two of the few chronological absentees, in that I don't have their timeframe established yet.

Both are on the much older, but not ancient, side. We're talking pre-Deumos. Whether pre-Dabadon or post-Dabadon is the real debate at the moment. I'll figure it out soon.

​Bemoheth and Athaneva are unique among the Abundant Argon in that they have no backstory. I don't have their exact appearance nailed down definitively, or at least not their human forms. (I know what their true forms look like.) They are basically as old as farn itself, so they predate even Luden. While I need to know what their human forms look like, I don't need to know anything more about them because there isn't more to know about them. They're proto-spirits who chose to become demons just because they could. They're siblings and spouses. (Demons and Gods, natch. Refer to basically any mythology for how Gods are entwined.) That's about it.

​Bothai is one of the youngest Abundant Argon. I've known his backstory and appearance for a while, but finding his exact chronology has been a challenge. I'm honing in on an approximate timeframe, but it isn't nailed down to anything specific quite yet. He's younger than Zeboel by a considerable margin, and younger than Rarma, too. In fact I'm pretty sure he's the third-youngest, with only Rothasta and the 18th Abundant Argon as younger.

​Belreach is basically as old as Bemoheth and Athaneva and ever so slightly older than Luden, so is among the oldest of the Abundant Argon. I know his backstory, for what little there is, but his exact appearance isn't quite nailed down. He's a man. He looks like a dude. That's...about it, for details I know for sure.

​Phaimyustazael is one of the Abundant Argon I know the least about. He's got new info I know about him as of today (well, mostly it's stuff I internally already had, but wrote down more definitively), namely why his name is so ridiculous compared to the others. (As the King of Contracts, it's by design. It makes it easier for him to deceive people and makes it harder for would-be loopholers to succeed.) I have a really good idea what he looks like (basically, a constant grin fairly pale white man with black hair that's slightly animesque but more subdued and realistic, with shining ocean blue eyes), and a basic idea of how he became the Demon of Contracts.

I don't have an exact chronology set, it's somewhere likely in the range of Deumos: definitely after Dabadon, but before Mastemo. He might be the farn equivalent to King Midas? (As Midas was pre-Troy and Deumos was at the end of Troy, if so this would make him pre-Deumos but responsible for a disastrous fall of an empire.) Which would place him as over 4,000 years ago.
Someone who could cause the fall of an empire like the Babylonians, Myceneans, Hittites, or Assyrians. He could have caused the equivalent of the Knossos, Crete earthquake, the Minoan eruption, or the equivalent of the Thera eruption, etc., all about 200 - 500 years prior to Deumos.

And then we get to the youngest two.

Rothasta was 100 - 200 years ago in the demon realm. Her life as a mortal was pre-Bothai, and might be even pre-Mastemo, as knowledge of her kingdom was lost even to him. Since knowledge of an entire kingdom being wiped out with no trace is rare, this places her most likely human on farn times as immediately post-Zeboel or immediately post-Deumos. However this culminated in her actual Ascension being only a couple hundred years ago because she held onto her humanity in the demon realm for hundreds of years. I know what she looks like, and what she did. Her own pre-guardian history is lost even to her, but I can trace it based on her kingdom not having any trace of existing. It's quite possible she was a resident of the Ferachen Empire, in fact. But if so, would be closer to its founding under King Arnos. She could have even met the guy, been friends with him, even been one of his knights.

And the youngest of the Abundant Argon technically hasn't formed yet, but is known who they are to the Abundant Argon. The 18th member is a spoiler though, but I know who they are, what they look like, and what would cause their Ascension.

Soyeah. Making a lot of worldbuilding progress!

The Abundant Argon have always been a kind of linchpin by which the rest of farn's history has formed through. Other pantheons' rules were modeled after the Demon God-Lords out-of-universe (not in-universe). Ditto their powers, how they work, etc. The mechanics of divine entities were largely reverse-engineered from the mechanics of demons specifically. So, similarly, their history has shaped farn's own history, as well as geography.

I've mapped out farn's geography to have most places named.

