Because when I say "get up", I mean "get out of bed", not "wake up". I'm waking up, then going back to sleep. To some extent, this can be attributed to me wanting to retreat inside the dreams. (Inside the dreams, the closest I had to drama was a farmboy/farmgirl protagonist that could talk to animals ranting at a Cruella DeVille lookalike that was part of a corporate conglomerate who had accidentally slain a couple of animals during a tour and was rather callous about it.)
I just. Have felt a desire to retreat within the dream world and not face the reality, not face the world and wake up. I've been sleepy easily no matter how much rest I've gotten. I've slept for hours more than I should, then extra hours. I've been feeling incredibly lonely, needy, and yet also a mess. A bunch of stuff jumbled together. Basically I'm not exactly in a good condition.
And it took me until today to realize, but this has to have been going on for quite a while.
You win some, you lose some.
And this is one I am most definitely losing.
Not much I can do other than weather the storm.