...Okay to be fair, I haven't blogged a lot so that joke is less effective than normal, butstill.

I'm still sick, recovering. Returning from vacation got me one sickness, and to be honest, I'm not even sure I was over it when Christmas hit and I got another sickness.

Both me and my wife got it pretty bad, but we're recovering.

And we've gotten some really good stuff now.

We're getting a free futon, as well as apparently also some free other stuff. A free desk and maybe recliner down the line.

So we've been cleaning our apartment to make room, and already our apartment is so much neater and cleaner.

There's a lot more work to be done, slow going because we're sick still and we don't want to prolong said sickness by pushing it, but it's going and going pretty good!

We got a lot of cooking supplies, including a microwave, so once again, in all ways but one, life is good!!!

The one way it isn't remains illegal financial charges, but...we're working on it.

In the meanwhile?

I'm making tremendous progress on my novel!

I'm cruising through writing, and in terms of organizing notes...

...Well, it's, ah. It's both going well, but also needs some cleanup. Because my worldbuilding is going faster than my notes can keep up with.

I know the details of basically every Abundant Argon.

When they formed.
Why they formed.
What they look like.
Even ones I didn't before.

I have an unofficial backstory for Luden (kept that way deliberately, but rather extensive), and a loose ETA of when. I always knew what Luden looked like.

I've always known what Lilith looks like, and her backstory (rather extensive). Her timeframe of when is actually a bit of a chronological rock/anchor for me in fact; knowing when things happened in regards to her lets me place when they  happen because of how well I know her timeline.

​Zeboel I relatively recently figured out the event causing their fall, what they look like, and the time involved. It's enough to be a Musical.

Deumos I already knew was the demon who caused Bothai's fall, but Deumos's own backstory, I figured out today!!! (It's ridiculously extensive.) Some of Deumos's backstory would be shown during Bothai's story, and Deumos's character growth would be largely because of Bothai. This also gave me his appearance.

Sanatas I knew the appearance and backstory of (relatively extensive). He was kinda a rock, as he had to be pre-Seidonia.

Dabadon I knew the approximate appearance and backstory of already. He was another rock, thanks to sinking Seidonia. A story extensive enough to be a live action show imo.

Rarma's appearance and backstory I've known for quite a while. (I want to write a novel about it in fact.) The one thing not QUITE set is the timing of her ascension. It's after Deumos's, as she wasn't ruling Angea back then, and presumably after Mastemo's unless she randomly left North Angea untouched. This would make her among the younger, but not among the youngest, as she's pre-Bothai (who is pre-Rothasta).

Belchevore's backstory is largely lost to the ages, but I know what he looks like now! And I have an approximate time he rose to power, too! (It's in one of the two Dark Ages. I'm thinking the mini Dark Age caused by Toran's fall, placing Belchevore as between Deumos's Ascension and Mastemo's Ascension.)

Mastemo, I knew the appearance and backstory of (pretty extensive, although relatively easy to summarize). He also served as a bit of a rock, as I knew exactly what the earth equivalent of his Ascension was. (The earth equivalent being the Fall of Rome. The farn equivalent of the Roman Empire pushed him too far in corruption, laziness, and greed.)

​Trisairo, I know the appearance of and have a working backstory (I admit it's basic, as it amounts to "She's the Demon of Order, who tried to bring Order to the Fae Realm, and the Fae being Fae, this was Not A Good Thing", but not every member of The Abundant Argon needs a whole life story. Most do, but it needn't be ALL of them.)

Ditto Milodee. Trisairo and Milodee are two of the few chronological absentees, in that I don't have their timeframe established yet.

Both are on the much older, but not ancient, side. We're talking pre-Deumos. Whether pre-Dabadon or post-Dabadon is the real debate at the moment. I'll figure it out soon.

