I have been feeling the wave upon wave of just...pure, sheer depression for quite a while. It's been very very bad with my head in a very very bad mental headspace.
And then on top of that bad mental headspace.
After having felt it.
When I think of the things which I am doing inadequately or have failed to do altogether.
The feeling of being a failure just overwhelms me.
And I just feel like utter junk that so much potential that I had the ability to help unlock.
Because of laziness on my part.
To top all of that off.
My adorable basically-a-three-year-old-kitten is...very clearly, not well.
She vomited, refused food, was antisocial, apathetic, very clearly looked miserable.
And it is past midnight on New Years Day/Eve.
My sister took her to the 24-hour vet, but that was over two hours ago. I've heard nothing back yet and I feel very powerless.