And with the abundant argon having shaped the history of those places, I have basically the entirety of the background of the world of farn memorized to the level of an average farn well-educated college general-education adult.

Which is about the level of earth well-educated college general-education adult about earth's geography, history, and religion.

I've always said that farn is comparable to earth in history, geography, socioeconomics, geopolitical climate, cultures, etc. But now I have the how laid out, to the point where I can point to earth events I know about, and point to their farn equivalent. And vice-versa. And how they're similar, and how they're different.

Farn and Earth, despite Farn having magic and explicit deities as well as numerous different sapients, follow nearly identical trajectories as a whole in their progression and regression, in their societal collapses and empire collapses and empire rises. Not identical, especially as The Old World became more "crowded" by divine beings as time passed, and The New World was discovered far sooner chronologically (we're talking basically a thousand years sooner or so, loosely speaking), with Bairn's history more being a mixture of USA and United Kingdom history (history for the region dates back to the equivalent of the Roman Empire, so 1600+ years ago, albeit with large gaps until 1000 years ago or so when Baeyern, the farn equivalent to William the Conqueror, founded the country that would bear a simplification of his name), so like...it's not really a 1:1.

A lot of earth events are condensed into a single farn event, and vice-versa, with what might be a single earth event having been extrapolated to be numerous different farn events. But loosely, the overall trajectory of the two planets is OVERALL comparable, enough that any reasonably relatively well-educated adult from earth if transported to farn would just kinda...GET it.

Both so that Vee, said earthling, would be able to comprehend...and more pragmatically, so my readers, also earthlings, can too!

I hope you all like the final result.

Farn is eventually going to be turned over to the masses.

I've always seen me as just the medium by which stories of farn begin to get shared. Not as the only earth resident producing them.

Farn is as real as earth is, but that makes it a world too big for me to tell every tale of. I want to open it to others, too.

So the work I do now will help let others carry on my work in telling the tale of the planet after I am done sharing what I personally know.

Let's write the future together.
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I performed a song I wrote for a Musical

12/24/2024

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Granted, quite poorly.

But this is a preview into the tragedy of Zeboel. Zeboel is a background character, and until I wrote this song I didn't really know their story other than that they're some form of nonbinary preferring They/Them or It pronouns. As one of the relatively younger Abundant Argon though, I knew Zeboel had to have once been a mortal, and would thus have a story behind how they became one of the 18 Demon God-Lords on farn.

I realized they caused the downfall of the last true claimant of the Toplan (read; Atlantean) empire, the Federation of Ramoan (read; Roman) Children, loosely speaking the farn equivalent of the early Franks in the Charlemagnesque era of the Holy Roman Empire, but with a modern flair where they were basically the modern United States of America ruled by capitalism, where short-term greed led to short-term gains but left a class divide where the rich were focused on getting richer and the poor were left suffering, left to die, and frustrated. It got to the point where all they needed was someone to follow.

Zeboel became that symbol by being representative of the issue. Part of the profession the backbone of farn runs on being profitized (an adventurer), and being a kind, caring, compassionate, empathetic person, a pacifist at that, who wanted nothing to do with violence yet wanted to help the people. When pushed to despair, desperation, and broken, Zeboel was left feeling there was no other options anymore, there was no other way, and embraced their charismatic side to become that symbol of revolution.

This song is the "point of no return" for Zeboel on that path, at the end of the two-thirds mark of the Musical, with the final third demonstrating the bloody revolution would topple the world order but then cause the wave of hate to turn on each other and destroy themselves because without a common foe to unite against and without a way for their hate to go away, they instead directed it towards each other leading to the death of basically everyone.

Zeboel had the chance to rule the rubble, similar to how Mastemo became a King, but Zeboel, thoroughly broken, just...had no desire to. They were left an empty shell, they were left with no purpose, so they just...left. Before the destruction had even actually finished, really. And that lack of a leader to fill the gap caused the farn equivalent of The Dark Ages.
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I'm making a bit of a hard-pivot in life.

