Where you don't particularly feel like doing much, but what you do feel like doing is things you know you absolutely shouldn't be doing?
...Yeah that was me today.
I had all day free.
I could have done anything.
I did games.
Knowing that I could do anything, and that there were things I should have been doing. Work-work, for instance (why did I even bother to bring the laptop home if not to work?!?), but also other stuff.
Today is solid proof I'm in another depressive episode.
The bipolar is extra strong today--at times, there were flashes of the appetite I should have. Two or three times, the whimsy overcame me to eat something meaningful. And yet, when I tried to eat, suddenly, I could only eat half of what I should.
Worse, this was paired with the above. I did not need to have that chocolate muffin. I did need to either finish my lunch or have the other two hot dogs which were my supper; both I left only half finished. (I did eat half the hot dogs, but I should have eaten all four.)
I'm just making all the wrong decisions today.