Well, I'm a procrastinator. I've got three hours of practical work time (because I need to start preparing to leave at six) to do over a month of blogging.
I should be able to manage the task, once my computer recognizes that, yes, I DO have a valid internet connection. I am SO close to getting it done, and I KNOW I'm on the right track to sorting my life out.
I even set a timer to get up earlier. It...didn't do much GOOD, since I was in the mindset, "but I don't wanna blog...", or eat for that matter, which lost me four hours. (Well, three plus standard morning routine time...which WOULD have been in the actual morning had I done it immediately, mind you!)
That, however, can be attributed to my force of will needing time to build up, my willpower to DO the task finally exceeding the desire not to.
...It helps that I have maintained strong enough willpower to have a motivator: mafia right now is a borderline addiction of mine. It always has been, but my mind is obsessing over my games, which builds in a desire to constantly check back on them. With the number that I'm in, no matter the time of day, there's usually at least one with new content.
Now, that's something I'm learning to moderate. I'm becoming more strict about visiting once or twice a day. But when I have yet to do my first visit for the day, the urge to check is REALLY strong...and I have forbidden myself from doing so before blogging.
Thus, strong motivation to get my blog back up.
So, while the habits I'm building might not be the healthiest, they're healthiER, and I'll take that. Step by step, I'm getting closer to having my life be mine.
It won't be long before I can start writing again, and doing Red Hood Rider again. New month coming up, new life.
I know there will be hurdles slowing me down. Always are. Heck, just looking at me right now is proof enough of that, two months without a blog update!
But I can do this.
I KNOW I can.
So without further ado...gonna start writing the blog now.
I should be able to manage the task, once my computer recognizes that, yes, I DO have a valid internet connection. I am SO close to getting it done, and I KNOW I'm on the right track to sorting my life out.
I even set a timer to get up earlier. It...didn't do much GOOD, since I was in the mindset, "but I don't wanna blog...", or eat for that matter, which lost me four hours. (Well, three plus standard morning routine time...which WOULD have been in the actual morning had I done it immediately, mind you!)
That, however, can be attributed to my force of will needing time to build up, my willpower to DO the task finally exceeding the desire not to.
...It helps that I have maintained strong enough willpower to have a motivator: mafia right now is a borderline addiction of mine. It always has been, but my mind is obsessing over my games, which builds in a desire to constantly check back on them. With the number that I'm in, no matter the time of day, there's usually at least one with new content.
Now, that's something I'm learning to moderate. I'm becoming more strict about visiting once or twice a day. But when I have yet to do my first visit for the day, the urge to check is REALLY strong...and I have forbidden myself from doing so before blogging.
Thus, strong motivation to get my blog back up.
So, while the habits I'm building might not be the healthiest, they're healthiER, and I'll take that. Step by step, I'm getting closer to having my life be mine.
It won't be long before I can start writing again, and doing Red Hood Rider again. New month coming up, new life.
I know there will be hurdles slowing me down. Always are. Heck, just looking at me right now is proof enough of that, two months without a blog update!
But I can do this.
I KNOW I can.
So without further ado...gonna start writing the blog now.
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