12/15/2024

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It started with a tarot reading on Wednesday which basically asked me what I wanted to really be spending my time on.

And as it turns out...while I do want to talk about what went on last year, the bleedthrough into this year, and to heal and express my thoughts there as they happen...

...I don't want to do that at the expense of me doing other things.

And that's also why I probably won't be blogging every day going forward; it's not the thing I am most prioritizing.

I made a list of what I really want to do, and that list?
-daily check-ins, the check-ins I've been posting to BlueSky. (I want to also upload them to Instagram but it's slow-going there.)

-1 irl life task completed, or at least 5 minutes on it

-1 sentence written in my novel
-1 sentence reviewed in my novel (Chapter One at the discord convo)
-1 thing transcribed in my novel notes

-1 moment with my wife, Kelsey Marie Lewis
-1 moment with friends

-BONUS: posting a blog.

Daily check-ins are important to me, both because they are what I use to let people know I am alive and okay, but also, because I know I am good at giving people little reminders and reassurances. Small things we all know, but which we can use those small boosts. It might not be much, but I want to try and shine a light for people every day. I can't make any tangible difference in the lives of my loved ones, yet alone strangers, due to how I'm not even really scraping by, but this is something I can do for free, and which I have come to recognize is a skill. I can help people, even if just words, and while it may not be much, it's still something.

Life tasks are important because I need to be pursuing altering my life in ways that are productive to kels and I having the dream lives we want. Even if it's just doing laundry, dishes, or something, even if it's just doing a work task, whatever thing it is, I want to spend at least five minutes a day on improving or at least maintaining my life as it is.

I want to aggressively pursue publishing my novel, as I have a goal of finishing before 2026. I think that if I really push as strongly as I am with the momentum I have, I can do it. I want to keep writing, I want to check the area which needs to be checked and fixed so things flow smoothly despite being written years apart, and I want to organize my notes to be something I can more easily reference and use (since I don't have all the names and info memorized).

My note transcribing largely hasn't been going through my discord notes, which are the vast majority of my notes tbh, but hey, when I get all my notes where I want them to be (and I'm getting much much closer to exactly that!!), I can begin to accurately transcribe those notes and get everything as it should be and start making new info filling in the gaps.

I've gotten a huge amount done in both my note transcribing and in my novelwriting. I technically finished the first chapter of my novel on a technicality and today I wrote nearly the entire first page of Chapter Two!

And with a higher focus on my friends and my wife, I can prioritize what is most important to me, too.

I still want to blog, ideally daily! But it's a secondary priority, compared to my main focus.

And that can lead me into weekly goals.

Bonus weekly, but not daily, goals:
-1 stream on twitch per week
-1 shortform content per week (YouTube, TikTok, Instagram)
-1 thing I haven't explored recently, do at least 5 minutes of trying it out or something related to it

Things I haven't explored can be a great many things. Life stuff. Stream improvements. Discord edits. Networking. Sites to be on. Social media. Art. Music. Transcribing other things.

I don't want them to be at the detriment of the daily ones, but I do want to pursue them regularly as I can.

I have a really good start. It's just about keeping the momentum going.

I have a goal, that when I get sufficiently far in my novel, to begin to post it across the internet. Build a buffer so that I can write as fast as I'm releasing. Get hype going and get people reading, interested, and invested.

And I think I can get it done pretty well.

I just need to put in the work for it.

Thus the hard-pivot.

​Wish me luck. <3
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Perfection is the enemy of good.

4/15/2024

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I keep on wanting to make a perfect blog entry to return to blogging rather than just doing blogging with is plenty good on its own. A single line of a blog post is better than no blog at all, after all.

However, there has been other factors, like the strong call to play Stardew Valley consuming me--if not for my game glitching/breaking, I would still be playing right now, instead of writing a blog. And I can't write a very long one, either, because between how close it is to bedtime and how long it takes to post to five or six different places (weebly blog, wix mirror, ko-fi blog, reddit post, youtube community, and maybe more?), I don't have much time to write the blog itself.

But I will say this much at least.

