How do I know? Because I'm having trouble smiling. I'm having trouble summoning happy thoughts. I'm under barrage from an assault of negativity, with wave after wave of self-hatred poisoning my mind. It's just one thing after another. This isn't some mild episode. THIS is something really serious. And it had literally no trigger at all. Happy one moment, this the next.
So, this sucks. I'm at work. I'm expected to smile. Normally, I can give a real one. And even if not, I can put up a fake one. But right now, I physically CAN'T. I'm not liking where this is going, but there's literally nothing I can do about it.
Depression is the worst.