That’s unacceptable.
The only tears they should ever produce due to me are tears of joy, from pure happiness and laughter I bring.
I need to do better.
I need to get better, for their sake.
They are the love of my life--me in pain, I can take.
Them in pain due to me is unacceptable.
I love them.
I can’t let my shortcomings let them worry.
They shouldn’t need to live in anxiety or fear for me. They shouldn’t feel inadequate or fear me leaving or anything.
They are the most important thing in the world to me.
A fire has been lit in my soul.
I remembered why I am alive.
The sadness and despair is still THERE, but it has been buried by a passion and drive.
I need to remember this feeling and hold onto it.
This is what I'm living for--and it's enough.
My pain isn’t GONE gone, but it has instantly been lessened by my sheer determination and drive.
I love my fiancé. They are the love of my life. The most important thing in my life. They are my greatest treasure. The most important part of my world.
No matter what I lose, I can never let myself lose them, nor myself.
I will be better than I have been and it starts now.