Morning/Work self:
"How hard is it to create the content you want.
How hard is it to create the webcomic you want to.
How hard is it to work on Phyrra and Cyrus.
How hard is it to work on your Civ 3 mod.
How hard is it to work on Castle 4-0 in minecraft.
How hard is it to send the email to work that you've been meaning to for literally two months now.
How hard is it to find the time to cancel your appointment that overlaps inconveniently with your staff meeting." (Okay so that one requires a phone and a time when they're open and I'm not working, and since I left my phone at work today, can't do it until Thursday.)
"How hard is it to make the retraining appointment you need for your job.
How hard is it to stop procrastinating on your student loan paperwork.
How hard is it to not waste your time."
And after all of the above, summarized as, basically:
"How hard is it to. not. play. TFT. and. waste. your. entire. night. on. it."
Current post-work self?
"I'm tired, both physically and mentally, a little depressed, I really just don't feel like doing most of the things I need to do, so I just...kinda...wanna play tft right now."
And the dissonance between the two only feeds my depression further.