​Bemoheth and Athaneva are unique among the Abundant Argon in that they have no backstory. I don't have their exact appearance nailed down definitively, or at least not their human forms. (I know what their true forms look like.) They are basically as old as farn itself, so they predate even Luden. While I need to know what their human forms look like, I don't need to know anything more about them because there isn't more to know about them. They're proto-spirits who chose to become demons just because they could. They're siblings and spouses. (Demons and Gods, natch. Refer to basically any mythology for how Gods are entwined.) That's about it.

​Bothai is one of the youngest Abundant Argon. I've known his backstory and appearance for a while, but finding his exact chronology has been a challenge. I'm honing in on an approximate timeframe, but it isn't nailed down to anything specific quite yet. He's younger than Zeboel by a considerable margin, and younger than Rarma, too. In fact I'm pretty sure he's the third-youngest, with only Rothasta and the 18th Abundant Argon as younger.

​Belreach is basically as old as Bemoheth and Athaneva and ever so slightly older than Luden, so is among the oldest of the Abundant Argon. I know his backstory, for what little there is, but his exact appearance isn't quite nailed down. He's a man. He looks like a dude. That's...about it, for details I know for sure.

​Phaimyustazael is one of the Abundant Argon I know the least about. He's got new info I know about him as of today (well, mostly it's stuff I internally already had, but wrote down more definitively), namely why his name is so ridiculous compared to the others. (As the King of Contracts, it's by design. It makes it easier for him to deceive people and makes it harder for would-be loopholers to succeed.) I have a really good idea what he looks like (basically, a constant grin fairly pale white man with black hair that's slightly animesque but more subdued and realistic, with shining ocean blue eyes), and a basic idea of how he became the Demon of Contracts.

I don't have an exact chronology set, it's somewhere likely in the range of Deumos: definitely after Dabadon, but before Mastemo. He might be the farn equivalent to King Midas? (As Midas was pre-Troy and Deumos was at the end of Troy, if so this would make him pre-Deumos but responsible for a disastrous fall of an empire.) Which would place him as over 4,000 years ago.
Someone who could cause the fall of an empire like the Babylonians, Myceneans, Hittites, or Assyrians. He could have caused the equivalent of the Knossos, Crete earthquake, the Minoan eruption, or the equivalent of the Thera eruption, etc., all about 200 - 500 years prior to Deumos.

And then we get to the youngest two.

Rothasta was 100 - 200 years ago in the demon realm. Her life as a mortal was pre-Bothai, and might be even pre-Mastemo, as knowledge of her kingdom was lost even to him. Since knowledge of an entire kingdom being wiped out with no trace is rare, this places her most likely human on farn times as immediately post-Zeboel or immediately post-Deumos. However this culminated in her actual Ascension being only a couple hundred years ago because she held onto her humanity in the demon realm for hundreds of years. I know what she looks like, and what she did. Her own pre-guardian history is lost even to her, but I can trace it based on her kingdom not having any trace of existing. It's quite possible she was a resident of the Ferachen Empire, in fact. But if so, would be closer to its founding under King Arnos. She could have even met the guy, been friends with him, even been one of his knights.

And the youngest of the Abundant Argon technically hasn't formed yet, but is known who they are to the Abundant Argon. The 18th member is a spoiler though, but I know who they are, what they look like, and what would cause their Ascension.

Soyeah. Making a lot of worldbuilding progress!

The Abundant Argon have always been a kind of linchpin by which the rest of farn's history has formed through. Other pantheons' rules were modeled after the Demon God-Lords out-of-universe (not in-universe). Ditto their powers, how they work, etc. The mechanics of divine entities were largely reverse-engineered from the mechanics of demons specifically. So, similarly, their history has shaped farn's own history, as well as geography.

I've mapped out farn's geography to have most places named.

And with the abundant argon having shaped the history of those places, I have basically the entirety of the background of the world of farn memorized to the level of an average farn well-educated college general-education adult.

Which is about the level of earth well-educated college general-education adult about earth's geography, history, and religion.

