...Explaining to my tae kwon do instructor why I missed the test on Saturday. I don't want to lie, but at the same time. I really don't want to admit that the reason was sheer utter incompetence on my part by virtue of me having forgotten, more or less.
There's just no dignity in it and it's shameful. I said I would be there. It was important for me to be there. This is an actively-attending student, one of our more elite ones, doing a higher-ranked belt test. A belt test where thank god I wasn't required to be on the panel (that would make it ten times worse), by only by virtue of it being so high ranked that it's something you want that much higher ranked person to be on the panel for.
I just feel all kinds of terrible about missing it and I just don't really want to admit that I wasn't there because it's one of those things where I absolutely should have been there for...yet I wasn't. And I wasn't there not because of some valid reason like a prior obligation. I wasn't there because I was a moron.
I'll survive, albeit with a great amount of guilt.