I think I've been hit by a bad case of depression. Like...I've been sleepy all day, low on energy, and every activity I've tried to start, I just haven't been able to motivate myself to do. My drive is just...dead. I wish it wasn't, that I could magically get out of my funk, but I can't just flick a switch. Life's not that easy.
If you've got bipolar disorder or even a depression diagnosis, then you probably know what I'm talking about. There's just...nothing there. I've been wasting time playing Mardek, but while my mind has been working at full speed just like normal, the urge to make something from it is...not there.
I managed to throw together a quirky miniboss squad for Ruby to occasionally fight, but that is literally everything I've done except trudge through work, apply my medication, eat breakfast, eat supper, and play Mardek. A complete waste of a day. I just...can't work right now, even though I want to. I can't ramble even though I had like five or six different ideas for a blog post.
Instead, I've got...this. Depression sucks. You'd agree if you've had it, it's not something you want to mess around with. Especially since it invites some dark thoughts, like some on suicide. (And yes, thoughts about suicide have entered my mind, though thankfully, not about committing it. Still, though, that they're there is an alarm, a red flag telling me, "abort! abort!".)
If you've got bipolar disorder or even a depression diagnosis, then you probably know what I'm talking about. There's just...nothing there. I've been wasting time playing Mardek, but while my mind has been working at full speed just like normal, the urge to make something from it is...not there.
I managed to throw together a quirky miniboss squad for Ruby to occasionally fight, but that is literally everything I've done except trudge through work, apply my medication, eat breakfast, eat supper, and play Mardek. A complete waste of a day. I just...can't work right now, even though I want to. I can't ramble even though I had like five or six different ideas for a blog post.
Instead, I've got...this. Depression sucks. You'd agree if you've had it, it's not something you want to mess around with. Especially since it invites some dark thoughts, like some on suicide. (And yes, thoughts about suicide have entered my mind, though thankfully, not about committing it. Still, though, that they're there is an alarm, a red flag telling me, "abort! abort!".)
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