I've always said that farn is comparable to earth in history, geography, socioeconomics, geopolitical climate, cultures, etc. But now I have the how laid out, to the point where I can point to earth events I know about, and point to their farn equivalent. And vice-versa. And how they're similar, and how they're different.

Farn and Earth, despite Farn having magic and explicit deities as well as numerous different sapients, follow nearly identical trajectories as a whole in their progression and regression, in their societal collapses and empire collapses and empire rises. Not identical, especially as The Old World became more "crowded" by divine beings as time passed, and The New World was discovered far sooner chronologically (we're talking basically a thousand years sooner or so, loosely speaking), with Bairn's history more being a mixture of USA and United Kingdom history (history for the region dates back to the equivalent of the Roman Empire, so 1600+ years ago, albeit with large gaps until 1000 years ago or so when Baeyern, the farn equivalent to William the Conqueror, founded the country that would bear a simplification of his name), so like...it's not really a 1:1.

A lot of earth events are condensed into a single farn event, and vice-versa, with what might be a single earth event having been extrapolated to be numerous different farn events. But loosely, the overall trajectory of the two planets is OVERALL comparable, enough that any reasonably relatively well-educated adult from earth if transported to farn would just kinda...GET it.

Both so that Vee, said earthling, would be able to comprehend...and more pragmatically, so my readers, also earthlings, can too!

I hope you all like the final result.

Farn is eventually going to be turned over to the masses.

I've always seen me as just the medium by which stories of farn begin to get shared. Not as the only earth resident producing them.

Farn is as real as earth is, but that makes it a world too big for me to tell every tale of. I want to open it to others, too.

So the work I do now will help let others carry on my work in telling the tale of the planet after I am done sharing what I personally know.

Let's write the future together.

Granted, quite poorly.

But this is a preview into the tragedy of Zeboel. Zeboel is a background character, and until I wrote this song I didn't really know their story other than that they're some form of nonbinary preferring They/Them or It pronouns. As one of the relatively younger Abundant Argon though, I knew Zeboel had to have once been a mortal, and would thus have a story behind how they became one of the 18 Demon God-Lords on farn.

I realized they caused the downfall of the last true claimant of the Toplan (read; Atlantean) empire, the Federation of Ramoan (read; Roman) Children, loosely speaking the farn equivalent of the early Franks in the Charlemagnesque era of the Holy Roman Empire, but with a modern flair where they were basically the modern United States of America ruled by capitalism, where short-term greed led to short-term gains but left a class divide where the rich were focused on getting richer and the poor were left suffering, left to die, and frustrated. It got to the point where all they needed was someone to follow.

Zeboel became that symbol by being representative of the issue. Part of the profession the backbone of farn runs on being profitized (an adventurer), and being a kind, caring, compassionate, empathetic person, a pacifist at that, who wanted nothing to do with violence yet wanted to help the people. When pushed to despair, desperation, and broken, Zeboel was left feeling there was no other options anymore, there was no other way, and embraced their charismatic side to become that symbol of revolution.

This song is the "point of no return" for Zeboel on that path, at the end of the two-thirds mark of the Musical, with the final third demonstrating the bloody revolution would topple the world order but then cause the wave of hate to turn on each other and destroy themselves because without a common foe to unite against and without a way for their hate to go away, they instead directed it towards each other leading to the death of basically everyone.

Zeboel had the chance to rule the rubble, similar to how Mastemo became a King, but Zeboel, thoroughly broken, just...had no desire to. They were left an empty shell, they were left with no purpose, so they just...left. Before the destruction had even actually finished, really. And that lack of a leader to fill the gap caused the farn equivalent of The Dark Ages.

It started with a tarot reading on Wednesday which basically asked me what I wanted to really be spending my time on.

And as it turns out...while I do want to talk about what went on last year, the bleedthrough into this year, and to heal and express my thoughts there as they happen...

...I don't want to do that at the expense of me doing other things.

And that's also why I probably won't be blogging every day going forward; it's not the thing I am most prioritizing.