I am at least doing okay.

I'm obviously neglecting a lot of the aspects of my life, mostly various self-care things (largely the same ol' hygiene ones), but I'm doing more than I am not doing.

I'm largely staying on top of life.

I'm streaming to my schedule every single week.

I fixed the encoding issue I was having for recording videos and plan to start recording tomorrow.

Financially, things are really tight.

But I continue to make spiritual and plurality-based breakthroughs.

I have picked up extra hours at work and should in theory be getting a pay raise.
I am making progress on my twitch and discord.
I am branching out on my social media presence.

I have started progesterone, and am doing all of my healthcare and workouts.

I did have a, very good, but also very rattling conversation.

It basically was like a therapy session. It was a call with a friend, but left me wrecked in a good way.

My body has an uncontrollable shaking when certain stressful/anxiety/fear/overwhelmed/shutdown situations happen. I just kinda bluescreen, shake uncontrollably, and tremble, where I feel some deep fear, some deep emotions, and feel like a bunch needs to be unpacked by the experience.

I've had that for every car accident I've been in, most notably the January 2014 one which helped me realize I'm trans.

I've had that for when I came out to my family.

I've had that for when I confess my feelings--and also confess to others I have those feelings for someone.

And I've had that for when I've had the heart-sinking realization I just lost people I love from my life forever.

It's not an inherently negative thing.

What it is, is very clearly a trauma response.

And having it during the conversation we had made me realize...

...I have a lot more trauma to unpack than I ever thought.

I have so much work left to do in working through my damaged self.

​BUT, the bright side of this, is, no day has dropped below a 6/10. I've had moments where I've had negative mental at times, and at one point may have briefly dropped to 4/10 for half an hour or so, but I've been having lots of 10/10 days and just have been feeling all sorts of positivity and joy.

I did want to blog about a few things. Notably having made a rather longterm mistake I promised not to make again. I tend to get too longwinded and too overwhelming in giving my love to others. I realized I had been doing this for months upon months, and probably getting worse and worse at how severe it is, and that I need to restrain myself to levels that are more considerate--and also, pursue giving those in a medium more appropriate.

That was the tipping point for inspiring me to make my videos, which I should be starting tomorrow. Long messages in discords help some, but to others give them anxiety and stress and bombard them with more than they can handle. If I am to help those people I was helping before, I need to do so in a format where it doesn't harm those who I was harming before. And videos are a perfect format for accomplishing that.

I may not reach those I did before, but I can also give them shorter messages with longer videos for those who need them.

​So I'm going to be doing that.

I am going to get better and better at being empathetic and understanding to others.

There's some things I will never understand. I wrote a longwinded ramble which got longer and longer with time with the longest version being posted to the YT communities, about how I don't understand why people tend to lose their idealism, lose their sight of the good, etc. In that they tend to overcomplicate things and make them worse, despite how I do understand at the same time. (It's hard to explain. But basically, I get it, but at the same time, I can't understand it.)

​I will never understand everything. I will never understand hatred, understand forgetting all that is good in the world, etc. But I will still understand the people. I can understand the people even if I don't get it, if I don't get why they lost sight of the joy and positivity.

But I will be improving.

​I got big inspired for my novel. I am trying to see other perspectives and work with them more and more. I am opening up, being more transparent, more willing to share, etc.

I am growing.

I have a lot to give.

And I am beginning to heal.
I'm beginning to also accept that while the perspective of others are valid and their true beliefs, they can be wrong, and I should trust myself, my instincts, my sense of things--and my sense of myself is that I am exactly who I have always been, a kind caring empathetic person who wants to be a Breeacon of light bringing joy and positivity.

I can understand others don't see me that way. Everyone has skeletons in the closet, getting a direct view of mine sours their view, making their perspective more negative. Seeing the bad makes it easy to forget the good, and all the flaws, all the imperfections, being on full display makes it easy to believe that's indicative of who I am. Or even if not, that it's too late, that it's a bad match, etc.

