Last week for Father's Day we finished Sherlock, that's a detail I didn't mention before. Tonight it was Mission Impossible, the original film, we basically watched those over the course of time in the worst possible order. What was it, 4-2-3-5-1? Something like that, it was chaotic and messy and random.
Now they're just doing the normal talking and I'm tired, which isn't surprising given my day which is a bit of a story in of itself. Basically I was woken up after having not gotten much sleep and got less coffee than normal, even though these were both things which were half-fixed.
But. That's the main thing on my mind right now. I'm a little bit concerned that I'm messing up on documentation for games I'm modding--it's not that I can't keep up. I can. I'm worried I'm not keeping up accurately, in that I am making small mistakes which snowball into bigger messes, but with luck, nothing beyond salvage especially since these extras I provide are things most don't.
Funnily enough I do most manually than basically anyone could do with a program, too. I do it not for me. I gain nothing from modding that much. I do it for the players and I just really want to help them, to give them assistance, to be there and give them a good game. Which also means I'm rather alarmed at how much I don't see activity; I question if maybe I am at fault for it, since with summer I'd expect an increase in posts yet I've seen the opposite.
Yet beyond games where I play mother. I just. I love people. I want to help them. I want to be a part of their lives. There are certain individuals who I love more than the rest of the world. And I never want to lose them. Yet in that sense I have the Prince-from-Princess Tutu-like sense of "love the whole world but especially a special person (or two)".
Because my feelings there are different, deeper. I just like people. Yet these people aren't just like. <3