Yes I know, I've said that before, only to relapse later, but I am cautiously optimistic that this time for real, it'll start to heal and stay healed.
Believe me, nobody's more annoyed at how debilitating the illness has been than I am, because I know all too perfectly well and good exactly what it means. Basically, it's dragged me down, and all I can do to stop it is...tough it out. Wait. Try different treatments, but ultimately, be at the mercy of time to just. Get better.
And I hate having no control over how I am doing.
If I am sucking, I prefer to suck because I just suck. Not because some illness is dragging me down.