So remember when I did that gigantic ramble about me that was based off of an imaginary conversation I thought I might have? Yeah, well, something similar happened to drift into my mind today. An absolutely epic ramble about me, mainly focused on the differences between my dreams and my reality, how I live in the dreamworld and the only thing keeping me from staying there forever is that I want to share the dream and for the dreams to last even after I'm gone, but just like then, it was in the form of an imaginary conversation.
And right now, I can't translate that conversation into a ramble. Not directly. I need time to mediate it through writing. I'll do my best not to lose the thoughts, but in the mean time, you'll just have to take my word for it, that I had an amazing mental conversation which was very revealing.
It did have a little bit of self-hate in there, but not emo self-hate, more like honest reflection, in that I was giving a perspective on myself that was, well, giving a look on how my mind works both the good and the absolute horrible, dark things that go on in there. The basics involved deal with how much instability there is in there, dark impulses, random thoughts, and whatnot all having some negative consequences yet also the good the instability gives.
It was, in essence, a description of why I am me. Why I can seem "out of it", why my "head is in the clouds", why I have absolutely horrible grasp on real-life situations but master the finest of nuances to them when writing about fictional versions, why I have such good ideas yet never see them through, why I have a fast-working mind but horribly-slow ways of expressing my thoughts.
That is just a touch of the surface. It gave a look at who I am. Mostly original content, not repeat, too. I'm just, frustratingly, lacking the proper way to get the conversation translated into rambling. Sorry.
And right now, I can't translate that conversation into a ramble. Not directly. I need time to mediate it through writing. I'll do my best not to lose the thoughts, but in the mean time, you'll just have to take my word for it, that I had an amazing mental conversation which was very revealing.
It did have a little bit of self-hate in there, but not emo self-hate, more like honest reflection, in that I was giving a perspective on myself that was, well, giving a look on how my mind works both the good and the absolute horrible, dark things that go on in there. The basics involved deal with how much instability there is in there, dark impulses, random thoughts, and whatnot all having some negative consequences yet also the good the instability gives.
It was, in essence, a description of why I am me. Why I can seem "out of it", why my "head is in the clouds", why I have absolutely horrible grasp on real-life situations but master the finest of nuances to them when writing about fictional versions, why I have such good ideas yet never see them through, why I have a fast-working mind but horribly-slow ways of expressing my thoughts.
That is just a touch of the surface. It gave a look at who I am. Mostly original content, not repeat, too. I'm just, frustratingly, lacking the proper way to get the conversation translated into rambling. Sorry.
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