I made a list of what I really want to do, and that list?
-daily check-ins, the check-ins I've been posting to BlueSky. (I want to also upload them to Instagram but it's slow-going there.)

-1 irl life task completed, or at least 5 minutes on it

-1 sentence written in my novel
-1 sentence reviewed in my novel (Chapter One at the discord convo)
-1 thing transcribed in my novel notes

-1 moment with my wife, Kelsey Marie Lewis
-1 moment with friends

-BONUS: posting a blog.

Daily check-ins are important to me, both because they are what I use to let people know I am alive and okay, but also, because I know I am good at giving people little reminders and reassurances. Small things we all know, but which we can use those small boosts. It might not be much, but I want to try and shine a light for people every day. I can't make any tangible difference in the lives of my loved ones, yet alone strangers, due to how I'm not even really scraping by, but this is something I can do for free, and which I have come to recognize is a skill. I can help people, even if just words, and while it may not be much, it's still something.

Life tasks are important because I need to be pursuing altering my life in ways that are productive to kels and I having the dream lives we want. Even if it's just doing laundry, dishes, or something, even if it's just doing a work task, whatever thing it is, I want to spend at least five minutes a day on improving or at least maintaining my life as it is.

I want to aggressively pursue publishing my novel, as I have a goal of finishing before 2026. I think that if I really push as strongly as I am with the momentum I have, I can do it. I want to keep writing, I want to check the area which needs to be checked and fixed so things flow smoothly despite being written years apart, and I want to organize my notes to be something I can more easily reference and use (since I don't have all the names and info memorized).

My note transcribing largely hasn't been going through my discord notes, which are the vast majority of my notes tbh, but hey, when I get all my notes where I want them to be (and I'm getting much much closer to exactly that!!), I can begin to accurately transcribe those notes and get everything as it should be and start making new info filling in the gaps.

I've gotten a huge amount done in both my note transcribing and in my novelwriting. I technically finished the first chapter of my novel on a technicality and today I wrote nearly the entire first page of Chapter Two!

And with a higher focus on my friends and my wife, I can prioritize what is most important to me, too.

I still want to blog, ideally daily! But it's a secondary priority, compared to my main focus.

And that can lead me into weekly goals.

Bonus weekly, but not daily, goals:
-1 stream on twitch per week
-1 shortform content per week (YouTube, TikTok, Instagram)
-1 thing I haven't explored recently, do at least 5 minutes of trying it out or something related to it

Things I haven't explored can be a great many things. Life stuff. Stream improvements. Discord edits. Networking. Sites to be on. Social media. Art. Music. Transcribing other things.

I don't want them to be at the detriment of the daily ones, but I do want to pursue them regularly as I can.

I have a really good start. It's just about keeping the momentum going.

I have a goal, that when I get sufficiently far in my novel, to begin to post it across the internet. Build a buffer so that I can write as fast as I'm releasing. Get hype going and get people reading, interested, and invested.

And I think I can get it done pretty well.

I just need to put in the work for it.

Thus the hard-pivot.

​Wish me luck. <3

I keep on wanting to make a perfect blog entry to return to blogging rather than just doing blogging with is plenty good on its own. A single line of a blog post is better than no blog at all, after all.

However, there has been other factors, like the strong call to play Stardew Valley consuming me--if not for my game glitching/breaking, I would still be playing right now, instead of writing a blog. And I can't write a very long one, either, because between how close it is to bedtime and how long it takes to post to five or six different places (weebly blog, wix mirror, ko-fi blog, reddit post, youtube community, and maybe more?), I don't have much time to write the blog itself.

But I will say this much at least.

I am at least doing okay.

I'm obviously neglecting a lot of the aspects of my life, mostly various self-care things (largely the same ol' hygiene ones), but I'm doing more than I am not doing.

I'm largely staying on top of life.

I'm streaming to my schedule every single week.

I fixed the encoding issue I was having for recording videos and plan to start recording tomorrow.

Financially, things are really tight.

But I continue to make spiritual and plurality-based breakthroughs.

