Like right now.
Once again, there is stuff that I wanted to talk about. But I've been feeling terrible all day long. I'd really rather just get ready for bed and sleep. I'm exhausted, out of energy, and sluggish. Apparently my computer has picked up on this and is itself going slow. There's a lot I need to get done. I need to watch the anime I missed. I need to do a ton of stuff, particularly mafia errands. I need to keep myself from failing my class by doing the work and being ready for the midterm test. (I'm not.)
I want to do nothing but sleep.
I call it the crash. It happens for about a week after a major event, PARTICULARLY competition. In my case, it frequently has a small delay built in. My emotions were still strong on Sunday, so I felt normal. I was still bitter (as I think I blogged about) Monday, so I was sustained fairly well.
Then all that passion faded away, and with the emotions gone, the adrenaline faded, WHAM. My body collapsed under the abuse it had been dealt.
It sucks. But I'll get better, soon enough. My life and my body need to normalize, in spite of how the two conflict (the more I normalize my life, the less normal my body is; the more I normalize my body, the less stable my life will be), and while they never get balanced, within a few days, I should be able to get everything feeling normal-for-ME.
Once again, there is stuff that I wanted to talk about. But I've been feeling terrible all day long. I'd really rather just get ready for bed and sleep. I'm exhausted, out of energy, and sluggish. Apparently my computer has picked up on this and is itself going slow. There's a lot I need to get done. I need to watch the anime I missed. I need to do a ton of stuff, particularly mafia errands. I need to keep myself from failing my class by doing the work and being ready for the midterm test. (I'm not.)
I want to do nothing but sleep.
I call it the crash. It happens for about a week after a major event, PARTICULARLY competition. In my case, it frequently has a small delay built in. My emotions were still strong on Sunday, so I felt normal. I was still bitter (as I think I blogged about) Monday, so I was sustained fairly well.
Then all that passion faded away, and with the emotions gone, the adrenaline faded, WHAM. My body collapsed under the abuse it had been dealt.
It sucks. But I'll get better, soon enough. My life and my body need to normalize, in spite of how the two conflict (the more I normalize my life, the less normal my body is; the more I normalize my body, the less stable my life will be), and while they never get balanced, within a few days, I should be able to get everything feeling normal-for-ME.
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