Like. I'm just...incredibly happy. I feel like I can do this. I feel reasonably competent. I mean. I know I've still got a ton of work I need to do. And. Well. I definitely need to do something to actively maintain my skills, and what's important. I know that I need to be sharp. I know that with one slip, my grades get screwed. I know I basically have to be perfect to do as well as I need to--and I also need to do my work in such a way that I can both keep the skills this time, and also have something to show for it. (A portfolio.)
But I feel good. I feel like it's something I can do. I just...I feel like this is what I need to do, and that I can do it. I just feel confident, more powerful, more alive, and that's all kinds of fantastic to feel.