...but while I can understand they see things that way...I don't have to agree. Respect, yes! I have to respect they see me that way, they see things that way, etc. But I don't have to agree. I can see myself and disagree with their view, because I can and do believe most people are good, including me, and despite the flaws are more good than bad, including me, and that I can think myself good despite the flaws.

I am rambling here, but I am going to keep going in life.

I have my rough spots, but...I am going to get stronger and stronger.

Tomorrow, I'm going to record videos.
I'm going to continue typing my plurality and working on my novel.
I'll cut down on Stardew Valley.

I'll fill gaps with work, art or writing.

I can do it.

​And it starts now.
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Today's my six-month anniversary with my fiance.

2/16/2024

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I am also home from my family night, having brought home a lot of stuff to sort through and organize.

Tomorrow is grocery shopping for essentials and organizing things.

Today the remainder is mostly nothing.

I want to talk about an old story idea I remembered, with the updates I've filled in since.

But for now I'll settle for saying Hunters/Slayers (the terms are used interchangeably) are a type of "human" (in the same sense that a witch would be) in that they aren't actually human but appear human without any supernatural qualities--except when they are near a supernatural quality, and they act as a form of "strong as they need to be"--they gain the strength, speed, endurance, and supernatural senses of the supernatural, proportional to how close they are.

Kinda like the Duke power in Haven, the closer they are to contacting, the stronger they get, so when in direct contact they are actually stronger than the creature they are touching. (Probably has a term.) This isn't something which need be used to slay the supernatural creature. In fact in modern times it's usually just used to have two effectively supernaturals for the price of one.

Anyway, busy resting and recovering so that's probably it for now.

​See you all next time, love you all.
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Quick extra info.

2/13/2024

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So for earth 5172 there's three basic ways to affect things beyond the body/technology.

There's soul magic, originating from the user. It's the same regardless of god, demon, angel, spirit, human, witch, you name it. It requires training, but is innate and highly dependent on the user. Mostly physical.

There's external magic, originating from an outside source. Trinkets to transform, magical girls, artifacts, etc., all provide their own source of magic that is usually fairly consistent. It is usually customized by the user, but has base features remaining regardless. The majority of magical girls, most superheroes, and (generic name for) Power Rangers + (generic name for) Kamen Riders use this.

There's environmental magic, where instead of drawing on their own power or the power from some source, they draw from the surrounding area. Most elemental magic is of this type. It's easiest for mages to use this type of magic. It does require the most education and training to learn the system. Although there's some customization, it's mostly standard, and the training is largely knowledge-base.

Ghosts live partially out of phase with the earth, but can at will shift to varying degrees. Ghosts who are not tied down to a place can go to either the community spirit realm or the individual spirit realm, depending on which is stronger as a pull. Every form of awakened individual of any kind can perceive them fulltime, even if they are fully out of phase.

Demons and angels both have a realm adjacent to those two.

Earth in addition to this astral plane where ghosts can operate has warped spaces, where things which shouldn't fit in a space, do. This allows for entire kingdoms to remain hidden from those uninitiated in how to access them. However, again, there's nothing making them exclusive. A fae kingdom can be well-known and visited by spirits, demons, witches, etc. A wizard school could have demons, angels, fae, etc. all get in.

Superheroes and Supervillains, as well as (some generic term for) Power Rangers and (some generic term for) Kamen Riders, tend to use the "meh, doesn't affect me" filter the most, but other groups exploit it all the time, which can make these warped spaces be visible yet never visited by those uninitiated.

The filter can still apply to awakened individuals who don't shake it off. Everyone has to shake it off and everyone can. Humans, average humans, can.

Everyone has some amount of soul magic, although for most it's fairly low. Without fail. Even sapient AI can, because sapience gives a soul.
Anyone can be empowered by external magic, with nothing disqualifying them.
99% of people can channel external magic. Some may have an inability to, in exchange for also having immunity to it. However, because it requires training, most don't.

That's the limit to what I can give tonight though.

I'm going on a mini-vacation with my fiance tomorrow for Valentine's Day and need to rest.
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