I have the sense, not immediately.
I have the sense, I'll have to fight for them.
I have the sense, that I'll need to make sacrifices for them.
I have the sense, that my motivation will come and go and that they'll never come to be unless I have the drive to keep going even when motivation wanes.
But I have the sense.
I can do it.
Right now, basically.
I just...believe in myself.
I don't often give myself that luxury, especially as time has shown I often can't.
I feel like I can actually do it.
I can make something of my life.
I feel it.
I know it.
It is a strange sensation to have.
That feeling, which I know is nearly impossible.
Yet to know that somehow I can do it.
It defies words, but I have it now.
And due to how rare it is.
Due to how much of a commodity it is.
I felt the need to blog about it.
I am going to do this.
It will take a hell of a long time to get right, get good.
But I can do this and I will do this.