I have picked up extra hours at work and should in theory be getting a pay raise.
I am making progress on my twitch and discord.
I am branching out on my social media presence.

I have started progesterone, and am doing all of my healthcare and workouts.

I did have a, very good, but also very rattling conversation.

It basically was like a therapy session. It was a call with a friend, but left me wrecked in a good way.

My body has an uncontrollable shaking when certain stressful/anxiety/fear/overwhelmed/shutdown situations happen. I just kinda bluescreen, shake uncontrollably, and tremble, where I feel some deep fear, some deep emotions, and feel like a bunch needs to be unpacked by the experience.

I've had that for every car accident I've been in, most notably the January 2014 one which helped me realize I'm trans.

I've had that for when I came out to my family.

I've had that for when I confess my feelings--and also confess to others I have those feelings for someone.

And I've had that for when I've had the heart-sinking realization I just lost people I love from my life forever.

It's not an inherently negative thing.

What it is, is very clearly a trauma response.

And having it during the conversation we had made me realize...

...I have a lot more trauma to unpack than I ever thought.

I have so much work left to do in working through my damaged self.

​BUT, the bright side of this, is, no day has dropped below a 6/10. I've had moments where I've had negative mental at times, and at one point may have briefly dropped to 4/10 for half an hour or so, but I've been having lots of 10/10 days and just have been feeling all sorts of positivity and joy.

I did want to blog about a few things. Notably having made a rather longterm mistake I promised not to make again. I tend to get too longwinded and too overwhelming in giving my love to others. I realized I had been doing this for months upon months, and probably getting worse and worse at how severe it is, and that I need to restrain myself to levels that are more considerate--and also, pursue giving those in a medium more appropriate.

That was the tipping point for inspiring me to make my videos, which I should be starting tomorrow. Long messages in discords help some, but to others give them anxiety and stress and bombard them with more than they can handle. If I am to help those people I was helping before, I need to do so in a format where it doesn't harm those who I was harming before. And videos are a perfect format for accomplishing that.

I may not reach those I did before, but I can also give them shorter messages with longer videos for those who need them.

​So I'm going to be doing that.

I am going to get better and better at being empathetic and understanding to others.

There's some things I will never understand. I wrote a longwinded ramble which got longer and longer with time with the longest version being posted to the YT communities, about how I don't understand why people tend to lose their idealism, lose their sight of the good, etc. In that they tend to overcomplicate things and make them worse, despite how I do understand at the same time. (It's hard to explain. But basically, I get it, but at the same time, I can't understand it.)

​I will never understand everything. I will never understand hatred, understand forgetting all that is good in the world, etc. But I will still understand the people. I can understand the people even if I don't get it, if I don't get why they lost sight of the joy and positivity.

But I will be improving.

​I got big inspired for my novel. I am trying to see other perspectives and work with them more and more. I am opening up, being more transparent, more willing to share, etc.

I am growing.

I have a lot to give.

And I am beginning to heal.
I'm beginning to also accept that while the perspective of others are valid and their true beliefs, they can be wrong, and I should trust myself, my instincts, my sense of things--and my sense of myself is that I am exactly who I have always been, a kind caring empathetic person who wants to be a Breeacon of light bringing joy and positivity.

I can understand others don't see me that way. Everyone has skeletons in the closet, getting a direct view of mine sours their view, making their perspective more negative. Seeing the bad makes it easy to forget the good, and all the flaws, all the imperfections, being on full display makes it easy to believe that's indicative of who I am. Or even if not, that it's too late, that it's a bad match, etc.

...but while I can understand they see things that way...I don't have to agree. Respect, yes! I have to respect they see me that way, they see things that way, etc. But I don't have to agree. I can see myself and disagree with their view, because I can and do believe most people are good, including me, and despite the flaws are more good than bad, including me, and that I can think myself good despite the flaws.

I am rambling here, but I am going to keep going in life.

I have my rough spots, but...I am going to get stronger and stronger.

