"Oh, we're feeling more alert right now than normal!"
"Looking forward to us inevitably being way more tired than normal later."

​As a matter of fact: yup...

And we're also late for bed and we're also not having moved things from our purse into a grand new purse.

So, uh.

Not the best state.

We also have a ton of adulting to do. Bills, credit cart, training, etc.

We're literally not streaming tonight because of digestive issues.

I realize that digestive issues are something everyone gets.

But I get them more than we ought to get them.

We can feel the fat there, whenever we use the bathroom--for either kind of business there.

It feels like we're struggling to get everything out, and that there's something blocking smooth passage through the intestines to expel the material be it liquid or solid.

What would that be if not for fat?

Getting an occasional upset stomach would be fine, and the gurgly groans strike everyone every once and a while, so the runs are not uncommon.

Having them as often as we do?

Not normal.

We need to get this fixed.

We knew we would be badly off from two years of doing nothing, absolutely nothing. No walking, no exercising, just sitting on a computer all day and all night.

But we need to pull out all the stops on trimming fat.

We're not overweight.

In fact, we're a perfectly healthy weight.

We don't want to lose weight.

We want to lose excess fat.

Specifically the suspected visceral fat.

We suspect that our main issue is that we have too much visceral fat in the lower abdominal area, and that fat is why we have the issues that we do.

But there's not much which can be done about that fat.

Not much, but not nothing.

And it starts with getting in good shape.

We're already working out.

But we need to step it up.

We need to actually get that fat gone.

And it's not.
​But it needs to be.

Still need to do that medical bill and IRS stuff and health things like shower and hygiene.

But we managed to get Stardew Valley stuff mostly done (we still have some goals--the Qi fishing quest and getting to 100,000,000 so we can view the final cutscene with the bonus content, not to mention, farm stuff), and start on the new League missions, and stream some TFT.

So, productive, but not maximum productive.

​We'll take it!

Proof of that, it's easier to list the things we've not done.

We've yet to pay the medical bill we have. (HIGH PRIORITY)
We've yet to look into a potential IRS thing. (HIGH PRIORITY)
We've yet to shower.
We didn't work out.
We didn't do dental hygiene.
We didn't do hair stuff.
We didn't pick up meds. (FIRST THING TOMORROW.)
We didn't finish work stuff. (PROBABLY NEED TO FINISH THIS TONIGHT.)
We didn't finish cross-posting in terms of communities, including doing the detailed work on one discord server that we wanted to do.

Sounds like a lot we didn't do, right?

Well that should give you an insight into what we did​ do. We were in a terrible spot.

We managed to fully recover.
We got 100% completion on Stardew Valley.

Things which we needed to do all week long, we got done.

We stayed on top of things.

So like.

While there's still a lot we didn't do.

​We did more than we didn't.

We're just falling apart.

We're just.

​Not well.

We're just.

Terrible right now.

​Sorry.

It's out our Meism.

Our personal belief.

Name pending research on whether we can use it, since we inevitably won't be able to.

It's a pun on Deism, and how in our belief system, there's a strong focus on the self.

Anyway.

We really want to make it.

But we know ourselves.

We never will.

We wish we would.

But we know better.

Since we'll never get to make a blog explaining our beliefs, which we call Meism, you should still get our cliff notes version.

Keep in mind:
These are cliff notes.
These are works in progress.
These are incomplete.
These are not finalized.
These are ever-changing, ever-expanding.

And even with the beliefs set in stone, these are not meant as explanations of them; these are meant as notes so that we can explain our beliefs in a future blog.

The blog we doubt we'll ever make.

Since we probably never make said blog tho, take them since notes are better than the beliefs never manifesting in our reality at all.

MEISM NOTES:
(INCOMPLETE)

REALMS:
Mind/Thought (Headspace)
Dream
Astral
Spiritual 
Spirit
"Heaven"
Eldritch Hell
Demon Hell
Damned Hell
(Maybe more)
(Record of all thought and Perception / Akashik)

SATANS: (each can offer deals)
Lucifer, the Lightbringer, Fallen Angel, The Fallen (benevolent deals, tests of faith)
First Evil, Corruptor (very bad)
Satan of Satanism (research needed)
Eldritch Horror (not to be trifled with)
Lord of the Damned, King of Hell (services)

GOD:
(Heaven)
All combo's I've thought of, with:
Omnipotent, Omnipresent, All-Loving, All-Understanding
(Focus, Multiverse, etc.)

Heaven: 
How it's both God, and yet, every individual, connected to all that ever was, all that ever will be, maybe all that ever COULD be, networked to _everything_

POWERS:
Occult, Witch, Spiritual, Religion, Perception, Belief, maybe more 

ENTITIES:
True Demons 4+ (Eldritch, Corruptor Evil, Fallen Angel, Malevolent Ghost/Spirit/etc.)
False Demons ??? 
Fae
Spirits
Angels
Guides
Ghosts 
gods 
(Definitely more)


MULTIVERSE THEORY/CORE BELIEFS: 
Everything that you do, matters.
Strive to create the best worlds, so that as many "trees" have good roots as possible. 
While infinite numbers of worlds exist, many trees can merge, and there are far fewer trees in the infinite than we think as a result;
Some worlds are more probable than others, so Strive for the best
Some worlds don't actually exist in spite of their theoretical ability to;
Worlds perceived are more real;
Some worlds are only visible in other plains

REINCARNATION: 
Separation of Heaven, Soul, Spirit, Mind, Body
(Soul: every incarnation, Spirit: specific incarnation, Body: Vessel, Mind: Medium between realms, Heaven: connection to all life)

FATE/DESTINY:
One immutable, the other changeable. 
What WILL happen in YOUR brach,
Versus what COULD happen in your future, and the most LIKELY braches.

Can be assigned either way, but keep it consistent, with one always correlating to one term, and the other always correlating to the other; they aren't synonymous.

​Belief matters;
Reality bubbles (spark of the divine/connection to heaven), influence on manifesting current world and reality;
More effective on self and immediate surroundings, less effective on others and across distances

We're free.

The League of Legends quest is done.

It was thirty games that we had to do.

In two weeks.

Given we can only play 2-4 days per week.

That meant 2-10 games per day.

We're burnt out.

We're exhausted.

We're an hour, arguably two, past our bedtime and we're still not quite yet finished with stuff to do before bed.

But it's done.

We're free.

​We did it.

It's possible some of the games involved in the grind got left out.

But it was still a lot.

Yes, we did play a bot game, to try and test if the quest would work there, desperate for it to--nope!

All games had to be done on Summoner's Rift. (At least we think. Might've also included ARAM but we don't like to play ARAMs. Especially since doing so taints our OP GG, as shown above.)

It's exhausting.
It has left us absolutely burnt out, in need of rest. Desperately, we need time to recover.

But we did it.

​We actually pulled it off!!!

We spent all day testing another Stardew Valley mod.

As a reminder, we have a time-restricted League quest we only have a couple days left to complete.

And weekly TFT quests we haven't touched.

To be fair. We did get a lot of progress done. We managed to get most of the mods we really want. (We also have another two or three to test.)

But we have poor time management skills because while we can do Stardew Valley at any time, we're on the clock for the other stuff.

​Oops?