The work I am doing is stuff that is time-sensitive for the most part, and which the site would be much much much better off with, with me having done so. But my god is it draining me a lot and I'm not even done yet. I feel like overall it is really worth it though because I care about the site and I am really really trying to give everything that I should be giving and to make the most positive influence, the best changes, possible for the site.
Which I am, mostly, doing. I am not being as thorough as I should; I am not writing as much as I should; there are things that I know I wanted to do which I ended up forgetting to do which I won't actually remember to do, and there are also things that I know I should do but which I have slacked off for ages on in actually doing.
Basically.
I'm working more right now than I do when I actually do work and it is exhausting...
...But it is also exhilarating. It is something which feels good to do, I just...need to put in the time to do it especially the things which are time-sensitive. It does help me a lot considering how worthless I feel; doing these things makes me feel a little less worthless, like what I say, what I do, actually makes a bit of a difference and can move things in a positive direction.