Right now, I utterly lack it.
I want to draw, but I lack the inspiration for it--you can force art when lacking inspiration (heck, webcomic artists do so out of necessity), but the quality of the product often suffers as a consequence, and frankly? I honestly don't want to. I wanna make art, but I want to make it when the inspiration is there.
I also want to write, which is easier to force, and has less of an immediate quality drop, and is also a necessity to actually write a novel, and a script for that matter. The problem is...to write, you need focus, and I don't have it. Art doesn't require focus, but you need (well, 'need') inspiration; writing doesn't require inspiration (tho inspiration definitely helps), but you need focus for it.
And right now I am both uninspired and unfocused, unfortunately, so I can't really do either. Well, I can, if I really really really forced it--but I honestly don't want to try that hard of a force. So at least tonight, with as tired as I am, I do acknowledge that I am choosing to do nothing.
Reframing things from "I can't do this" to "What're the obstacles to this?", focus/inspiration, with a side of tiredness and lack of willpower/desire right now are the obstacles. It's possible to overcome them, but tonight at least, I guess I am okay with not attempting that and making the active decision not to.
I'm already kinda regretting it, but it's 5 am already and, yes, I kinda do want earlier sleep, at least an attempt.
I really shouldn't be doing nothing other than tiktok. (Speaking of which, need to fix the audio issues there.)
But at least today, don't have it in me.
Then again, Saturday is usually my "rest day" anyway, so I guess that's okay. Today, nothing. Tomorrow, I need to be harder on myself.
I want to draw, but I lack the inspiration for it--you can force art when lacking inspiration (heck, webcomic artists do so out of necessity), but the quality of the product often suffers as a consequence, and frankly? I honestly don't want to. I wanna make art, but I want to make it when the inspiration is there.
I also want to write, which is easier to force, and has less of an immediate quality drop, and is also a necessity to actually write a novel, and a script for that matter. The problem is...to write, you need focus, and I don't have it. Art doesn't require focus, but you need (well, 'need') inspiration; writing doesn't require inspiration (tho inspiration definitely helps), but you need focus for it.
And right now I am both uninspired and unfocused, unfortunately, so I can't really do either. Well, I can, if I really really really forced it--but I honestly don't want to try that hard of a force. So at least tonight, with as tired as I am, I do acknowledge that I am choosing to do nothing.
Reframing things from "I can't do this" to "What're the obstacles to this?", focus/inspiration, with a side of tiredness and lack of willpower/desire right now are the obstacles. It's possible to overcome them, but tonight at least, I guess I am okay with not attempting that and making the active decision not to.
I'm already kinda regretting it, but it's 5 am already and, yes, I kinda do want earlier sleep, at least an attempt.
I really shouldn't be doing nothing other than tiktok. (Speaking of which, need to fix the audio issues there.)
But at least today, don't have it in me.
Then again, Saturday is usually my "rest day" anyway, so I guess that's okay. Today, nothing. Tomorrow, I need to be harder on myself.
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