Tomorrow, I'm going to record videos.
I'm going to continue typing my plurality and working on my novel.
I'll cut down on Stardew Valley.

I'll fill gaps with work, art or writing.

I can do it.

​And it starts now.

I am also home from my family night, having brought home a lot of stuff to sort through and organize.

Tomorrow is grocery shopping for essentials and organizing things.

Today the remainder is mostly nothing.

I want to talk about an old story idea I remembered, with the updates I've filled in since.

But for now I'll settle for saying Hunters/Slayers (the terms are used interchangeably) are a type of "human" (in the same sense that a witch would be) in that they aren't actually human but appear human without any supernatural qualities--except when they are near a supernatural quality, and they act as a form of "strong as they need to be"--they gain the strength, speed, endurance, and supernatural senses of the supernatural, proportional to how close they are.

Kinda like the Duke power in Haven, the closer they are to contacting, the stronger they get, so when in direct contact they are actually stronger than the creature they are touching. (Probably has a term.) This isn't something which need be used to slay the supernatural creature. In fact in modern times it's usually just used to have two effectively supernaturals for the price of one.

Anyway, busy resting and recovering so that's probably it for now.

​See you all next time, love you all.

So for earth 5172 there's three basic ways to affect things beyond the body/technology.

There's soul magic, originating from the user. It's the same regardless of god, demon, angel, spirit, human, witch, you name it. It requires training, but is innate and highly dependent on the user. Mostly physical.

There's external magic, originating from an outside source. Trinkets to transform, magical girls, artifacts, etc., all provide their own source of magic that is usually fairly consistent. It is usually customized by the user, but has base features remaining regardless. The majority of magical girls, most superheroes, and (generic name for) Power Rangers + (generic name for) Kamen Riders use this.

There's environmental magic, where instead of drawing on their own power or the power from some source, they draw from the surrounding area. Most elemental magic is of this type. It's easiest for mages to use this type of magic. It does require the most education and training to learn the system. Although there's some customization, it's mostly standard, and the training is largely knowledge-base.

Ghosts live partially out of phase with the earth, but can at will shift to varying degrees. Ghosts who are not tied down to a place can go to either the community spirit realm or the individual spirit realm, depending on which is stronger as a pull. Every form of awakened individual of any kind can perceive them fulltime, even if they are fully out of phase.

Demons and angels both have a realm adjacent to those two.

Earth in addition to this astral plane where ghosts can operate has warped spaces, where things which shouldn't fit in a space, do. This allows for entire kingdoms to remain hidden from those uninitiated in how to access them. However, again, there's nothing making them exclusive. A fae kingdom can be well-known and visited by spirits, demons, witches, etc. A wizard school could have demons, angels, fae, etc. all get in.

Superheroes and Supervillains, as well as (some generic term for) Power Rangers and (some generic term for) Kamen Riders, tend to use the "meh, doesn't affect me" filter the most, but other groups exploit it all the time, which can make these warped spaces be visible yet never visited by those uninitiated.

The filter can still apply to awakened individuals who don't shake it off. Everyone has to shake it off and everyone can. Humans, average humans, can.

Everyone has some amount of soul magic, although for most it's fairly low. Without fail. Even sapient AI can, because sapience gives a soul.
Anyone can be empowered by external magic, with nothing disqualifying them.
99% of people can channel external magic. Some may have an inability to, in exchange for also having immunity to it. However, because it requires training, most don't.

That's the limit to what I can give tonight though.

I'm going on a mini-vacation with my fiance tomorrow for Valentine's Day and need to rest.

I think it might be Earth 5172. Why that number? I don't know! It's the name for the world which came to mind when I thought about it.

And honestly...this might seem weird, but...for maybe the first time ever, this doesn't feel like a world I made.

It feels like a world I am discovering.

Like, when it came to farn, I made it, and then it took on a life of its own. Farn was created, and I don't create things about farn anymore, I discover things about it. But I still was initially writing and creating farn before it took on enough momentum to build itself. I gave the building blocks, then farn built itself.

