So last night, and continuing into today with my naps, my dreams have been a little bit odd. I'm getting nested dreams. Dreams within dreams. That's happened before, but usually both unrealistic or both lucid.
In this case, though, I'm having an unrealistic sub-dream, and when I wake up from it, I'm in a lucid dream. That's actually a...really, really bad combination. It can be incredibly confusing, blurring the lines between dream and reality. In particular, there was one which felt like a nightmare to me because it felt so real. In fact, I'd call it the first legitimate nightmare I've ever had, at least in the sense people think of nightmares.
I had woken up from a dream in discomfort (like I said, lucid dream after silly dream), so I looked at my right leg. It was only in my right leg, but at first glance, I saw what was apparently black marks over my body, initially assumed to just be some sort of weird scrape...and then I saw them start to move. And I got a better look at them, realizing...they were UNDER my skin, not a breach of said skin. And then, I felt them...these worm-like parasites, squirming around my right leg.
This is a lucid dream I'm having it in. Everything felt real. Painfully real. The fear, the panic, I had was every bit as real. I was confused, I was terrified, I wanted to know what could possibly cause that to happen overnight, and I was legitimately afraid, entering into rapid-fire thought mode. I called out to my mom in my panic, was clutching the leg in horror...I remember the details so vividly because, again, it felt like reality. I don't even know what I managed to use in order to break the illusion, to tell myself I was still dreaming.
Needless to say, though, that was...unnerving. In fact, quite a lot of the dreams were uncomfortable in some manner or another, but that one was definitely the worse. It really, really rattles you when you have something so...so...well, REAL happening to your body in front of you. Like, I normally have zero fear of bugs or parasites at all. I don't think I'd really care that much if I were to be infested with one so long as I didn't see it. But seeing and feeling the crawling on my leg? And having that sensation be very much real? It's just...a nightmare.
In other news, my browser's eating up a concerning amount of CPU. Even when idle, it's at 40%. And looking at Chrome's task manager (not to mention educated guesses with the normal task manager), it says that it was the browser itself, not any of my tabs. I've killed all but the most essential of tabs, and even of those killed tabs, I closed most of them to store in bookmarks. (Because even a killed tab eats up some amount of memory according to Windows' task manager.) Still there, thus the concern. It's consistently high, with seemingly no cause. And it really is stumping me. As far as I can tell, every other detail is normal as before. Yet here it is, slowing up my computer because the browser itself is demanding a large amount of my CPU.
I'll see if I can figure it out.
In this case, though, I'm having an unrealistic sub-dream, and when I wake up from it, I'm in a lucid dream. That's actually a...really, really bad combination. It can be incredibly confusing, blurring the lines between dream and reality. In particular, there was one which felt like a nightmare to me because it felt so real. In fact, I'd call it the first legitimate nightmare I've ever had, at least in the sense people think of nightmares.
I had woken up from a dream in discomfort (like I said, lucid dream after silly dream), so I looked at my right leg. It was only in my right leg, but at first glance, I saw what was apparently black marks over my body, initially assumed to just be some sort of weird scrape...and then I saw them start to move. And I got a better look at them, realizing...they were UNDER my skin, not a breach of said skin. And then, I felt them...these worm-like parasites, squirming around my right leg.
This is a lucid dream I'm having it in. Everything felt real. Painfully real. The fear, the panic, I had was every bit as real. I was confused, I was terrified, I wanted to know what could possibly cause that to happen overnight, and I was legitimately afraid, entering into rapid-fire thought mode. I called out to my mom in my panic, was clutching the leg in horror...I remember the details so vividly because, again, it felt like reality. I don't even know what I managed to use in order to break the illusion, to tell myself I was still dreaming.
Needless to say, though, that was...unnerving. In fact, quite a lot of the dreams were uncomfortable in some manner or another, but that one was definitely the worse. It really, really rattles you when you have something so...so...well, REAL happening to your body in front of you. Like, I normally have zero fear of bugs or parasites at all. I don't think I'd really care that much if I were to be infested with one so long as I didn't see it. But seeing and feeling the crawling on my leg? And having that sensation be very much real? It's just...a nightmare.
In other news, my browser's eating up a concerning amount of CPU. Even when idle, it's at 40%. And looking at Chrome's task manager (not to mention educated guesses with the normal task manager), it says that it was the browser itself, not any of my tabs. I've killed all but the most essential of tabs, and even of those killed tabs, I closed most of them to store in bookmarks. (Because even a killed tab eats up some amount of memory according to Windows' task manager.) Still there, thus the concern. It's consistently high, with seemingly no cause. And it really is stumping me. As far as I can tell, every other detail is normal as before. Yet here it is, slowing up my computer because the browser itself is demanding a large amount of my CPU.
I'll see if I can figure it out.
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