And same for the colliniverse, for Phyrra and Cyrus.

And same for the Rubyverse.

Every paracosm of mine, I created, and then it took on its own life beyond my work.

But this world feels different somehow.

I feel like I'm channeling it into being represented but I didn't make it.

Not even subconsciously.

Like, I know what my headspace is like.

I know what worlds I subconsciously make are like.

I know what worlds I consciously started building are like.

And yet, this earth feels like it just exists already, I'm just the one who discovered it somehow.

I'm not sure I can do it justice, but I'll have to try.

​Probably not today, but when I can.

...but today I developed a new world. Not really a story, per se, because there's too many stories for it to be a story, but a setting. A world.

The basics of it are a world where Power Rangers, Kamen Riders, Magical Girls, Gods, Demigods, Spirits, Demons, Ghosts, Witches, Vampires, Werewolves, Angels, other supernatural beings, Elemental Powers, Fairies, Elves, Superheroes, Supervillains, and more, all exist, but are not mutually exclusive. In fact they frequently overlap. Princesses being frequent sources of being almost all at once. A world combining all of them into one.

I'm still figuring out the details.

Basically, Gods aren't so much Gods as they are an avatar of the concept of the entity. They are human, but also divine, they are both the God yet also as a human can stray from the myths. They have both influence from the perception of their myth but also their own personal growth separate from the myth.

There's two separate perception filters, where one is "I coulda sworn it was this way, but I guess it always was this way" for some changes, and another is "this is happening, but meh, not my problem" where they kinda tune it out because it's not something which affects/impacts them. They see it happen and if they focused would know of it, but don't really care.

All creatures, from monsters to magical girls and so on and so forth, are not inherently good or evil. They're people. There's still evil academies and good academies and super academies.

Morph grids can handle up to 7, but can have secondaries up to 12, so teams are usually 3 - 6 in size with final rangers occupying the remainders.

I have an idea of how it all works, but I don't have it laid out or the time to tonight.

It's gonna be fun to explore though.

The one downside; I am going to get more headmates from exploring.

Which, isn't really a downside, so much as it is, a, "well...here we go again..." xD.

Anyway, gotta go, busy night.

This blog has been deleted as of 12/11/2023.

Normally, I would never delete anything, least of all a whole blog entry. But given the level of harm from some of blog in particular, I felt I had to. This one may or may not be restored after review, but for now, I erred on the side of removal.

For more on why I took this extreme measure, check these blog posts:
http://alltoohuman.weebly.com/blog/the-pain-is-getting-to-me-tonight
http://alltoohuman.weebly.com/blog/i-thought-about-it-overnight

Okay so checking in my notes I've got...hmm, 1/11/2023?...
...I guess that means about 47 days worth of notes to sort through?

Aside from how I am trying to combine three documents' worth of info into one (well, one was already bare-bones having been formed side-by-side with this project, but I suppose the discord notes count as a document), which makes the amount of work I have to do that much higher.

I have ~145 or so pages of pure notes (not counting prototype excerpts) from one place to record, all the discord notes, and then a bunch more (thankfully, much shorter than 145 but still ~40 or so) all to transcribe in the more organized format I am aiming for. It's going to be a royal pain.

But the result will be worth it, if I can pull it off.

I won't let this side-project stop me from writing the story itself, mind you. I still intend to write it while streaming. (I took a week off of streaming in a desperate attempt to get my health back--it didn't work; I've got a sore throat which has persisted throughout the day.) I will stream other things as well--art, minecraft--but I intend to primarily​ stream writing my story.

But in my free time, I feel it's a valid choice to instead of writing the story to work on the notes because of the benefits behind having done so. My notes are a hectic mess as-is. Formatting them to be more organized and collected, with info previously not stated (at least not in that way), allowing me to have the info all available when needed.

It's a lot of work.

But I'm chipping away at it--slowly, gradually.